[ SECRET POST #2427 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2427 ⌋

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Comments

[fscom]

05. http://i39.tinypic.com/xelsid.jpg

[feotakahari]

Is it really too late to say you're sorry?

[dinogrrl]

^This.

[deadtree]

it might be. I was a COMPLETE ASS on the internet when I was like 14 or 15 whenever I encountered anyone who liked the pairing that sank my ship, and I didn't even realize it until I was much older. By now a decade and a half has gone by and I can't exactly go and find those people and say I'm sorry.

[(Anonymous)]

You don't need to specify "on the internet" or even the "an ass". Just mention you were 14/15 is enough. Everyone is an ass to everyone else, everywhere, all the time until they hit their mid twenties.

[(Anonymous)]

People are more likely to behave like asses when they are under the age of 24, but not everyone does, and those who do certainly don't do it to "everyone else, everywhere, all the time."

[(Anonymous)]

Age doesn't make people more mature or less of an ass, sadly. I know plenty of people who are in their mid-twenties or older who are still insufferable douchebags.

[(Anonymous)]

If it was that long ago, a lot of the people the OP was nasty to have probably changed LJ names, fandom spaces, or plain left the fandom world. So if that's the case, there's little they can really do. But I agree there's no reason they can't apologize to people who they know are still around. Certain people were horrible to me, and I have to admit I'd be open to an apology.

[(Anonymous)]

OP here.

Sort of? I've made up with some people, drifted away from others and it's been about two years. I just didn't realise how over the top angry I used to be until it didn't happen anymore.

[(Anonymous)]

Dudette, that depression-rage and overinvolvement never goes away. it only goes into remission. You want to avoid repeating the mistakes of your past, you need to recuse yourself from fandom, because you will relapse, and you will get overinvolved again, and you will insult and create wank all over again. Posting to F!S is probably a major diagnostic of an imminent relapse, this is the place to create wank you know. Just being here is like a recovering alkie hanging out in a bar holding a full wallet.

[sootyowl]

I don't think that necessarily true? They have taken steps to modify their behaviour and have become a healthier individual because of it. If fandom makes them happy, I don't think they should disown it because in their past they weren't a great internet poster.

Also, depression-rage can go away, if you start taking care of your depression (which OP has). Telling someone they will relapse isn't helpful.

[(Anonymous)]

The blatant truth that relapses will happen is more helpful than the cuddly fiction that if you do absolutely everything you can you might, just might, not have one possibly. You're being optimistic, and that is nice, and you are trying to be helpful, and that is nice too. Nice is going to hurt her when the relapse comes though. Nice is going to amplify the inevitable sense of self-failure that always accompanies pulling out of a relapse. Nice encourages bucket loads of guilt over that perceived failure, and you can't *nice* that sense of self-failure away even though it isn't a failure in the slightest because it will always feel like it is until the relapse goes back into remission. Guilt kills people with depression, nice kills people with depression, false hope kills people with depression. So stop trying to be nice, because you're being a bastard when you do it and you be nice enough you'll end up killing someone.

[(Anonymous)]

This is probably the most incredibly cruel, twisted, and potentially dangerous form of trolling that I have ever seen here.

Being a dick to people on the internet because you have depression is not the same as being an addict, and you damn well know it. You should be ashamed of yourself for acting as if it is.

[(Anonymous)]

I think that's pretty dependent on the person and really unhelpful and negative to tell a person that it's definitely always going to come back and that the good feelings they have now are only temporary.

[(Anonymous)]

No, unhelpful is trying to kid on it won't happen just because it seems nicer that way.

[(Anonymous)]

Seriously. You're not the OP's psychiatrist. Let it go.

[(Anonymous)]

Dude, they've had therapy. They've both matured and learned coping skills. And depression doesn't depend on what internet spaces you hang around. You're an asshole.

[ninety6tears]

LOL NO

[(Anonymous)]

I'm really jealous and happy that you've found/gotten help that works. I've been in that angry place and it's not happy nor healthy. Thankfully I hold my rants for private locked entries so I haven't had any drama.

Maybe make a general apology somewhere? That could help a bit with the guilt.

[(Anonymous)]

They probably deserved it, OP.

But it probably would have been better to have contained your rants to a private, locked journal so that everyone else didn't realize what a jerk you were. That way you can rant and rave to your heart's content but not offend anyone.

[transcriptanon]

[Picture is a humanoid figure next to a small vehicle standing on a spaceship overlooking a planet with the sun rising behind it.]

I used to get so angry with fics I didn't agree with that I wrote rants about them in my journal, ruined several friendships and created wank when they were copy-pasted to the authors...

Now I take anti-depressant and see a therapist and I can back-button calmly and move on. I wish I could apologise for being such a jerk.

[(Anonymous)]

It's a workpod resting on the nacelle wings of a galaxy class starship from Star Trek TNG. Probably the Enterprise.

[transcriptanon]

Thanks, I'll add that on page 2!

[(Anonymous)]

First, wow.

And second, isn't it great when growth can allow you to calmly step away from things that irritate you? I try to do that more these days, but folks always want to be caught up in some petty foolishness and make you out to be the bad gu,y because you don't want to fight about something. Good for you, anon! I wish that more people would learn to do this.

[rbhudson]

I feel the same way about the latter half of hs and the early half of college :/