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⌈ Secret Post #2510 ⌋

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Comments

Re: Family guilt

[(Anonymous)]

Just a suggestion, if you can't find your mother's grave, maybe you should find something that you can do, and that might make you feel better? I mean, pick something to concretely do, to give yourself closure. Whatever that thing is, it would have to be something meaningful to you. Make up a ceremony (does not even have to be an actual religious ceremony, even do something silly, if it makes you feel good), then just say to yourself, once this thing that you're going to do is done, you can go on.

Does that make sense? I don't mean like dress up in a costume and wail in the streets or anything (altho you could do that too I guess) but frex, plant a tree with a plaque with your birth mother's name on it, that you can visit. Or even just plant a tree, whether or not you'll visit it again. Or plant a flower, or light a candle, or draw a picture.

...and if you just wanted to vent, and didn't want unsolicited advice, I apologize.

Re: Family guilt

[(Anonymous)]

OP

No no not at all, this actually helped me a lot, thank you so much for saying something.

I had been thinking of lighting a candle for her or something, but I also like the idea of planting something for her. I would just like to have something in the world from someone else that is a token of love for her, rather than the residual feelings of guilt or disgust.

Because no matter how messed up she was as a person, there was still someone who loved her more than anything in the world, and that person was me, because she was my mom. And if nothing else, I would like to leave a little something of my love in the universe for her.

Thank you for the ideas, this made me feel a lot better.

Re: Family guilt

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ayrt

Aaaawww, you sound like such a sweet/good kid, OP. What you said gives me hope for the world. :-)


Whatever you decide to do, to make your feelings tangible/real in the world, I hope it does bring you a sense of completeness/fulfillment/peace.