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cause I want to

I have not left the house for days and in those days I pretty much just spent id laying in bed reading fic on my phone. I feel like shit and know I would feel better if I got up and did something or left the house but because I feel like shit I don't want to get up and do anything or leave the house.

Thankfully I have work tomorrow, which I am dreading, but at least it will get me up and showered and out of the house.

I hate depression. It's not always like this, sometimes my depression is just a lack of feeling or the typical suicidal ideation, but then there are these blob days and I hate them so much but can't seem to do anything when in the middle of it. I have an appointment with a dr to talk meds to see if anything will help with phases like this.

/endrant

Oh hey, blob days is how my depression manifests too. Another thing to make sure is that your thyroid and your iron levels are where they ought to be. Both of these things, when they're out of whack, make blob days more frequent and harder to dig out of.

I hope you feel up to doing a little bit soon!

It's so hot and humid and I'm tired of it. 80°F and 85% humidity at 8 a.m. is just unbearable.

Ugh I feel you. Thankfully the humidty has lessened a tad in the evening here, down to 60%, but it is still over 100° and tomorrow is supposed to be the same temps and even worse humidity. This is normal August weather, not start of Summer weather. We usually build up to it.

Same, OP, same. This is just too damn hot.

I'm frustrated at how long it is taking to get my pain doctor referral. If it doesn't come through this week, I don't even know. And a much more minor problem, but I'm really missing my bi-weekly massages. I guess I hadn't realized how much they'd been helping me mentally until I had to stop.

Also, I've started having nightmares about my flight in July. I just want to not think about it. But clearly my brain has other ideas.

And I'm so tired of Summer, and it is only June. I hate Texas summer. I hate Texas. I'd happily move somewhere else if I could.

Goddamn I'm tired of whinging babies that never have anything good to say, complain about everything, keep declaring they'll leave a place or quit forever... and come back every single day to repeat their dramatic performance.

This includes here, but also everywhere else too including IRL.

I play Marvel Snap and the subreddit has been filled with nonstop I'm quitting the game and never coming back posts for days.

I feel a little bad but sometimes it makes me laugh when they're trying really hard but everybody else in the room knows they'll be back.

It's the worst when they're customers or people who you're forced to be polite to anyway and have to pretend like they weren't swearing yesterday they'd never step foot in this establishment again!

Yes, I've had so many customers who swear they'll NEVER COME HERE AGAIN, and you can see everyone thinking, "Thank God!" And then they come back.

Years ago, I had a coworker who complained constantly how much he hated the company we work for, he hated his coworkers, he always talked about other companies he wants to apply for. I worked with him for years and it was constantly, "fuck this place, I'm going to apply to Company X and Company Y. They pay way better anyway. I can't wait to get away from these fucking idiots."

I left the company in 2020 but came back post-lockdowns. Found out that dude went to a different department but is still at the same company.
Misery loves company, and I learned that the hard way.
I try to keep some distance from people whose main personality trait is hating their life and looking down on others around them. It's like they want their circumstances to change, won't do anything about it, and so they blame everyone else for their circumstances.

My feet are sore, and I'm pretty sure it's because I work remotely and write/do fandom as a hobby, meaning I probably sit more than is healthy. But because my feet have been sore, I haven't been moving around as much.

Any advice? I also have sciatica.

You should talk to your doctor about it.

Otherwise, maybe just try to work a little more standing into your routine and build up very slowly and carefully. Have very comfy shoes while you do this or an anti-fatigue foot mat or both, when you stand.

Is the soreness in your feet caused by the sciatica? Do you know what the root cause is?

You might want to try looking up exercises aimed towards people who aren't very mobile, i.e. chair exercises or something like that, just to start off. Then re-evaluating proper footwear for when you do move around is a good idea. The older I get, the less I'm able to tolerate cheap shoes. It makes my feet sore, and also makes my back hurt.

How old are your shoes? Do they have any padding? Shoes are only meant to last 6 months or so, not the years we all do.

Look up sciatica exercises and try to include them.
Also make an alarm to remind yourself to move a little. Nothing hard - just standing up, doing some light stretching, moving for couple of minutes and going back to work/writting

I want to write something so bad, but have no concrete ideas or direction.

Oh I hate that feeling.

Been feeling so goddamn disconnected and my spaces keep getting smaller. Signed up for a group collab but once again, can't bring myself to do shit even though I want nothing more than to contribute. Might have to drop out if I can't get it together.

Sometimes it's not one big disaster that really gets me, it's the unending series of small to medium problems that all stress me out with no break to catch my breath and gird my loins for the next problem. I am just wound so damn tight right now because of personal health issues that needed and urgent care visit, this stupid heat wave that's forcing me to wonder if the ancient HVAC system will hold out or keel over and die on me at last while leaving me and my pets in danger of heatstroke, my dog getting sick and requiring an emergency vet visit and close monitoring to make sure he's recovering okay and worrying about how I'll pay for his care if he gets worse, a dirty house that needs a thorough vacuum and floor mopping while I'm too worn out to do it, a crazy work schedule that will wreck what vestiges of work/life balance I had, insomnia issues that mean I lie awake at night stressed out and exhausted before passing out and waking up exhausted...

Just. When does this ever quit? I daydream about winning the lottery, which wouldn't solve ALL my problems but it sure as hell would fix 99% of my problems.

Same. It's like one thing after another and another and another and it never stops

Not really a vent but..

I was reading a thing where the writer is giving advice on how to take care of oneself after a high stress crash like an anxiety attack. One of the tips was to talk to people. Advisor added to talk to anyone, a friend, family member, even the cashier ringing stuff up.

And I really appreciated that. When the "talk to people" advice is handed out, I used to interpret that as "talk about your specific problems to someone who cares about you so they can make your problems go away".
After some time, I understand now that "talk to people" means get outside of your own head.
Talk to people so I can hear what someone else has been up to, what's been going on in their life, and just existing in the present moment with another human (like having the smallest of chitchat with the cashier "Hi how are you?" "Good,you?" "I'm OK. Have a good day." "Bye." That's literally living in the moment and it can be a reminder that the world I live in with other people doesn't exist in my head).

Yup. Also works with watching a movie... it takes my focus elsewhere and lets all the stuff settle for a while.

It's good to talk about your problems for the validation and support, but like with anything else, you can't do it for too long or it actually becomes harmful (kind of like reopening old wounds with trauma).

I, too, had thought they meant talk about your feelings or problems with someone. I had never thought about it just being "get out and interact" which makes way more sense. Thank you for posting this.

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