[ SECRET POST #1847 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #1847 ⌋


Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: pages, secrets from Secret Submission Post #.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 - too big ], [ 0 - repeats ]
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments and concerns should go here.

Comments

[fscom.livejournal.com]

10. http://i40.tinypic.com/14ih4t0.png

[(Anonymous)]

I feel like this could use spoiler AND trigger warnings.

[lolofielding.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I just about to say this.

[(Anonymous)]

you could try requesting a spoiler and trigger warning in the appropriate section so techno might see it

[fenm.livejournal.com]

I posted a mention in the first comment section ("Name the fandom [etc]!"), will that help? Or does it need to go in "General comments"?

[violence4.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I still haven't got around to watching this episode yet... :/

[lolofielding.livejournal.com]

Spoilers, sweetie! XD

I'll throw myself out.

[(Anonymous)]

OP here; I'm sorry about that. I hope it wasn't too ruined for you.

[(Anonymous)]

OP here.

I'm sorry, you're right. That was thoughtless of me.

[(Anonymous)]

Why would you make a secret talking about how something triggered you then not put a trigger warning on it?

TF is wrong with you?

[(Anonymous)]

>TF is wrong with you?

OP here. A lot, apparently. I wasn't trying to be course or thoughtless on purpose, I'm sorry.

[(Anonymous)]

+1 on the above comments.

Re the actual secret: it took me a while to realise I had a trigger as well, because everything that set it off seemed perfectly reasonable to cry uncontrollably at...
You shouldn't hate yourself over this. It's been over ten years for me and I'm still not 'over it': tbh, I don't think I ever will be.

[(Anonymous)]

>shouldn't hate yourself over this

OP here. Thanks for the comment, but I'm fairly certain I've been conditioned to hate myself for not being strong enough to.... I don't know. I've been taught that reacting with panic, sadness, or tears is unacceptable. Even in situations that are perfectly legitimate.

I've watched both of my parents almost get killed, and I'm still not allowed to grieve for what could have happened. I don't know what to do.

[masakochan.livejournal.com]

This is just making me wish that certain parts of the Sherlock fandom would realize it is NOT OKAY to suggest playing up on the 'rickroll' idea and turning it into the 'Reichen-roll' because there are some people who are severely triggered, or will be, by this whole scene.

[turkfox.livejournal.com]

That's a thing now? I'm very glad I haven't seen anyone discussing it, I tend to be an arse first and ask questions later and that'd set me off.

[fenm.livejournal.com]

Wait.. what?

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

Hell, OP, that scene is full of triggers. And I'm sorry you have the real-life experience to know how John feels. *hugs*

[(Anonymous)]

OP here. Thank you.

It's never easy watching someone you love very deeply get hurt or maimed, or almost killed, and there's nothing you can do about it. I've watched both of my parents almost get killed, get mangled, the people I love the most in the world, but it is unacceptable for me to react with grief for what happened.

And I don't just mean, oh man my Dad was nearly hit by a car, I mean, I watched my Dad get kicked in the head, and now his blood's all over the floor.

At least now I know that I'm not being "over sensitive", but that I have trauma triggers.

[la-petite-singe.livejournal.com]

That scene is just full of feelings all over the fucking place. I'd imagine nearly any reaction is understandable. (But yeah, spoilers. :\ )

[(Anonymous)]

I actually couldn't watch the episode at all. Different trigger from you, OP, but like you - I didn't realise it was one until I was about 10-15 minutes into the episode. I've watched those first few minutes, and I've watched the very ending, but I don't think I'll ever be able to watch the actual episode through. And after how much I was looking forward to it... =(

[(Anonymous)]

OP here.

I mean, I am glad that I watched this, in a strange way. I can actually identify now that my reactions aren't overreactions, but trauma triggers. I always thought I was too "sensitive", but then I realized I was actually reacting to stuff that happened to me before.

I guess that's what happens when your experiences get discounted in favor of "getting over it".

I am sorry that it proved to be unwatchable for you; it's never a good thing to have the little joys in life robbed from you.

[u2angel.livejournal.com]

I feel you Anon. John's reaction is exactly how I get with real blood. I was surprised that I didn't feel that way when I saw that scene because all I could focus on was how much blood there was :(

[cloud-riven.livejournal.com]

That last paragraph there? The one about not realizing your triggers, that they are serious, and yes, it's a legitimate thing? That's me a little over a year ago :(

Except I was also a total douchnozzle in dismissing trigger discussion in fandom for the first reason you listed and for other, uh, stupider reasons ("warnings will spoil shit" god i want to slap myself some more)

I don't deal at all with domestic violence, or verbal abuse involving people holding power over another, fathers in particular. In fact, I've pretty much got a radar for it, so I know when to change a channel, back-button a fic, or skip a chapter before it happens. Even those signs can be upsetting though, and I feel rather dim for not acknowledging that was never a good thing. So when a friend of mine showed me a clip of a film or show (can't recall which and don't want to) where it's only implied that a character's father has a hair-trigger temper and threw a plate at her, and I'm physically stuck in bed for a day, and no appetite for the week, did I finally get it.

[(Anonymous)]

I know I'm a day late, but hullo OP. I have been where John was and I sympathize. I think the scene was really powerful and well done but ugh, it took me back in a bad way.

Good luck to you, OP.

[nemo-de-la-meer.livejournal.com]

OP.

I'm somewhat the same. Ever since my cousin's suicide back in 08, I can't stand suicide in ANY film whatsoever. Even if the person didn't die. I also suffered with a time in my life when my OCD was out of control and I kept having thoughts of suicide (this was around the same time my cousin died). So, in a nut-shell, I know the feeling somewhat and seeing that episode I just felt all... uneasy.