[ SECRET POST #1892 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #1892 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[How I Met Your Mother]


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03.
[White Collar]


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04.
[Smash]


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05.
[How I Met Your Mother]


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06.
[Revenge]


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07.
[The Hunger Games]


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08.
[Yu-Gi-Oh]


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09.
[White Collar]


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10.
[Obscurus Lupa, Subspecies]


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11.
[Castleville]


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12.
[Gintama]


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13.
[The Cat Returns]


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14.
[Mythbusters]


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15.
[Invasion of the Body Snatchers]


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16.
[Titanic]


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17.
[All Dogs go to Heaven]


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18.
[Hatoful Boyfriend]


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19.
[Pokemon]


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20.
[Phantom of the Opera]


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21.
[The Middle]


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22.
[life on mars]


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23.
[Scrubs]


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24.
[A Goofy Movie]


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25.
[Nerimon/Alex Day]


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26.
[Katie McGrath]


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27.
[Chuck]


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28.
[Top Chef Season 9]


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29.
[The Vampire Diaries]


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30.
[The Vampire Diaries]


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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 045 secrets from Secret Submission Post #270.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 1 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 1 2 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[fscom.livejournal.com]

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[fuckyeah.livejournal.com]

Oh Anon, don't feel stupid! I felt the same way writing my first slash, and I still have doubts from time to time. ♥

[(Anonymous)]

This secret is a little confusing. Slash just implies that there is a same sex relationship - so are you embarrassed because you wrote about a gay relationship? If so, that's weird. Or are you assuming slash means sex, and you're embarrassed because you wrote sexy porn?

[fenm.livejournal.com]

In fairness, plenty of people grow up in situations where they're taught that TEH GHAY is EBIIL, so writing same-sex relationships can be awkward for them, even if it's as innocent as just words and hand-holding.

[childings.livejournal.com]

Slash just implies that there is a same sex relationship

You're probably right, but I always think of "slash" as being porn, I guess because the great majority of slashfic I've come across has been porn. And people sometimes use it and the term "yaoi" interchangeably and yaoi is porn.

[(Anonymous)]

NOT OP but I'm embarrassed whenever I write something that actually appeals to me. If I don't actually care about the ship I'm doing/ situation I'm writing, then I can stay sort of impartial about writing it in a realistic way? But if I really like it I'm worried about being That Girl, you know, that writes her ship completely out of character and makes it too fluffy or w/e. I mean I don't think I do? But I worry.

[haro.livejournal.com]

I think that for me, when I first wrote slash, I was embarrassed because in the previous fandoms I'd been in, slash had a really negative reputation because of the fangirls. There is a stigma associated with slash fans in a lot of fandoms- as being fanbrats, women hating, the usual, etc. I was kind of scared to dip my toes into that.

I quickly got over it though. And hell, my main pairing is slash now and it's one of the nicest, sweetest groups of shippers I've ever been involved in.

[fenm.livejournal.com]

The embarrassment does go away, yeah. Though it may come back if you write for a new fandom/pairing, or try to write a new kink or use a new writing style.

Here's my question: Did you enjoy writing it? Do you think you'd like to write more? If so, then do it!

[rosehiptea.livejournal.com]

The first time I wrote explicit slash I was all nervous because I was used to writing het and even though I had a good beta I wasn't sure what I was doing and thought I was going to screw up. But people liked it, and I liked it, and even though I write more het and femslash than m/m I still like to write slash and I feel much more confident now. Don't stress about it.

[noskidaddle.livejournal.com]

I don't think you should be embarrassed. I think it's like actors who don't like watching their films, so it's kinda normal.

[atheist-cheese.livejournal.com]

I think it might just be a writing thing? whenever I write anything past 1000 words I"m basically entering into a massively convoluted, cyclical love-hate relationship with the writing, or, if it goes on long enough, myself and the world. To be honest it never goes away completely, but I've learnt to use it as a tool to motivate myself.

[amethyst-rei.livejournal.com]

I was so embarrassed the first time I wrote a slash fic, and it had only been rated PG-13 or so. The first time I wrote an actual sex scene I felt like I would die of humiliation. A friend of mine convinced me to publish it anyway, I received a lot of positive reviews, and that gave me the confidence I needed to continue publishing my stuff online. Within the year I was writing slash like I'd been writing it all my life. It's been four years since then and I now (sometimes) write some of the raciest, kinkiest, morally deplorable things ever. I still get embarrassed sometimes, but believe me, you do get used to it.

So don't worry about it, OP.

[dgcatanisiri.livejournal.com]

The first published slash I did was a short character POV fic that had it as one-sided on the part of the POV character. I was nervous as HELL, because it was my first time putting up fic somewhere for the world to see ever. The three people who commented on it all liked it, though, which gave me the encouragement to feel comfortable putting up my fic in other places, eventually to the point where I now have a dedicated fic journal.

That nervousness, I see as being the usual concern of 'am I offending someone?' Some of the wording here implies that you've written fic before, but now you're stepping out of your usual box, which would probably why you're so nervous. If you keep at it, you'll probably start feeling more comfortable.

Just a heads up, though? You'll probably never stop feeling embarrassed by the fic in some way - writer's curse is that we're NEVER satisfied with how things come out. ;P

[jedishampoo.livejournal.com]

I've been writing smut, het and slash, for 13 years, and I'm still a little giggly and embarrassed by all of it. Especially having the smut parts beta-read and critiqued! OMG, it's faint-inducing. :) But it does fade a little...

[pantswarrior]

I don't think I felt especially self-conscious about my first slash fic, since it was just two guys instead of a guy and a girl, and I didn't consider it a huge departure from writing het pairing fic. But my first porn fic? I was so embarrassed that the actual sex was described in about two or three short paragraphs. Now I dash off a few thousand words of descriptive sex without thinking about it (because frankly I've written so much of it that it bores me).

So yeah, you probably will get used to that sort of "new scary big step in fandom" with experience. Just don't get so used to it that you start talking about it outside fandom to your family and coworkers and stuff, because they probably will still consider it weird. ;)

[krillia.livejournal.com]

It's ok, OP! I've written a good dozen explicit fics by now and I still blush when I'm writing them. :D

[childings.livejournal.com]

I have this great idea for a three-part Mittermeyer/Reuenthal (Legend of the Galactic Heroes) fic but I'll probably never write it for the same reason. Also because I've barely written anything before, let alone fanfic

[(Anonymous)]

I think alot of people are embarrassed, the first time they do something - like "Am I any good at this?" or whatever. I always feel embarrassed when I write a new ship.

[hikari87.livejournal.com]

Ahaha, oh man. I once tried to write some original femslash prons just for myself, but even knowing FULL WELL that no one but me would ever set eyes on it I couldn't even get to the part where they actually, y'know, did it, I was that embarrassed. Why, I don't know. But I ended up deleting the document without finishing it, lol. Basically what I'm saying is that it doesn't make any sense, but I totally get you.

[htebazytook.livejournal.com]

I've written tons of fic and I still squick myself sometimes IDK, I have to be in the right mood [i.e., horny] . Writing the porny bits is a like an embarrassing chore if I'm not feeling Inspired [again, horny]

[la-petite-singe.livejournal.com]

Why?? You shouldn't be, it's harmless and creative and often fun.

[ninety6tears.livejournal.com]

I do know this feeling, and I can't really explain it. It's something about the initiation into a somewhat more id-dominated sect of fandom or something, IDK. I tend to be vaguely embarrassed when writing anything that excites my kinks and stuff, which occasionally doesn't apply to slash.

[veronica-rich.livejournal.com]

Clearly your discomfort is a message from God that you're sinning, and you should just pull back now and leave the evildoers to perpetuate slashy slash slash. Don't worry anon, I'll take up the mantle for you. ;-)

[fuchsiascreams.livejournal.com]

inb4 someone accuses you of being homophobic.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm honestly surprised by how many people are/were embarrassed while writing slash. The first time I wrote slash, I was really enjoying myself, because I love writing. The first time I wrote slash porn, I was really enjoying myself AND pretty darned turned on, because not only was I writing, I was writing about two characters I wanted to see have sex having sex.

Actually POSTING slash/slash porn, on the other hand... but I have the same reaction when it's het or gen. I generally enjoy writing the fics more than I do sharing them.