[ SECRET POST #2190 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2190 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Comments

[fscom]

10. http://24.media.tumblr.com/f6074b1292753009223d21e31ceaf9c0/tumblr_mfnxz2sy4H1rq2vv5o1_500.png

[brightblueink]

That...sounds like an issue you might want to talk to someone about.

[(Anonymous)]

You are me!

[(Anonymous)]

Me too anon. Me too.
I mean I read erotica and non-slash but wow sometimes I feel so uncomfortable by females who are happy with themselves and able to share that with other people and it makes me want to curl up and die. I can't see myself ever being with anyone. I'm fucking disgusting.

[visp]

Bummer. I hope you get help with that.

[(Anonymous)]

Interesting. That's like the opposite of me. I know I'm physically attractive, so I have no problem reading het. In fact, the female characters and celebrities I find most attractive are generally similar to me in appearance.

However, I have a terrible personality and hate myself, so I tend to dislike female characters who are similar to me on an internal level.

[gamma_orionis]

I'm sorry to hear that, anon. I hope you can get some help and learn to be more comfortable with your body.

[(Anonymous)]

my entire body is fucking disgusting, so I know that feeling well.

[(Anonymous)]

Honey, that's not good. Perhaps a nice therapist can help you realize that your body isn't disgusting?

[(Anonymous)]

Seems there are quite a few people (including me) here with that issue. I have no concept of what it would be like to be attractive or desirable, it is just too foreign to contemplate. And it makes me depressed to read about attractive women who have something I never will.

[(Anonymous)]

I see where you're coming from, but if you ask me, all bodies are disgusting. Actually, I find dicks even more revolting than boobs. But to each their own.

[(Anonymous)]

This sounds like something you might need to see someone about.

That being said, for you and others in similar positions I see here -- consider removing aesthetic attractiveness out of the equation that makes for good sexual relations.


This might seem like an impossibility, or dumb but it isn't, really. Most people get laid (at least once in their lives), most people are ugly motherfuckers. This idea that only the physically perfect will find/deserve love and get laid is bullshit used to sell you make up. You don't need to be whatever standard you hold yourself to be lovable, and you only need to look around you and in the world to see proof of this.

This is the kind of mentality that helped me maintain healthy relationships while struggling with my own personal body image. I didn't try to convince myself I wasn't ugly/disgusting/repulsive -- I just convinced myself that even if I was, it didn't matter, I'd still probs be able to get laid.

[(Anonymous)]

Anyone considered the possibility that OP is comfortable with her situation? I feel kind of weird reading all these comments saying OP needs to see someone to fix this. The tone of the secret doesn't strike me as "I hate myself and I want to die" so much as "I'm not interested in imagining myself in sexual situations"... which is usually a position that gets a lot of support around here.

[maverickz3r0]

This is the point where I make angry noises at popular media.

Maybe.

Do you hate your own body as in you hate how you look, etc., or do you hate having a female body, any female body, in general?

[(Anonymous)]

Aw. I'm sorry you feel that way but I'm happy you've found a way to enjoy your sexuality anyway. In an ideal world you'd get help with your body issues but I can understand if it's not something you want or need to confront, especially considering it seems you've found something that works. Good luck in the future!

Personal story alert. Maybe TMI.

[(Anonymous)]

This used to be Anon. I actually brought this up to my therapist and I told her that I was comfortable enough writing fictional guy on guy sexuality that it was like a safe way to for me to think about sex. I couldn't even mention the word to her before I started talking about my fanfic. Reading m/m fic eventually lead to writing m/m fic. then m/m/f fic and even f/f fic. I am still not entirely comfortable with my body, especially in a sexual way, but writing fic did eventually lead to my first orgasm ever. And I'm 27. So, fanfiction has helped me and is continuing to help me to think about these things. I wish you the best of luck op.

[cloud_riven]

Hate on you for liking what you like? That's dumb talk.

The why part just makes me sad though, although that's because I'm wondering if it's a self-image/self-esteem thing (because otherwise, wevs. as much as it's awesome imo for folk to love their bodies, finding bodies gross =/= U SAD ;_; necessarily).

[(Anonymous)]

Am I seriously the ONLY one who thinks OP is trollin'? The secret starts out sounding as if women who only read slash are rare, and then pulls out a stereotype of a self-hating misogynist slash fan.

[(Anonymous)]

Sometimes I feel like i'm the only slasher that reads about two guys because..They're two guys and it's a completely different world.

Maybe it's because I'm bi and hetero and lesbian relationships are already given irl. Het romance bores the hell out of me though.

[(Anonymous)]

There's a rare number of women out there who DO love their body. Very, very sad.

[velvet_mace]

Being utterly revolted by your body is not a good place to be. It's the only body you are getting. If you treat it like it's precious and worth cherishing, you'll be rewarded.

[htebazytook]

I just wanna step in here and say this isn't the reason why EVERY straight chick prefers slash fic o_O

[(Anonymous)]

Maybe it's just me, but I've NEVER identified myself with any attractive or sexually confident women in fanfiction. I have a LOT of trouble imagining fantasies involving myself receiving sex, because I don't believe any of the stars of my fantasies would be interested in me sexually. I'm not in OP's situation (I don't particularly like my body, but I'm not REVOLTED by it), but this just strikes me as strange that OP couldn't distance their own body from that of a sexually confident character. We're already inundated with plenty of those in the media - is it really that hard to imagine?

But OP, you can't get a little lost in how the CHARACTERS feel for each other? Again, I don't imagine myself as a participant in the act, more like a voyeur I guess?

[(Anonymous)]

You must be me, OP because I feel exactly the same.

[(Anonymous)]

I had the same issue for a long time and finally realized I hated my body so much because I was transgender.