[ SECRET POST #2875 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2875 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Comments

[iceyred]

'I'm a monster.'

Lol, no. You're just melodramatic. That's if this secret is even real, which I kinda doubt.

[(Anonymous)]

I feel like I want to see receipts for the mental illnesses these days considering how many self-diagnosers there are here. I know OCD is so five years ago compared to "being on the spectrum" or the newer "oppositional defiance disorder" but it's still high on the internet's hypochondriac list.

I quit teaching this year and completely changed careers because of parents who insisted their kids had stuff when they had never seen a professional for it. If I heard one more affluent white mother tell me her kid was "on the spectrum" when the kid was just an asshole from having two asshole parents, I was going to become a full blown alcoholic.

And the kids get older and start going around on tumblr telling the world they are a "self diagnosed aspie" and start going in on all that multiple system fiction kin shit.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm going to probably regret this, but....oppositional defiance disorder? What would that be?

[iceyred]

What the actual fuck is "oppositional defiance disorder"? Is this another thing tumblr made up?

Part of why this secret rings false for me is because they're making a huge deal over a couple of cartoon characters. 'Oh, I relate to this character but other people don't and for some reason relating to character A means I'm being a terrible person to character B and that makes me a subhuman monster of epic proportions.'

No. That kind of reaction is not OCD. It's just stupidity and melodrama.

My mom was a teacher and dear sweet Lord that job is thankless. Everybody's a victim and nobody has any responsibility. Good for you for getting out.

[(Anonymous)]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oppositional_defiant_disorder

Basically, it's when someone is almost unable to stop themselves from challenging or fighting with anyone in a position of authority over them. A friend of mine was diagnosed with it. Although I'm still not really sure that it's a meaningful thing, honestly, despite that.

[(Anonymous)]

ODD is a rich, bored, white, stay at home mom crock of bullshit. It starts with the rich white people and works its way down so every be kid gets diagnosed with it. It's a way for bad parenting decisions to hide behind bullshit made up disorders. I dealt with those mothers for too long. Trying to tell me how to do my job and also put little braeyddyn on a fucking pedestal.

One kid had it and they not only put the kid in the gifted program, they also looked everywhere other way when he destroyed school property, bullied other kids, threatened to run away and kill himself multiple times, and ultimately rewarded him by making him safety patrol because he went a whole month without destroying anything.
The principal gave him Christmas gifts and called herself his mentor.

Meanwhile the actual gifted kids, the kids who stayed out of trouble and made good grades to earn their safety patrol spot, those kids came to everyone else like, "what the fuck."

This was a public school in a very affluent area of equestrian palm beach. My kids are thankfully older now and not going to that school anymore, but seriously. The fuck. Giving a shitty kid with shitty parents all the special treatment in the world for being an asshole with a made up "disorder."

[(Anonymous)]

It's funny to see ranting about the evils of rich white folks coming from someone with such a Republican attitude.

[(Anonymous)]

Oh, wow, you are so ignorant of the real world.

[(Anonymous)]

You sound woefully young and completely unaware of even the most basic ways to function in the real world. What the fuck does that have to do with politics? Assholes are assholes. Asshole kids come from asshole parents. There are real kids out there with real problems who can't get help because of assholes who insist their kids are "on the spectrum" and shop around for ONE doctor who will agree with them and then flaunt their "diagnosis" as a way to not have to discipline, leaving less affluent families struggling to find help or attention when they need it. If you don't work in a field where this happens, then STFU because you have no idea. And, for the record, I am about as left leaning as you can get.

[diet_poison]

"braeyddyn"

lol

OP

[(Anonymous)]

OCD carries a frighteningly large amount of stupidity and melodrama, unfortunately. I could've sworn I mentioned in the secret that that was entirely why it was, you know, a secret, but maybe my hand slipped.

Whatever you think of my diagnosis, I am in therapy for it, so if it is just simple stupidity and melodrama, hopefully my therapist's bizarre practice of referring to it as OCD won't stop her from helping me to deal with it. In any case, I'm sure we can both agree that it's ridiculous and better off not existing.

...Sorry, I know I'm being obnoxious, but dude? OCD can actually do this shit, and it sucks. It sucks worse precisely because it is such an overreaction; an overreaction I can't stop having. That's what makes it a mental illness.

Thank you for your time.

Re: OP: OP Again: OCD 101

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry, I just realized I gave you no reason to actually believe me outside of my word and vague symptom descriptions that mean next to nothing, and I'm in a talkative mood. And I don't know if the subject heading is more obnoxious or pretentious, but I'm keeping it.

OCD is an anxiety disorder. In my case, my anxiety is over not being a good person. Or, more specifically, possibly hurting someone from not being a good person. That translates to an obsession with being a good person. From there, any opinions in my head that might hurt people (might be bad) are a problem.

That's where it gets... well, crazy. I identify with Elsa. Okay, dandy. I don't identify as much with Anna. Okay, also dandy. Except real, live human beings are getting annoyed (hurt--shh, it's a broad definition) because people sympathize more with Elsa. I am one of the people in that category. I'm hurting people by being in that category. I need to sympathize more with Anna.

Only it doesn't work that way, right? Because my sympathies are just my opinion. It's that simple, and I can't force that to change.

And that just makes me a worse person, because I'm not letting go of an opinion that hurts (irritates) people. Which is insane, but that's sort of the point.

So that's the obsession part.

My compulsions are mental. Cleaning a counter of germs you're afraid of happens with scrubbing. Cleaning your soul doesn't necessarily involve such a physical expression.

Instead, I go over the situation again and again. Instead of having an opinion, it turns into finding reasons why my opinion is right--or wrong. It turns into hours upon hours of going over what each character experienced and figuring out which one deserves more sympathy, because even if my ending conclusion hurts people, if it's the right one, it will simply be correct, and if it's correct, I won't have the opinion because I'm a bad person, it will just be a solid fact for me to cling to.

Me considering myself a monster is the anxiety talking. The compulsions keep the anxiety alive. The disorder is that my brain's reaction to seeing how off-the-rails nuts this response is isn't to let it die in a ditch.

Unfortunately, my brain doesn't care that the trigger is fictional. There's still me having a possibly unjust opinion, and that sends me into the deep end.

I think that covers how I've come to consider the stupidity and melodrama of the original secret a byproduct of my mental illness instead of a byproduct of me being stupid and melodramatic. Or I hope it does.

This probably just looks more melodramatic, come to think of it. Oh well. Sorry to talk your ear off, I just see so many comments on what OCD doesn't do that I wanted to take advantage of an opportunity to talk about what it does do.

Again, thank you for your time.

Re: OP: OP Again: OCD 101

[(Anonymous)]

As someone who has OCD of the obsessive thoughts (and consequent anxiety/self-loathing) variety, I can empathize with this greatly. I think people have this misconception that OCD = clean freak or routine freak, while being completely unaware of the mental side of it :/

[(Anonymous)]

Sounds like you have no idea what OCD actually is.