fandomsecrets | [ SECRET POST #3175 ]

Skip to Main Content

[ SECRET POST #3175 ]

⌈ Secret Post #3175 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

01.

__________________________________________________

02.

__________________________________________________

03.

__________________________________________________

04.

__________________________________________________

05.

__________________________________________________

06.

__________________________________________________

07.

__________________________________________________

08.

__________________________________________________

09.

__________________________________________________

10.

__________________________________________________

11.

__________________________________________________

12.

__________________________________________________

13.

Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 03 pages, 070 secrets from Secret Submission Post #454.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 1 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I love femslash, and am a heterosexual male.

And I know that makes me inherently skeevy in some peoples' eyes, and that the fact that I exist makes the whole category of femslash problematic for some people, and I'm sorry about that. I am sorry that many male femslash fans are awful douches and that a lot of dudes who write femslash are spectacularly bad at it. I feel like I'm mostly OK at recognizing and avoiding things that are objectifying or shitty, and I think one of the main appealing things to me about femslash fandom is that it is better at avoiding a lot of the really bad + dumb + skeevy tropes of f/f stuff that's oriented towards a male audience. I know it'll probably still bother people anyway.

But I do fucking love femslash, really hard, and I am not going to stop.

change feslash to yaoi and heteromale to heterofemale for a good time

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 20:23 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 21:05 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 21:07 (UTC) - Expand

You're fine, and don't need to stop. As long as you don't rave about the hotness of lesbianism irl, or whatever. The bad reputation is there for a reason (I say this as a lesbian) but at the root of it, there's really no difference between you and a straight woman who likes yaoi. Like what you like, just have some decency irl - and be sensitive to LGBT issues and such, and you're fine.

Re: Confession thread

kitelovesyou - 2015-09-13 22:54 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 04:04 (UTC) - Expand

I was home alone this weekend. There was soup to eat and then more stuff in the freezer. I was out of bread for sandwiches for lunch today and was too lazy to defrost something. So I ordered a pizza even though my parents told me not to.

I'm 30, its my money, but I still feel slightly guilty.

Yes, that's a stupid confession, but it's all I've got at the moment.

Sadly, when you live at home I think you still feel that kind of guilt. I'd know, similar situation (since I'm not sure why you still live at home). Yes, we're in our thirties, but whereas if we lived on our own we wouldn't care, when we know our parents might find out about it.... :P

Re: Confession thread

philstar22 - 2015-09-13 20:34 (UTC) - Expand

Ah, yeah, done similar things (though without the "parents saying not to" bit). Sometimes you just don't feel like actually making something. Or the weather's too hot to make anything, depending on the type of food sometimes, too, or none of what you've got at home really sounds good at the moment, or whatever.

Like you said, though, it's your money you used, not your parents', so even if they have an issue with it, well...*Shrugs*

I'm really afraid I'm some sort of dumb. I feel like I can only superficially think and brute force and memorize my way to through anything that takes any level of higher thinking and never actually retain anything. Even with just writing stuff out I skip words and misspell all the time because I just can't really focus. It's all brain vomit.

I wonder if you have a learning disability, maybe? Did you have trouble in school?

(Please don't be freaked out by that. A lot of people do, and I'm not saying it means I think you're retarded. But skipping words could be dyslexia.)

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 20:59 (UTC) - Expand

An undiagnosed learning disability was my first thought, too. Regardless, it sounds like you're compensating well for it even though you probably don't feel like you are. Never underestimate the value of hard work, anon. Being brainy is all well and good, but brainy people can often be outdone by people who aren't quite as brainy but who work a hell of a lot harder at it as a result.

I liked Snog Marry Avoid.

The show that should have been called Stop Dressing Like a Slut.

It was so satisfying watching the layers of orange get wiped off those people. Like the feeling of picking a scab.

I could be trying harder than I am to find a job. I just feel frustrated after all my applications have turned up nothing. Going back for more classes and certifications after five years of school doesn't feel like it's an answer, either.

This is me, too. Or, well, I am trying hard I think, but I haven't sent out that many applications because I'm so determined to get into a specific (and highly competitive) field, but in this field there's so little I'm qualified to do, which has resulted in not many job listings. I know I just need to expand and get a job first and foremost, but it's frustrating and feels like I'm letting go of my goal. And not getting any interviews yet is super disheartening, too.

Re: Confession thread

feotakahari - 2015-09-13 21:42 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 19:53 (UTC) - Expand

Amen to this. I'm in classes, but yeah, it feels like I'm throwing money away.

I'm not wearing underwear today.

Re: Confession thread

belladonna_took - 2015-09-13 22:00 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

caerbannog - 2015-09-13 22:34 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 04:05 (UTC) - Expand

I'm procrastinating. I agreed to do something that I'd be paid for but now I'm seriously reconsidering. I'll probably still go through with it but I'm totally "meh" about it. Also, I have a fear in the back of my mind that I might run into a person I really don't want to run into any time soon (an abusive person from the past) and it's giving me some anxiety too. Could really use some good vibes, but I know I have to be an adult about such things too.

one time when i was just starting out in fandom i made a comment to artist about how if i was that good i'd do more the than just doodles. it was phrased nicer, but still came off really guilt trippy and they ended up finishing it.

guess who only churns out doodles now

I'm arguing in comments because I'm bored and it's raining too hard outside to do anything fun. :(

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 22:39 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 01:52 (UTC) - Expand

I'm a straight cis woman, and I really resent the fact that my body is designed exclusively to be penetrated during sex. I don't wish I were a man or wish to have a penis, I just hate being penetrated, on a conceptual level. I hate that sexual intercourse has to involve allowing another person to invade my body. The fact that handjobs, cunnilingus, etc. are non-penetrative options doesn't mitigate the resentment that I'm expected to be enthusiastic about PIV sex.

And I know this is fucked up, and I am in therapy, thanks. Just wanted to confess.

Re: Confession thread

kitelovesyou - 2015-09-13 22:59 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

chardmonster - 2015-09-14 07:15 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

kitelovesyou - 2015-09-14 09:46 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 23:17 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-13 23:39 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 01:35 (UTC) - Expand

I've realized almost all my major ships are:

light haired male x dark haired male

And I tend to prefer the light-haired male.

kirk x spock
kirk x mccoy
steve x tony
steve x bucky
steve x sam
erik lehnsherr x charles xavier
rufus shinra x tseng

fuck

I spent the whole weekend in pajamas. I didn't get dressed at all, I only changed pajamas.

I woke up late this morning and instead of showering I washed my hair in the sink and threw on my clothes. I only had 20 minutes so...

I'm diagnosed with Asperger's and I can't come to terms with it. I hate the idea of being abnormal, I despise fellow aspies I've met, and I still doubt the diagnosis was accurate in the first place. I've feared for years I'm schizoid instead, and the fear hasn't left.

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 00:32 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 06:52 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-15 00:29 (UTC) - Expand

i'm bipolar, i never went to high school, and i'm wasting my life

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 01:36 (UTC) - Expand

Re: Confession thread

(Anonymous) - 2015-09-14 01:50 (UTC) - Expand

I always scoffed at misophonia, that is was a THING, you know... everyone has a sound they hate, why does the internet have to make everything a THING?

.... pretty sure though I have it now, after listening to some new music a friend rec'd and wanting to violently claw the headphones off my ears to escape it. Karma's a bitch.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only