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Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-14 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Go

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-14 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Everything except my intelligence

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-14 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
That I'm going to be stuck in this mildly depressed limbo for life. I'm not depressed enough to require meds or therapy (IMO) and I'm not suicidal, but I'm barely functional. I can take care of myself, do a low level job, socialize once in a great while and... that's it. The rest of my life is TV and books, and they're only consumed as a distraction so I won't have to think about how pathetic I am.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-14 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
You are probably more depressed than you think!

I mean, just from my experience, I thought that for a really long time - it took like 2 years of convincing, from the time that I started talking to my mother about my mental health issues, and went into therapy, for them to convince me to go on meds. And it turns out, I was actually super fucking depressed and meds help immensely.

Are you in therapy at all? Because at least personally I've found it immensely helpful.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
You sound exactly like me.

I wish I had an answer too.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
Substitute TV/books for video games/Internet and this is me.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
Meds and therapy aren't only there for when you're suicidal and not functioning. They're there to help you live the life you want to.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
Generally, what people think of me.

It's a habit I'm starting to change though.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
I'll be living with my parents for the rest of my life, will never be able to support myself, will be considered a failure by my peers and relatives, will still struggle to leave the house, never improve with my therapy, and will forever be awkward as hell, spend my best years wasting away, and will stay forever in mediocrity with my art.
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[personal profile] vethica 2016-01-15 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, me.
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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] kaijinscendre 2016-01-15 12:15 am (UTC)(link)
Me too. :(
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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] kallanda_lee 2016-01-15 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Same.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] kallanda_lee 2016-01-15 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
That I might not be able to really hold a job.

That I'll not be able to take care of myself when my parents die and if my boyfriend leaves me.

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If my BF doesn't put out soon, I am legit worried I might rape him.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] iceyred 2016-01-15 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
That I will never be loved. That I am unworthy of love and affection.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] herpymcderp 2016-01-15 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
That I'm going to be on my deathbed wondering what it was all for someday.

I know I'm doing important work, but I've seen this happen so frequently that I wonder if I'll be able to look back proudly when the time comes.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:25 am (UTC)(link)
I have become that girl who blames her failing mental health and bad life decisions on parental and societal pressure.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
That I'm going to lose my job in the economic downturn, and I might lose my house, and that I'm going to be poor in my old age.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
I genuinely worry that I don't know what reality is. I have a history of mental issues, and unrelated medical problems that unfortunately resulted in hallucinatory medication reactions and sensory issues (sight and taste are still affected, to a very small degree). I sometimes wonder if I'm really experiencing things... if other people see the reality that I can't. If I'm making a total fool of myself, thinking that something is this when it is, in fact, that. Occasionally I voice these concerns, and people

1) think I'm joking
2) assure me I'm not crazy

I wish I believed them.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
Is it anxiety? Do I need medication? Why am I doing this? It's not perfect but could it change? For the better or worse? Does it get better? What is it to get better at? Am I worthwhile? Am I likable? I will never know the understanding of what it means to love someone as I can't understand what love feels like. Will I be a crazy cat person? A recluse? A hermit? Will I overeat? Is it worth it all in the end? What is life and the meaning of it? We are born and once we die there are so many matters to take care of. Why does mom have to get Alzheimer's? How long will she live with this condition? Do I know myself from taking care of her? Why does everyone say I'm doing a good job when I don't feel like I am? I want to eat but there's no reason to. I am full don't eat. Fast for the night. Wake up at 4 a.m. Rinse recycle repeat.

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
That I'm privileged and unconsciously coming across as a snob.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
The solitude that I enjoy 90 percent of the time now will bite me in the ass in 15 or 20 years when my family is gone and I'm old and all alone because I never wanted to go out and make connections when I was younger.

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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

(Anonymous) 2016-01-15 12:54 am (UTC)(link)
I'm worried deep down I'm an abusive narcissist like my father
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Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[identity profile] mimi-sardinia.livejournal.com 2016-01-15 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
I'm too dependent and what will happen if I suddenly lose the people I am emotionally dependent on?

Re: Things you worry about yourself.

[personal profile] cbrachyrhynchos 2016-01-15 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
That the familial bats in the belfry will kill me eventually.
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