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[ SECRET POST #4762 ]

⌈ Secret Post #4762 ⌋

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I make black pudding out of my mooncup's contents.

no ya don't

But how. Like how do you have enough. And this is coming from an at least 3-day heavy flow person.

i choose to believe this is a lie

...Do I want to know what this means?

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I know that my smokes in secret.

So, after trying to parse this sentence for half a minute, I am guessing that, rather than knowing your smokes do something in secret, you know that your [person close to you whom you forgot to put a noun for here] smokes in secret. So... who is it, anon? Who's smoking on the sly?

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I haven't written a new word in my thesis this past (academic) year.

I thought everyone put that off until, like, the last month or something.

It turned out that I'm quite happy being unemployed.

How do you pay your bills?

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I don't know how to explain to people that I don't have any dreams for the future.
I've been depressed for most of my life, and I've failed at every major goal I've had in the last ten years. Where in all that am I going to find a "five year plan" or whatever?

Maybe set some small goals instead of major ones?

I don't have goals or plans, but I do have dreams.

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I feel this so hard, anon. My "five year plan" is just... try not to starve and be homeless? Maintain a modest level of comfort and try not to wallow in my depression until I'm a squishy lump of vegetative meh? My parents/relatives are all, oh, why don't you take a vacation, you love travel or when are you going to get a new car and I don't know how to say "I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY" in smaller, easier to comprehend words.

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Same, and it's been that way all my life. There are just too many variables, man. Five years, lol who tf knows what can happen in that time!

No, me neither. Never have had. And in the grand scheme of things, it doesn't really matter. I try to be kind, to help where I can, to do no harm, tow rite stories that a few people might enjoy. I'm sure Gandalf and Aragorn had a thing or two to say on the subject.

I definitely feel this. I've also been anxious and depressed most of my life, and I've been on disability for seven or so years now, and I've been holding down a job for five or so years. But there's not a lot of room for advancement at the job, and I'm not qualified for anything better, and I can't handle anything more demanding, and I just don't have the resources to take on much more than I currently do. Like, just working part-time and keeping my shit together on a basic level is literally what my life looks like when I am working to do better. That is me really trying.

In my line of work, fucking everybody has a side-hustle, or a second job, or a second job and a side hustle, and all these goals and aspirations. The idea that, no, I just do this job, this job is as much as I can handle, I can barely handle this job sometimes, it's honestly really hard for me and I'm exhausted, is not something most people would understand at all, and frankly, I think most of them would judge me for it.

I don't like that I don't have any goals for how I'm going to "make something of myself" or whatever, but it is what it is, and at least I'm managing what I'm managing. I could be doing worse.

I feel this so hard. For as long as I can remember I always thought I would die young, I never made plans for the future because I never thought that I would live in it. I still don't. Every relationship that I've ever had, be it friends, family, acquaintances, end in failure because I stop before I get too close. I'll leave them behind because I'm too afraid of what will happen if the worst does happen. Even when the time came where I got blindsided by something happening that was worse than I had ever prepared for, I still can't break that habit, honestly I don't even want to.
My doctor keeps asking me about my plans for the future, and I've fallen so far in my depression that I've forgotten how to sidestep those answers with a smile and a laugh. I just say that I'll keep trying meeting after meeting, and pretend to be something close to the shell of my former self.

I resent people who complain about things that could be easily fixed with a little bit of fucking effort.

I resent people who think that things that would only require a little effort for them to accomplish would also not take much effort for the person complaining. Maybe there’s other things they can do easily that would require an enormous amount of energy/capability/knowledge/etc for you to do.

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Lol the comments in response to this.......

This. Had a couple people on my flist back in the day that would endlessly complain about stuff they basically did to themselves, and when people would give them ideas about how to fix it, they always had a counter argument to *every single suggestion* as to why that wouldn't work.

Got old damn fast.

I finally had to unfriend a few people because I got so sick and tired of them doing exactly this.

Friend 1: I hate my job, it sucks, it's awful and it makes me miserable.
Friend 2: Hey, my job is actually hiring right now, if you put in an application you can use me as a reference and I'll be sure to put in a word with my boss for you.
Friend 3: I work in HR, if you send me your resume I can look over it for you to make sure it looks good.
Friend 1: /proceeds to do exactly neither of those things but continues to complain non-stop about how much they hate their job

I'm bisexual, and I'm embarrassed when other bisexuals (and pansexuals) get their pants in a bunch over the terms "gay relationship," "lesbian relationship," "straight relationship." It doesn't matter if one or both the people in it are bi or pan, those terms clearly describe the nature of the relationship itself, not the sexual orientation of the people in it. It's the easiest way to say those things. "Relationship between a lesbian and bisexual woman" or "relationship between a bisexual man and pansexual woman" is stupidly long. Get over it.