[ SECRET POST #2338 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2338 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Saturday Night Live]


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03.
[Homestuck]


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[The Dark Knight trilogy]


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[Star Trek]


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[Daily Show with Jon Stewart & Colbert Report with Stephen Colbert]


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07.
[Neil Gaiman/Amanda Palmer]


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08.
[Late Night Talk Shows]


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09.
[Fruits Basket]


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10.
[Defiance]


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[Phoenix Legend]


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[Kim Possible]


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[Rupert Graves]


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14.
[Hashirama, from Naruto]


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[XXXholic]


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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 047 secrets from Secret Submission Post #334.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Hello f!s

My name is generic anon commenter #89102 and I have a massive case of internalised ableism.

i'm a little racist.

[(Anonymous)]

Since this is anon share time, apparently, here goes:

I'm a little racist, I think. I grew up in a mostly poor, ethnic neighborhood (basically the ghetto), and, well, have never really liked black people. There are some really decent ones out there, some who know how to behave and speak properly and who aren't ghetto, but I haven't met many, and that's really saying something considering I live in Brooklyn and went to school in NYC.

Maybe it's not black people I dislike, but just the ghetto ones. I don't like "wiggers", either, though I can tolerate them more because more often than not they seem like posers. The people I grew up with and went to school with were the real fucking deal.

I hate rap, I hate reggae, I hate hip-hop, I hate r&b-- I pretty much hate everything associated. I've been asked by tons of black guys in the past and have turned them all down.

The ironic thing is that I'm not even white. I'm hispanic. =/ (ugh, I hate ghetto hispanics, too).

So there's my big, dark secret, f!s. I'm probably racist.


Fun fact: I used to listen to a ton of audio books and movies read/full of white people when I was a kid to try and emulate their tones/inflections so that I wouldn't sound "Black". I used to read a ton of books, too, because my teacher used to tell us that people who read a lot tended to speak more proper.

Everyone always tells me that I sound like a "white girl" and I love that. The rest of my family turned out a bit like the people in our old neighborhood (loud and ghetto, that is), and I didn't, and I'm really proud of that.

Re: i'm a little racist.

[dancing_clown]

*Sigh* When will we get over this idea that being educated and speaking as if you are equates "sounding white." It totally doesn't.

Re: i'm a little racist.

[starphotographs]

I only mind the "ghetto"/hip-hoppy/whatever thing as practiced by those hillbilly-dudebro-gangsta types that seem permanently stuck back in '02-'03. Otherwise I just kind of don't care.

(I lived in central Pennsylvania and then in southwest Washington. It's pretty much the dominant type of under-40 person in both areas. Ack.)

Re: i'm a little racist.

[insanenoodlyguy]

One part of what you describe isn't racist. You are prejudiced against a subculture. Which isn't exactly making you humanitarian of the year, but at least you picked a subculture which exemplifies some shitty values at times.

The part where you limit your dating partners sounds less simple then that though, nor does it sound like it's entirely based on aesthetics either. So you aren't wrong that you are a bit racist, most likely.

White people don't have an exclusive hold on being intelligent, successful and well spoken though. "White Trash" is probably a term white people came up with you know.

Your larger problem is that you've assigned the same racial labels that some parts of that subculture you mentioned not liking do just as strongly. Making white have a "sound" puts you closer to people you just told us you want to have nothing in common with.

[(Anonymous)]

I hate men. I really really hate men. I could tolerate the species eventually dying out if we could find a way to permanently, painfully, and immediately remove them from this world.

[dancing_clown]

How edgy of you.

[(Anonymous)]

to be honest, i hate men too, sometimes.

when i hear of some horrible thing on the news (like the steubenville case, or that poor woman on the bus in delhi), i'm filled with such anger.

[(Anonymous)]

Kinda ditto. :/

Oh rly?

[insanenoodlyguy]

It's not eventually. It'd be exactly one generation. If that. Because society and culture and everything you'd imagine would happen in your temporary utopia would collapse a fuckload sooner than that.

Remember, most ladies LIKE men a hell of a lot more then you. Fathers, brothers, cousins, uncles, husbands, boyfriends, lovers, sons. And half of the people they cared about? Just died. Presumably painfully. Probably in a lot of cases in front of their eyes.

You just gave the entire surviving population of the world PTSD and removed a whole chunk of their would be support base (family) you emotion driven twit! The first person you tried to celebrate with would probably either collapse into sobbing or deck you.

You'd be looking at mass suicides. A huge chunk of the people who'd need to step up to keep things going who just wouldn't bother. Panic, murders, hysteria. Huge voids in needed jobs and insufficient capable and sane people to fill them. Whole cities would have utilities cease and be damaged to the point they couldn't recover.

Oh, I'm not saying there wouldn't be a population that could rally and achieve some semblance of order. But if you're expecting a man free perfect world to live the rest of your life in, well, honestly? I don't think you'd live to see the species start to die out. You'd probably off yourself the first time you saw the new generation of rape and murder cases on the news (because both of those things would totally still happen).

[(Anonymous)]

I actually agree for the most part.

[(Anonymous)]

i used to not want to be friends with this girl at a school i went to once, but because she had a disability and didn't really have any other friends, i felt obligated to be friendly to her. but that would also make me the target for bullies. so i tried to avoid her and would make up excuses as to why i couldn't hang out with her.

even though i was lonely and had been bullied in the past and should have known exactly what it feels like to be desperate for even a single friend.

i was a horrible little shit. it's something i still regret, and i wish i'd been nicer to her.
i hope she has real friends now - she deserves every single one of them.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm anon #455678 and anon #3453 and sometimes I moonlight as anon #8964

Ever since I moved into the city I've begun to hate cats and I think it's extending to dogs. Especially anything small, yappy, offlead/free roaming and aggressive

I miss the days I liked all animals more or less.

[(Anonymous)]

I feel really guilty about my transphobia like I'm outwardly cool with people and I'm understanding it better now but still I think transphobic things sometimes and then feel ashamed of myself for thinking them when I know logically they are wrong.

[(Anonymous)]

Yeah, same. It bothers me that I'm really nice on the outside, and kind of intolerant on the inside. :(

[(Anonymous)]

The first trans* person I met was in college. What I thought was a guy came up to me & some mutual friends and chatted with us in the student union building, wearing a skirt and whatnot. Really nice person, but I was weirded out at the time.

I like to think I'm not actually transphobic, though I haven't met another trans* person (that I was aware of) since, other than this angry hooker person who got on our bus and started picking fights with EVERYONE for about two stops. I'm sure I'd have hated that person no matter the gender identity...

[(Anonymous)]

Even as a trans guy, it took a while to work the majority of my internalized transphobia out of my thoughts. Society in general is pretty unaccepting of transgenderism/transsexuality, so we end up with a lot of negative shit nesting in our brains, making itself at home without being questioned terribly often.

The only thing you can really do is examine your own thoughts each time something like that comes up, and tell yourself why what you're thinking is wrong. You may never get to a point where you don't automatically think transphobic things, especially if you're not around transgender folks a whole lot, but you can learn to be respectful and not let those initial thoughts cloud your judgement c:

[(Anonymous)]

Honestly? I think you're on the right path. You know that you're wrong. It takes some time to completely get rid of that ingrained reaction. Hell, it took me years, and I am trans. (It's just that mine manifested mostly as internalized transphobia that, rather than making me feel guilty, made me despise myself.)

So... weird to say it, but I'm glad that you feel guilty.

[(Anonymous)]

I distance myself from people who remind me of myself through high school and elementary school. This is not a good thing because logically I know that they are pretty awesome people and we'd probably be the best of friends but I am so ashamed and embarrassed of who I used to be that I can't stand to be reminded of it. (And this probably means I haven't actually changed at all. Oh well.)

[(Anonymous)]

Since this is confession time...

People who are missing limbs scare me. I know they are people with feelings, and I would never say/do anything that would make anyone think otherwise. I just feel extremely uncomfortable. Like I don't know how to act and get very nervous.

Same goes for people who are retarded. Again, I would never, ever say/do anything unkind, but I just want to run away when I'm in contact with a disabled person. I'm scared of saying the wrong thing or doing the "talking down"/"child" voice.

I wish I knew how to act appropriately, and I feel like shit for not knowing how...What the fuck is wrong with me?

[(Anonymous)]

When someone makes me incredibly angry, irl or on the internet or whatever, and someone else come along and goes 'well that person is autistic/some other disorder or disability, you know' it doesn't make me feel bad or less angry. Also, should I have known? You can't always 'tell' if someone has this or that disorder, nor would I want to just.. assume it.

And it's not just someone who stepped on my foot and didn't apologize, it's more like they've berated and insulted me for months when I've done nothing but ignore and block them...

[(Anonymous)]

My childhood was filled with all sorts of "DON'T BE A DIRTY LITTLE RACIST" talks, a lot of which went over what kinds of thoughts are racist and whatnot.

To the point where I'm actually fairly certain that those talks are the precise reason I have random racist thoughts in the first place. Like, I'll see a black person, and my brain will go: "THAT'S A BLACK PERSON" > "OMFG THAT'S RACIST" > "SHIT, STOP BEING RACIST, THEY'RE JUST ANOTHER PERSON." > "FUCK, WHAT IF I'M ACTING RACIST AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW IT" > "PLEASE DON'T THINK I'M RACIST OMGGGGGG"

It's all very confusing .____. Granted, that whole reaction happens in like, less than a second, but it's there and it's annoying, and if they're a customer I'm interacting with, I'm like HYPER AWARE of how I'm acting because I don't want to do something that might seem racist, and then I feel racist anyway because OMG I'M TREATING THEM DIFFERENTLY BECAUSE OF THEIR SKIN COLOR except I'm trying really hard to treat them the same as I do everybody else, it's just that I'm putting a lot more thought into it which makes me feel racist because I took notice of their skin color in the first place aaaaaauuuuuuugh ;_____;

The stupid thing is is that this seems to only happen with black people because all the anti-racism stuff was focused on racism against black people, except where I grew up, there were a lot of illegal Mexican immigrants, so there was a lot of anti-Mexican racism going on at the same damn time (often from the same damn people!) my childhood was so confusing, okay

[(Anonymous)]

I have a problem with the whole concept of ableism because it seems to take the position that lacking an ability is not a bad thing. Sure you can still lead a fulfilling life, and it doesn't make you less a person, but it's still not good to be missing muscle control/senses/basic social skills.

And I'm constantly conflicted over how much I should blame people for being stupid, and how much they can't help it.