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[ SECRET POST #3357 ]

⌈ Secret Post #3357 ⌋

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bring 'em out bring 'em out

i shitpost too much to ever put a name behind it

i don't want people thinking i'm actually retarded

Okay, Dani.

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(Anonymous) - 2016-03-14 05:18 (UTC) - Expand

I've been sick and bored the last couple of days. So I've been making secrets. I have several this week, but I have 20 so far for next week and I'm not done yet.

I appreciate your effort!

I once killed someone. It was completely accidental, and it was mainly because of my inexperience with equipment and not being supervised properly, but I still killed someone and escaped blame-detection for it. It was in an old-folks home and the death just written off as age related, but it was still because of me. I quit working there when I found out what happened, I shouldn't been left in that position with my level of inexperience and it makes me wonder how many other age-related deaths are due to fuck ups or lack of supervision.

I'm so sorry. Although if they said it was age related... unless it was a massive cover up, it sounds to me like it might have been partly that they were already ill and elderly.

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(Anonymous) - 2016-03-13 21:05 (UTC) - Expand

Now, I don't know exactly what transpired but... It's really, really hard to ascribe blame when someone is ill enough to need mechanical life support, OP. If this is what I think it is, and it was a palliative care situation, then you might have been doing them a favour in the long run.

Age-related deaths aren't "due to fuck ups". Age-related deaths are inevitable. It's so very difficult in end of life care to say that someone would definitively have survived longer with a quality of life they found pleasant and worthwhile if things had been different. Most of my experiences have found the opposite to be true.

Again, I don't know the specifics. I'm just saying there's a chance you shouldn't really be beating yourself up for this.

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sparrow_lately - 2016-03-14 00:24 (UTC) - Expand

I'm very sorry. That must be hard on your conscience. But know that if you were not supervised properly when you should have been, that's a failing of the system, not your personal failing. Sadly you now live with the consequences, but their death was a result of several fuck-ups, not just yours.

I despise Flight Rising.

How come?

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I have a massive crush on Dethtoll. Obvious why I can never post this logged in.

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I found out my mom had an abortion before I was born. So I could have had a sibling.

(She did not tell me, I accidentally found a document in the aftermath of a burglary.)

I am a 100% pro-choice, but I still feel weird about it. Maybe more so because I never had a real sibling (I have a half-siblng, but we did not grow up together).
It's been a few years since I found out now, and I occasionally still think of it.

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I like eating beans because farting makes me feel powerful. (But only if I can time it to be alone at home when the farts kick in and not at work. That would be less powerful and more embarrassing.)

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Fandom has made me realise how deeply and utterly fucked up I am.

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I think a lot of trolling is self-centered. People will troll someone and not care how it effects that person as long as they get their "lulz". Cause hey, that person deserved it for giving you a reason to mess with them right? It's not like you have self control or care to use it. If it seems funny at the moment, why not. Screw anyone and everyone else but you.

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Keeping the details short for legal reasons, but I lied and I don't regret it

I don't even know why I lied but it feels so good

It feels powerful

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i don't want to have children because how will i explain to them what darude sandstorm is

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the way i write two of my favorite characters (both of whom are manipulative assholes who people in canon still love regardless of how awful they are) is pretty much just me writing a self-insert with fandom dressing. i wrote a scene where a character hurt and manipulated another's emotions for a power trip and to make themselves feel better and it was just me writing a real life experience. i've been complimented on my characterization.

I found something online that I'm morally conflicted on being glad it exists for innocent personal reasons and being afraid of how it can be abused to frame and harm other people.

I'm writing a chatlog based thing, and I found a thing for making fake chatlogs with timestamps which is helpful. But I also can't help feeling bad for having it and for the possibilities it has be be used against people. I should probably get rid of it after I'm finished with this work.

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I am starting to get really sick of seeing the "Children wake up" fic series get recced left and right in the Kylux fandom because I don't think it's nearly as great as people make it out to be.

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I haven't seen any of the Avengers movies and don't plan to. I've always disliked them in the comics because they're always being pit against the X-Men.

It's petty because the movies are a different canon than comics but I don't care. Also, I don't like most of the characters as individuals let alone as a team.

The only live-action Punisher I care about is the Dolph Lundgren version.

I was impressed by how long it took for me to pee this morning. Pretty sure that was the longest pee of my life.

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I usually come and read the post even if I've missed the busy hours, but I don't really have much to contribute at the moment. The only thing happening in my life is being sick and trying to figure out more convenient ways to be sick so that I don't have to bother people to ask them for help.

I feel like that in person, too. I really have zero things to say, and yesterday my aunt was asking me what my plans were and what university degree I'm thinking about, and I couldn't say that I probably won't get one now since I don't think I'll be able to repay any loans I get and I doubt I could handle anywhere near the amount of prolonged concentration and energy to study. Then my uncle was trying to tell me he was sure I was going to get better soon and he was asking me how long I thought it would take for me to get better.

I know I had a good day yesterday and I should be happy but I guess it just confuses people and I don't want to bring down the mood by telling them I can't make big plans and I'm not actually better. I usually pay for having good days because I overdo it. I had a fall earlier and I feel like hell, but nobody will actually see that because I don't want them to.

I hate complaining. I don't want to be complaining.
The only time I've felt positive about the future recently was when I looked into euthanasia. That's cheerful.