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My brain has been the worst bully to me since high school and I wonder if its possible to live life without the nagging voice going "people will think you're ugly if you wear that" "You sound really full of yourself." "People think you're fake/annoying" "Well aren't you just so pitiful?" "nobody cares, quit talking about it"

There has to be something better than this in life.

Right there with you. I work on putting positive thoughts in. But I still have to work at it. THe negative, self-hating comments come automatically.

I get intrusive thoughts like that too sometimes, and my solution was to give that little voice a name (I call it Jessica). So whenever I have an intrusive thought, like "People will think you're ugly if you wear that", I say to it, "You're so full of shit, Jessica, do you ever get tired of being wrong?" It works pretty well!

I'm back in school after being out of it for a few years, I feel like the biggest idiot all the time. It especially sucks because it used to be something I kinda prided myself on. Joke's on me now.

I'm just done with life right now. I don't even feel excited about work even though I'm doing what I love. Pain has just sapped every ounce from me. Went to the Mexican ballet last night. It was great, but I didn't feel it in the way I wanted to or should have. I just wanted to be home with a heating pad on. And the idea of working tomorrow just makes me feel exhausted.

I hate that feeling. :

I hate the majority of my cousins because they never take time out of their busy (and it's not like my brother and I have magically less busy lives when we have jobs and shit too) to spend time with him a few times a year.

He sings barbershop and once a year they have a show/performance thing, and every fucking year it's just me and my brother (and occasionally my one aunt and uncle, but never their fucking kids).

He's 87. He's not going to be around forever. Make the fucking time.

Wow I accidentally a few words there in my rage. Lol. My grandpa*. Plus it was also his birthday on Saturday too, same day as his show. :|

my grandma died this week and all my cousins are "but i can't come to the funeral if it's that day, i've got a work thing / holiday / photo / some other excuse"

there will be other holidays, there won't be other funerals - stop whining and get your arse there

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I was supposed to go out last night but I ended up ugly crying while I tried to get ready. I just couldn't make myself go. I'm feeling a bit crap lately and the friend I was supposed to see hasn't been a real friend in a long time. I would have been fine if my other friend had been going because I would have had one person who I trusted there, but I just can't do stuff that's out of my comfort zone without a buddy at the moment.

My coworker is amazing at her job. She works long hours and does all kinds of thing that aren't even her job. I need to be more like her but instead I'm just resentful and jealous.

That doesn't make her amazing at her job. That makes her a tool.

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My birthday is in less than a week and I’m dreading it - because I WANT people to make a big deal about it but I know no one will. I probably won’t even see my gf cause of our work schedules, I already know I won’t be getting presents from her or my family because of money issues, one of my two local friends is too busy to hang out this time of year and the other has been flakey in the past and completely forgot about my birthday last year so...

And I want to not care and just treat it like any other day but I DO care and I want people to treat me like I’m special, which I know is dumb and immature but... it’s how I feel.

I get you, nonny. What I do is I make it special myself. I celebrate it all out, even if just for me. Hell yeah, let's have that cake I want, and wear what I want and hey, sure, I'm going to go to that movie I've been wanting to see and when I get home I'm not going to do anything but crack open that book I've been dying to read.

I live on my own and I've found that, really, the best way to make days special is to make them special. I buy myself flowers and chocolates for Valentine's Day, I've made my own Christmas Eve/Day rituals to go through and enjoy, things like that.

It's great when other people are there to celebrate with you, but it doesn't always happen. So it's important to take the time out for you to make it an important day for you, if it matters to you.

It might be an age thing too? We've been told as we get older that celebrating our birthdays is childish and that we shouldn't want that, so sometimes it means our friends just assume they shouldn't make a big deal out of it.

I agree with anon above me. You can reach out to your friends that ARE available and throw your own party for yourself with them involved, or you can just enjoy the day by yourself by spoiling yourself in doing what YOU want.

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I usually barely notice my birthdays at this point and I certainly don't need a big celebration every year, but it's nice if someone acknowledges it in some small way at least every few years.

Whenever I see someone claim that they smoke weed to manage their anxiety, I think suuuuuuuuure you do, sport. And I bet there's nothing else you can do to manage your anxieties, amirite? Weed just works the best. Gotcha.

This implies that there's something wrong with smoking weed

Dude just respond to my comment next time, geez.

Dude I fucking hate the smell of weed and also I hate and am frightened of drugs in general but this is an asshole comment.

Look, I hate weed. I don't think it's nearly as harmless as people make it out to be, and for good reason. All stoners I've met are highly unpleasant people. And still, yes, weed can be a good way to suppress symptoms of certain illnesses. I'm all for legalizing it because a) people would have access to medicinal weed that has different, less potentially harmful properties, they wouldn't run the risk of getting at product that has been peddled with and both the matter of weed as a gateway drug as well as drug-related crimes when it comes to weed would drop.

Also: Do you really think something as strong as anti-anxiety meds are an entirely healthy, risk free option?

I always say that I don't judge chainsmokers, but secretly I do.
Especially those who complain it's expensive... I know the addiction is hard to shake for many people... but I see so many young people with small children who smell like ashtrays.

The worst is this stale sour smell some people just ooze everywhere they go. And nicotine stained fingers /shudder

My brother wasn't a chain smoker but I still judged him SO hard (and yelled at him) when he started smoking, because he literally skipped ALL of the peer pressure years and started smoking in his twenties. It made me more angry because when he and I were young, we begged my dad to quit smoking (and he did for us), so for him to start smoking after that was just like, seriously, wtf?

Thankfully he's been smoke free for about three months now so I make sure I tell him how proud I am that he quit.

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