[ SECRET POST #5191 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #5191 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 02 pages, 31 secrets from Secret Submission Post #743.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Because I have one.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

(Firstly, other than being sick and without a computer to type I am unlucky enough to type everything and accidentally copy something else twice so).

I think I am literally touch starved. I am usually very touch-averse, even to a pathological degree, and have always been shy and avoidant so being touched in any basic way is often "too much" for me.
But in the past 9 months the only gentle touch I felt was... well, actually none. (I did pet the stray cat so, maybe that.) Maybe this is excessive even for me. Everyone from my family who could've hugged me on the rare occasion has already passed away and I only have 2 friends whom I haven't seen irl since before the pandemic. I hypothetized this because I've been sickly and feverish and that makes me want to cuddle in my blankets so bad, so I "oh"d. Too bad for me I guess because... I hate being touched by just anyone, but other than "just anyone" there is no one, so. Cool. Haha (No).

The bright side of things is that I am inspired to write fic involving my touch-averse boys. Yay?

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

hypothetical internet hugs if you want them
Been there, anon, and it sucks.
It's no replacement, but I find a modicum of comfort in wearing very soft wraparound sweaters, far-too-long hot showers, and talking to my houseplants.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Something like this might help: https://www.bestproducts.com/lifestyle/a30274835/sleep-pod-adult-swaddle-review/

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I'll be honest, nonny. Part of me thinks I went back to the chiropractor just to have someone rubbing and tugging on me.

But I've figured out something about myself. Most people assume I don't like hugs or being touched and it's not true. I just don't trust touch from people I don't trust or people I feel I can't fully trust. Of course, having a "medical" purpose for the touch makes me feel a little safer about it too.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Lately, I come across soooo many fics where there's some big-deal incident that the characters obsess over, hint at each other about in dialogue, and aaaaaaagonize over in POV chapters but which - infuriatingly - is NEVER EVER EVER SHOWN or even DESCRIBED to the reader. So you slog through because other parts are good, thinking each time that maybe we'll finally get a flashback or a conversation or, hell, even an author's note to explain WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED but you never get it. What is that "thing that happened" - was it a kiss? a look? was something said? did sex happen? was it bad sex? FUCKING TELL ME. Once (since it was fic for a fandom I was only casually into) I thought it was due to my missing some canon incident that the other readers all knew about - but no. It was just vague-ass fuckery.
Bizarrely, every time I get fed up and scroll down to the comments it's 95% joy and adulation and maybe one or two hesitant questions about what the hell is going on. These questions are generally ignored or brushed off with something like "keep reading". BUT THEN THE FICS END and no. No answers. Fuck it.
For a while this trend even had me worried that I was actually losing my powers of reading comprehension - was I somehow unable to grasp something these writers were hinting? But nope. This is apparently now a trend in this fandom.
This isn't a long running tv-soap, goddmamnit, you can't just swell the music, cut mid emotional conversation, and then string me along forever hoping to figure out what the fuck went on between that scene and the next. This is a fic on my computer screen. I don't have a whole season of wait-time to gloss over the transitions and forget the emotional threads; hell, I don't even have a commercial break to hide the fact that there's no logical way characters to have logically left a fraught situation. ALL I HAVE IS WHAT YOU WROTE. Please for the love of GOD actually TELL me what is going on in your story.

/TLDR: I am TIRED of vagueness in fanfic storytelling. Spoilt reader likes showing/telling over hints.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

(Cozy Werewolf Anon)

Ugh, that sounds so frustrating. Much sympathy b/c that is just bad writing. You set up a question. You answer it in that story or the sequel. Period! And if it is that important, you answer and resolve it before readers want to throttle you or the characters.

Sounds like comment bait to me honestly.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Hmmmmmm, I actually enjoy it when it's something that was hinted at in canon and you can at least make up theories about it. But when it's something completely out of the blue and you're supposed to guess... no.

Re: Vent thread!

[greghousesgf]

I've seen this in books that weren't even fanfic and it bugs me too.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I'm just really frustrated by this book I read. It had all the bones of a great story, but it tackled way too many issues and didn't address any of them with the sensitivity they needed. Also, I hated that the MC decided to befriend the girl who distributed her nudes to everyone on campus. And the nudes had really bad consequences for the MC. How the hell can you forgive someone for something like that so easily?

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

... the MC befriended someone who spread her own or the MC'S nudes?

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Oh yeah, that's a pet peeve of mine in fiction, when a character forgives another character way too easily, or for something that's honestly just unforgiveable. I feel like some people have the mentality that forgiving is always the right thing to do, and that if you don't forgive someone for something it's a weakness of character or something. A lot of the time it is good to forgive. But sometimes it just feels like the author is a self-sacrificing doormat who tells themself it's virtuous to be that way, and thinks everyone else should be that way too. (Or, alternatively, the author is a narcissist who thinks everyone should always forgive them and the characters they self-identify with for everything, instantly.)

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I wish I wasn't poor.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Very relatable, indeed.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I'm the OP of secret 8 yesterday who didn't want to post a fic because the characters were 17. (I missed the thread until late this afternoon - sorry! Thanks everyone who commented.)

Ever since I read the responses I have been teeth gnashingly annoyed at that one anon who assumed I was white. I'm not and I'm also trans. Does that somehow mean I shouldn't be afraid of being doxxed over inane shit like this?? Goddamn presumption.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Honestly, this whole "omgg such a white thing to do!" "omgg those damn cishets!" etc thing got out of hand way too fast lol. People make the dumbest assumptions and don't care because they are anonymous and all that, or just good enough at discourse or powerful enough to twist it into "oh no I didn't say it you did"ism. People really miss the point, often deliberately. It's always the privileged fuckers.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

My phone addiction is getting out of hand.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I just really wish I could do things like drinking fluids when I'm thirsty and sleeping when I'm tired instead of doing nothing but staring at my ceiling all night after work is done because I feel too sick to drink or sleep.

I would say I wish I could eat food too but I gave up on that a year or so ago and get my calories from what nutrition shakes I can manage.

If I was a beloved pet my kind owner would have put me to sleep by now and that's really what I want. To just rest. And never wake up to days full of pain afterwards.

Not controversial enough to be a Fandom Secret, imo, so I'm dropping it here instead.

[(Anonymous)]

I watched the first Kingsman movie for the first time last night and I’m so annoyed at that stupid “Eggsy fucks a princess” joke. I’m annoyed because it was sexist and sleazy, but I’m more annoyed because I feel like it ruined Eggsy’s entire character arc.

His whole thing was that he was basically whatever the British version of sub-trailer trash is, but that at his core he was a person of integrity. Yeah, he was rough as shit around the edges, but in his own way he kept it classy, despite the fact that his life was trying to beat that out of him. And becoming an Kingsman empowered him in a way that allowed him to embody that inner integrity and classiness more fully.

So to have him ass-fuck a random princess after she literally tells him it’s a prize for saving the world (and he doesn’t even turn off his spy camera ffs!)—it basically ruins his entire arc for me. (And I liked most of the rest of the movie, so it felt like a slap in the face to have it half-way ruined by such a stupid thing at the very last moment.)

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I hate that I find it hard to spend stuff on myself. I want to buy a $30 Funko Pop (Mandalorian) but spending money is so hard.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I am extremely annoyed about my job

I moved positions to a new area of responsibility sort of last minute before our busy season (which is just starting now) and received significantly less training than is normal and now it feels like everyone has decided to just act like that's not the case and not making any allowances for the fact that, again, I have had an incredibly small amount of training and am basically trying to learn on the fly

It's also frustrating because I can't really tell how much of this is in my head - the whole narrative lines up incredibly closely with the general negative self-talk and "everyone hates and is judging you constantly" narratives that exist in my own head

So, it's just a frustrating situation all the way around

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I was the anon that posted yesterday that felt not good enough etc. thanks to those who commented.

Had to give up a fannish hobby I've done on and off for about two and a half years due to 'drama'. It had been a good distraction during COVID although at times I'd get stressed over it and compare my work to others (but not let others know about that). Others doing it too were nice (beforehand I was a bit nervous about doing it and thought I'd get picked on, not fit in etc due to that happening to me with past hobbies/fandoms) until one BNF who I've seen around just right out made fun of me for no reason. Burst into tears and just deleted my account. I feel like I'm never going to fit in anywhere or be good at anything as a result because this always seems to happen to me.

Also lost someone I was close to online last year. They'd been the only person I'd felt comfortable with but in recent years we'd drifted apart and they'd made new friends. Last year during COVID they'd had a death in the family and I said I'll be here if they needed me. Heard nothing for months, then found out they had gotten a new Facebook account and not even let me know. I constantly have nightmares I contact them online and confront them and they block at yell at me and say I'm boring, I've had two of them this week.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so mad because after years of medication and therapy, I finally had my depression and anxiety under control! I'd gotten it to a point where I no longer even needed medication, I had a job I liked and that I was good at, and I'd even managed to develop something of a social life. I was doing really well and for once in my life it felt like I was finally going somewhere good?

And now fast forward and I've lost that job I loved because the company ended up shutting down due to the pandemic, I haven't seen any of my friends in over a year, and my depression and anxiety have come back with a vengeance only I can't do anything about them because I can't afford to go see anyone because unemployed, and I don't have the energy/motivation to look for a new job because LOL depression and anxiety. I hate this because I'd worked so hard to get myself into a good place where I was finally happy with myself and felt like I could go somewhere with my life and now it's all gone and I don't even have enough energy to start trying to put the pieces back together.

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

So god fucking damn emotional and tired of everything

Re: Vent thread!

[(Anonymous)]

Sure does suck how cool the recent video games I've been playing are compared to how boring my actual real life is. :')