[ SECRET POST #1580 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #1580 ⌋


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Comments

[fscom.livejournal.com]

22. http://i53.tinypic.com/243f0i8.png

[(Anonymous)]

... exhibitionism?

[(Anonymous)]

that was my first thought too, but it didn't seem quite right ...

[(Anonymous)]

*shrugs* I don't really see the appeal of slapping a label on everything particularly because of things like this. Does it matter what it's called and how it relates to everything else so long as you're happy about things? Everyone seems to have to the exceptions to the label they give their sexuality, so just go with it. Either you'll find a new facet of yourself, or just find a weird little fluke, either way it doesn't seem like a bad thing.

(Also I kind of view all of the sexualities as "I am generally attracted to blank, but haven't necessarily found an exception yet," and yes, this includes heterosexuality.)

[no-one-specific.livejournal.com]

Totally agree with everything in this comment.

[exova.livejournal.com]

Excellent comment - IA completely.

[(Anonymous)]

I agree, but some people really love labels and can find them comforting. Some people really can't just accept and move on, they seem to actually need the labels to center themselves and feel comfortable. *shrug* Different strokes for different folks.

[(Anonymous)]

OK, I'm assuming you're in you're teens, because that's generally the DON'T LABEL MAH crowd. But labels serve a greater social purpose, which is a) in the case of queer sexuality, it gives us visibility which is VERY important to awareness, and b) it allows you to identify a community of people you can feel safe in.

I mean geez, do you call yourself a fan? Or maybe a geek, or a nerd, etc?THAT'S A LABEL, OH MA GAWZ why you gotta label yourself. I don't understand why all those fans/nerds gotta make this into a 'thing', you just like stuff so I don't understand why you can't just say that instead of call yourself nerdy.

Do you see the fallacy in the whole 'no labelz' thing? We ALL use labels to define ourselves everyday.

[indevoutly.livejournal.com]

Identify as you.

Sexuality is fluid, if you believe you've changed in some way that isn't a scary thing nor a bad thing. Explore this side of yourself. Would you feel as equally aroused if you had displayed yourself rather than your writing? Test some things out but please, don't feel like you've been living a lie - yo'uve just discovered something new about yourself and that isn't wrong.

[(Anonymous)]

I think the OP feels like they've been living a lie because, generally, the asexual community is constantly fighting the notion that they're just 'broken' people who need to find a way to reach their sexuality. It's become a bone of contention, and many claim they will NEVER EVER change and they will always be asexual as a defense mechanism and as an effort to legitimize themselves. So when someone who has identified as asexual then does have sexual feelings, they can feel like they're a liar, or someone who is letting down the community and proving to the world they're just another one of THOSE asexuals who wasn't really asexual.

It's similar to someone who identifies as gay who then ends up falling into a heterosexual relationship, and who is worried they'll be seen as vindicating the idea that gay people just need to find the 'right' hetero to turn them, etc. You worry what you do is somehow reflecting on your community.

However, you have to eventually realize you can't live for your community, only for yourself.

[(Anonymous)]

you're clearly nonnysexual :3

[judo-creature.livejournal.com]

+1

/giggles

[chelonianmobile.livejournal.com]

Context-related ego rush. I'd guess that's pretty normal.

[(Anonymous)]

Thirdperson-itis.

[doktordeathray.livejournal.com]

The problem lies in the fact that you were building your identity / "lifestyle" around not liking physical sexual experiences. There's a lot more to you than that.
So you found something out about yourself? That's awesome! Self-exploration should not be a bad thing.

[(Anonymous)]

lol at your obsession over finding a useless special-snowflake designation for your super-super-SUPER special sexuality in every little tiny thing that possibly causes a sexual reaction in you.

Navel-gaze some more, I guess, just don't expect anyone else to recognize your frantically-sought labels as anything but bullshit.

[cloud-riven.livejournal.com]

No big. Just means you found something you like. You can still id with everything you listed, but maybe you're just more flexible about some of them.

voyeurism?
arousing another ism?

[mutantjules.livejournal.com]

there's nothing wrong or weird about getting turned on by turning somebody else on, OP. that's why some people genuinely enjoy goin' down on people (TMI TMI - including me). :D No worries!

[dark-kaomi.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't say your life up until then was a lie, anon. I would say that you just gained a new piece of data and now have to adjust your life to fit it. More than likely you didn't like physical interaction with others because you'd never found a reason to/found the right person to be physical with. No worries anon. It's normal. Everyone discovers stuff about themselves all of the time.

i have the answer for you

[(Anonymous)]

you're straight and desperately trying to be "queer" for e-cred

you're not alone and you're not special. hth

[kallanda-lee.livejournal.com]

Hey, I can see how that would be upsetting, but I'd just advise not to put yourself in boxes. In the end, labels are just labels. Don't be afraid to redifine yourself, if that is ultimately your path to happiness.

[ecoerrante.livejournal.com]

I...kinda agree with the rest, and that you're over-reacting. I don't think that this is as big a deal as you're making out to be because 1. Sexuality is fluid - it doesn't usually change drastically over someone's life, but it can, and 2. Asexuality means that you're not sexually *attracted* to people, not that you don't get turned on/don't have libido.

[(Anonymous)]

You're never a lie.

Rubix Cube

[(Anonymous)]

My box, let me show you it! "Asexual Lesbian who is Phobic of Men (but likes fictional guys together and thinks they're hot, and IS sexually attracted to women, but only if she's in love with them, and she almost never falls in love... or it takes her like... three years to get to that point with a person... so she may as well be asexual.)"

Fancy, isn't it? I'd call it a "rubix cube". haha :D

Don't sweat it. Nobody said your box had to fit all the ticky boxes perfectly. :D

the correct term is 'author's rush'

[(Anonymous)]

Author's rush small>TM is that high you get when you've done something really that good. Of course it fires the same pleasure centers in your brain that - well, other things designed to fire the pleasure centers of your brain do. Hell, I've actually gotten euphoric highs that last several days at a time when I get hit with a 'hell YEAH!' moment in writing. I've heard people get the same endomorphic rush from exercising too. Something hits, it triggers the pleasure centers in your brain, the chemicals get released and away you go.

In this case - chances are it has nothing to do with your sexuality. Enjoy it, appreciate it, and move along with yourself. If it IS sexual it'll hit you in other ways down the road and you can grow into whatever it is as you go but it sounds like you had an author's rush going on. Congrats. It's awesome and it's yet another reason to enjoy writing.