[ SECRET POST #6902 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #6902 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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05. [WARNING for discussion of incest]




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06. [WARNING for discussion of suicide?]




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Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 00 pages, 00 secrets from Secret Submission Post #985.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

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[fscom]

06. [WARNING for discussion of suicide?]
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[fscom]

F!S used to be part of what helped me hold on to life and hang around a bit longer. But not anymore.

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[iff_and_xor]

Really sorry to hear that. I do hope you can find other things to fill that role, whether that's some fandom thing worth sticking around for, something you want to achieve, simple spite... whatever.

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[(Anonymous)]

It's hard. I feel unwanted here now. It used to be livelier and I didn't get bad reactions.

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[iff_and_xor]

There have definitely been multiple shifts here over time. And I find that sometimes there are just shitty days where we get visited by a motivated troll or two or (maybe more commonly) multiple people are just on edge and less pleasant.

You don't need to say, of course, but if you feel like explaining more specifically what kind of bad reactions you get now, I'd be interested. My experience is that I just get a lot less reaction. More crickets. Which I find difficult in a different way.

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[(Anonymous)]

Glad you found something else to keep you going

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[(Anonymous)]

...I don't...
... I don't think that's what OP is implying.

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[(Anonymous)]

don't fret. haven't killed myself yet.

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[(Anonymous)]

this is my secret.
i don't always feel welcomed or liked here.
it seems people want to verbally beat me up or troll me for being the resident Eeyore.

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[(Anonymous)]

None of us know each other. I doubt that when you comment anyone realizes you’re the same person from whatever other comments you’ve made.

I’m glad you’re still here. You can be Eyore or Tigger or anyone else. The quality of engagement here fluctuates because not everyone is available or has anything to say when a post goes up. Just keep coming back. And if the secrets aren’t sparking any conversations for you or you don’t see any interesting GC threads, you’ve got the next day to look forward to ;)

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[(Anonymous)]

OP
Thank you.

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[(Anonymous)]

Gently, I suggest you may be reading tone or meaning that is not there in some replies. Depression fucks with your perspective amd that includes tone interpretation in both written and spoken words.

Some people are definitely assholes though, but tbf that is the gamble you take when posting online about anything.

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[(Anonymous)]

OP
You have a point about depression fucking up perspectives.

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[(Anonymous)]

I'm glad you're here.

I think I have seen you respond negatively to anons trying to offer friendly chatting and support before. Disregard this if that was another person with suicidal thoughts. I understand wanting to vent, and I understand sometimes letting out negative comments when you're feeling low, but I think that can make you come across as trollish or like someone who doesn't want to talk, and be frustrating for the people who actually want to chat.

Is it possible that sometimes you see negativity where it isn't and get defensive? I can totally understand if so, depression can really mess with your perspective. Maybe taking some time before responding to replies and trying not to shut down attempts to be friendly could help with your conversations on here? You could also say "Thanks, I just need to vent right now" if you only want people to listen and actually don't want suggestions.

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[(Anonymous)]

We are not your therapy group and not even friends. Even though most of anons and users here nothing but understanding. You really need to try and find healthier and more diverse cope mechanisms.

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[(Anonymous)]

+1

I worry for you nonny, we are here to chat but we are not pros and don't know you personally. I hope you can find other things that help you. Sometimes f!s will be inactive, there will be troll comments, people may want to help but say something unintentionally ignorant, etc. and hopefully in that situation you can turn to something else for support. I don't mean this as an attack on you. I just think any hobby forum like f!s will for sure have its ups and downs and not be a good source of support on its own.

I do really hope you are okay and do worry about you when you post. Best wishes OP.

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[(Anonymous)]

AYRT
Exactly! This is not an attack, just this is all above our paygrade
Also a lot of us do have mental health problems and stresses of everyday life. Like I am having trouble not to make an aggressive comment. Not because I want anyone to suffer, but because I have trouble regulating my moods right now.

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[(Anonymous)]

OP
i'm very surprized that anyone worries about me at all.

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[(Anonymous)]

+1
Even if you don't have IRL friends or supportive family (I don't), nothing is stopping you from finding it online. Discord and forum friends were my lifeline when isolated in real life. Make an account somewhere and focus on hobbies to find connections.

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[(Anonymous)]

i know you are not my friends because i no longer have any friends. i was abandoned by almost all of them.

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[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry you're going through that OP.

I felt this way about certain places on the internet in the past and then got diagnosed with rejection sensitive dysphoria. Which brought things into perspective and helped me develop ways to cope & understand that most people are just existing. They don't think about me Like That if they think about me.

If you feel lonely, whether in general or concerning FS, I think it would benefit you to make new connections. Branch out. Being alone in your thoughts can't be good for anyone's psyche. But I also understand the struggle and your feelings are valid.

Hang in there

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[(Anonymous)]

I never heard of rejection sensitive dysphoria before.

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[(Anonymous)]

The snarky side of myself wants to say, "OK goodbye forever. See you tomorrow," because so often in fandom comms (not just FS) when people make a loud declaration of their departure, they're actually looking for attention and they actually have any intentions to leave the fandom.
Reading the comments, though, I do want to tell the Secret OP that I hope they get some help and find a place to feel seen and heard.
I've gone through some hard depressive lows and I'd felt like FS was making my depression worse. Maybe it was a mix of just generally feeling bad and a mix of me projecting negative tones, their have been a lot of times I took a break from FS. Sometimes I wondered if I would even want to return.

If Secret OP needs a break, I'm wishing you luck and I hope you can find some healing and peace.
Sorry that FS is triggering bad vibes. Intentional or not, please try to remember this is a small fandom community and the many non-named commenters are often here for some laughs or fun banter. Not everyone will be considerate of your emotions. I try to be mindful because there have been really thoughtful and kind FS members who gave me some compassion and advice when they didnt need to, but I know I can make snarky comments trying to be funny when it wasn't the time for that.
Take care of yourself Secret OP. This place can be too much sometimes, and there is nothing wrong with leaving. You always have the option to return. Take care of yourself first and foremost, if this place is heightening bad feelings there is no harm or shame in leaving this place for a while. Like an upthread comment pointed out, this is a mostly anon fandom space. It's not a place filled with friends and peers who are looking out for your best interest. Many of us mean well and would like to help where we can but ultimately this is a small fandom community. This is not a group therapy community where you can work on personal issues with peers when you need it.

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[(Anonymous)]

FS sucks but there's many more, better, places online. Please try them, OP. Also try MMORPG for the positive social interactions fix.

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[(Anonymous)]

what is MMORPG?
if it costs money, i can't join.