[ SECRET POST #3227 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3227 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Mary McDonnell, Battlestar Galactica, Major Crimes]


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[Deadly Premonition]


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[The Walking Dead, Glenn Rhee]


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[Bill Skarsgård]


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08. http://i.imgur.com/LAq54d4.jpg
[link for random penis]









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Comments

vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

My dad was supposed to have surgery for spinal stenosis tomorrow. A week ago insurance said they wouldn't pay for it. His doctor appealed. Today, they said they still wouldn't pay for it.

Re: vent thread

[kallanda_lee]

Ugghhh, that sucks. what now?

Re: vent thread

[feotakahari]

I do not want to be drawn into office politics at my new job, yet I don't see a way to sidestep it while still doing my job properly. The upshot is that my new boss has had so much trouble hiring new employees that he's had to keep folks who half-ass their job, and he wants to align me against the lazier workers and put pressure on them to shape up. I'm already sick of them foisting all the work off on me, so I guess I'm in a faction now, even though I have the feeling any involvement is going to end badly for me.

Re: vent thread

[kallanda_lee]

Ugh, I hate work environments like that. I also tend not to participate, but then I tend to be unemployed a lot so I'd rather not give advice.

Re: vent thread

[cbrachyrhynchos]

I hear that. Good news, evil boss is being transferred to another part of the organization. Bad news, I still can't talk about the workplace harassment/discrimination problem that ended up with both sides lawyering up.

Re: vent thread

[diet_poison]

I hate shit like that. It's sometimes impossible to keep completely out of it if you want a job. :(

Re: vent thread

[caerbannog]

+2

Don't want to be involved, get drawn in anyway.

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Just started taking depression meds and my anxiety's acting up badly. (Should be temporary, but still sucks.) Today was awful.

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry to hear that. Tomorrow is another day, at least. I hope things get better for you!

Re: vent thread

[diet_poison]

Balls. I hope it gets better soon!

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I just want to be able to afford my own place. I came here to vent but now I don't even have the energy to type. So angry and depressed about life.

Re: vent thread

[kallanda_lee]

Today I did some aptitude tests at the temp agency for a job I don't really want, but have a decent chance of getting. I need the money, but I can't bring myself to be even a little bit excited. Frankly it just depresses me.

Re: vent thread

[dethtoll]

Got some bad news about dad last night -- not a lot of details, just that he's having kidney troubles and a lot of pain. Kinda fucking me up, especially since he was doing pretty good on Friday so I don't know what the fuck happened.

Re: vent thread

[kaijinscendre]

My sister had to go to the hospital today. They are still saying it is just a virus. Now I am worried about her being able to afford hospital bills + regular bills. And she is figthing with my mom because she is all pissy and tired and hot.

Trigger warning for suicide (non-explicit)

[(Anonymous)]

The way non-depressed people talk about suicide infuriates me.

I understand that some people have been forced to shoulder the burden of their loved one's death. I understand that it's hard. I have lost people that I loved to suicide as well. But what I don't understand is this stark, hateful condemnation of people who do it.

They say "this person gave up, this person hated their family, this person was selfish and awful and greedy". Every time I see someone talk about reasons to not commit suicide, it is about other people. It's never about the person who is depressed enough to want to literally die. It's about everyone else. Maybe that works on some people. I don't know. I hope it does help somebody.

The people who rant about the "selfishness" are probably some of the same people who turn away when they witness depression. Why should they help? There are doctors for that! (That don't always help.) There is medication for that! (That doesn't always work!) Why should they expend any effort? They aren't willing to spend five minutes of their life a little uncomfortable, but say that depressed people should have to suffer through agony so that they don't have to lose them?

I'm not saying people should kill themselves. I'm not saying it's a good thing, not at all. But there's so little understanding and so little effort. And so much judgment.

Re: vent thread

[herpymcderp]

I have been randomly nauseous for the past week or so, on and off. It's getting really annoying and makes me not want to eat anything. Bleh.

Stupid emotions

[(Anonymous)]

I've always had very fluctuating mood cycles - up then down and a sort of vaguely bipolar pattern without actually being bipolar. But the last year or so I feel like I have gone insane. It's also lined up pretty regularly with my period, so now when I feel violently suicidally crying myself to sleep despair and depressing I know I'll probably start bleeding soon. It's awful and I can't function like this and if it's my damn ladyparts fault I just want someone to remove them. So angry and fed up and done with my entire body. I just want to be able to live my damn life and know that my emotions will be fucking normal one day to the next, not this weird "who knows when I'll be hyper or pumped or down in depression land!"

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

One of my favorite Youtubers posted a new video which is getting great reviews, and I cannot watch because it features (very prominently) one of my main phobias. Which I'm not going to mention, because it's one that people scoff at ("OMG LOL how can you be scared of ___???", so don't ask.

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

The mother of one of the kids I work with called and said she wanted to talk to the "Spanish-speaking girl". We thought she meant the official translator we have on site, but no, she wanted to talk to me and berated me for five minutes because I don't spell so well in Spanish. I speak it fluently and read it well. I sometimes forget accents when I'm writing, but the meaning is always clear. She wanted to know who on earth had hired someone as incompetent as me and when I told her I wasn't the translator, just the teacher's aide who wrote progress notes in her daughter's notebook, she flew off the handle and started screeching something about how it was required by law that we have someone in the same classroom as her daughter who speaks Spanish. I told her I did (we were having the whole conversation in Spanish), and she said that obviously I didn't because I didn't know how to write it and you can't be fluent in a language without being able to write it. That came from a woman who spelled "vamos" with a "b" and forgot the tilde when writing "niña".

Re: vent thread

[belladonna_took]

I wish people would stop asking me for things when I feel this tired because I don't have the energy to insist that they go fuck themselves vigorously.

I for some reason said 'k' in reply to my nutty guilt-tripping relative when she said she was coming over today and now she's outside apparently, and also like an hour earlier than she said she would be.

fffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Re: vent thread

[cakemage]

For the past four years, I've been randomly getting these dizzy spells (I don't know what else to call them) where I'll have a weird, nonsense thought, then I'll get this buzzing, burning, pulsing pressure in my head, my heart will start beating erratically and I'll get a weird chemical taste/smell in my mouth and nose. I also won't recognize my surroundings. I'll sort of know where I am, but nothing around me will look familiar. It'll all last less than a minute, but it always leaves me drained and wobbly for the rest of the day. Sometimes I'll go a month without having one, and then I'll have twelve in one day and continue to have multiple spells a day for the next few weeks.

It took almost two years for my doctors to listen to me and start trying to figure out what's going on (welcome to the Florida health care system), and as of now they still have no clue what it could be. We ruled out neurological disorders last year and now we've pretty much ruled out heart problems, too (I even had a loop recorder implanted back in July). I don't know where we're going to try to go from here, but I do know that it's going to be a long time before I can afford to try again anyway, because I'm too disabled to work but not disabled enough to qualify for disability and am flat broke. So I guess it doesn't even fucking matter. Oh, and did I mention that I can't even get my driver's license back until I'm diagnosed and treated, and I live in a rural area with no public transportation or anything within walking distance? 'Cause yeah.

Suicide and depression mention

[(Anonymous)]

I'm wasting my time in art school - I'm about to graduate with no friends, no one liking my art, and no job opportunities. My depression is terrible, and I can't hold down a job because of it, but I'm too scared of going to get help cause of people I've talked to who got locked up for suicidal impulses, which I have (especially by the college medical people). I can't help but wonder if my girlfriend loves the real me, or the fictional me who one day magically isn't depressed, who I don't think exists even if I got help - especially when I leave college and it becomes evident I'm a fuck up who can't hold down a job. She wants to start a family one day and is going to become a teacher - I'm a depressed art student with no livable skills who can't even take care of myself. I can't see my life going anywhere good.

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Both my roommates got infected with e coli and I know its spread through fluids but I am freakishly paranoid about it now (especially since we don't know how they got it in the first place)

Re: vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Why has fictionpress been totally taken over by people pimping Inkitt?

I swear I've gotten tons of PMs about Inkitt. No I am not interested.