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⌈ Secret Post #6439 ⌋

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Comments

Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Vent please. I have one.

Re: Vent thread

[philstar22]

I'm so sick of sleep issues. I'm ready to try anything. At a women's group the other week someone there mentioned they do sleep meditation sessions over the phone. I don't believe in alternative medicine. And yet, I'm considering it. Just because I'm so damn tired.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I've been an insomniac most of my life and my doctor prescribed me seroquel. Coupled with a calm and sleep gummy I've been peacefully sleeping since. Not sure if this is something you can ask your doctor for, but since it's helped me it might do the same for you.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I used to have sleep issues because my brain wouldn't shut up. Got on sertraline, and it was blessed quiet!

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Meditation worked wonders for me and I highly recommend it. I can’t take most sleep aids and the few that I can leave me hung over or zombie like. My insomnia is also due to a noisy brain so meditation was the right course for me. I can quiet my thoughts and organize my thinking better. For me, it treated the cause not the symptom.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

It’s Sunday night for my husband and we haven’t spent any time together. The little bit I’ve been able to get his attention, he’s been short tempered. He’s going through some stuff so it’s totally understandable but still frustrating. And I feel like his terrible sleep schedule on his days off is a huge part of why we don’t get much time together. Idk. I just wanted to spend a couple hours playing a game or watching something. Doing anything that isn’t necessary to running the household or dealing with issues related to our aging parents.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I feel you as an anon with a partner who also has a terrible sleep cycle (essentially if he has no work the next day he'll stay up until 4am drinking and smoking) so I often don't see him until the evening when it's too late to go out and he's too groggy to do anything fun.

I hope you get some time with him soon, nonny. Have you brought this up in conversation with him at all? Sometimes it's easy to get into ruts and habits and not see it until someone points it out.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry, that seems so isolating and sad. Your person is right there, yet absent. I hope stuff evens out soon and you get to spend time together.

this got kind of long :\

[(Anonymous)]

I have so much shit going on and zero support.

I have been having this problem (I mentioned it here awhile ago) where I can't digest certain foods - it just causes intense pain for hours. Well now the list of "safe" foods is even smaller and the reaction to "bad" food is now not only pain but vomitting. I have no idea what's going on and my anxiety around food has grown so much I'm afraid to eat most anything. I don't have health insurance so I can't go to a doctor and I am just so sick of being sick and in pain.

Also, my go to "therapy" was hiking and backpacking and I fucking tore a muscle in my leg so I can't even take a measly neighborhood walk. I do not do well mentally when I cannot be physically active.

On top of all that, my sleep has been disrupted by housemate and various other enviornmental stuff outside my control for several weeks now and I am slowly going mad without proper sleep and proper nutrition and exercise.

*deep breath* That actually felt good to type all that out. I don't really have friends or family I can vent to or go to for emotional support so I've just been piling this all in my brain and dealing as best I can.

Re: this got kind of long :\

[(Anonymous)]

I don’t know where you live or where you hike but you might want to look up Alpha Gal Syndrome. It’s an autoimmune response to a carbohydrate found in mammals except humans and some apes. Your symptoms sound identical to several people I know with it. I have it but my symptoms are totally different. It’s a very strange condition that’s so different for each person.
If you can go to a clinic that accepts personal payments, they should be able to do the blood draw and get the lab results to you.

Re: this got kind of long :\

[(Anonymous)]

If you are in the USA, is low cost healthcare an option?

https://www.healthcare.gov/community-health-centers/

Re: this got kind of long :\

[(Anonymous)]

That's a lot to handle, I'm sorry, anon. :(

CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

One of our cats was hit and killed by a car(s?) yesterday.

(Before anyone jumps down my throat, I live in a quiet part of the UK where it is very normal to allow cats to roam outside, as compared to the US, we have far fewer predators, and we live on a quiet road with a speed bump directly outside. Regardless, I've already decided to not have any more outdoor cats.)

Essentially, it was a closed casket. They wrapped him thoroughly in a blanket and strongly advised us not to unwrap him, as his injuries were so severe and upsetting to look at, and advised us to remember him as we last saw him instead, when he was comfy and happy.

I am broken. Just knowing that his death was so traumatic and disfiguring will haunt me forever, and I cry every time I imagine how scary and traumatic his death must have been. I pray it was quick but I don't know it was. He was my baby, a complete mama's boy and I feel like I've failed him.

Re: CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Re: CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose a let, but then add the traumatic nature of this one and it is a lot. Give youself grace and time.

Re: CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

I’m so sorry for your loss :(

Re: CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

My first cat was run over by someone who was known to hate cats and possibly actively went back to kill him with his car. My cats since have all been inside. I know how it feels and I'm sorry it happened to you too.

Re: CW: Pet death

[(Anonymous)]

I am so sorry. I'm sure your sweet baby had a good life with you, and I hope that's of some comfort.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

My doctor is running a bunch of tests on me so I got the bloodwork done today and now have a bruised AF hand because they couldn't find my veins anywhere else (and the nurse who did it was all 'here hold this cotton ball to your hand for five minutes so it won't bruise' and was not pleased when I said it was going to bruise anyway and, spoilers, it's bruising and so the top of my hand is green and black) and I was supposed to do a urine sample there but my anxiety was not having it (shy bladder) so now I have to do it at home, preferably tomorrow morning and bring it in ASAP and I'm just so UGH about it and i left the lab in tears.

I know these tests are for my own good and are to help me

but also. like.

can they just fuck off.

i don't want to pee into a cup and then get it to the lab asap tomorrow. i'm on fucking vacation i want to sleep in and then play video games while eating candy.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I asked my sort-of-former-boss for a letter to excuse me from grand jury duty (since I personally don't have a reason not to go, but my team will derail and I'll have to clean it up when I get back). He talked to HR and they said I needed to write out the reasons I should be excused, so I did and sent it to him and my sort-of-new-boss. My new boss wrote up the excusal letter and send everything to HR and asked if this was ok to send. They replied back with an absolute NO. They don't ever excuse people from jury duty. THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE????? Now we all hate HR.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Went to the dentist for the first time in 7 years (combination of depression + COVID hitting + losing insurance for a while), found out I need a tooth pulled plus a root canal, and that's just the worst shit. Got a whole treatment plan that will take YEARS to fix with my kinda shit insurance, and now I have to make a phone call with the root canal place that's out in one of the suburbs that hates efficient bus lines (but actually takes my fucking insurance).

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I realized that I really, really need to go back to therapy. But I've long since moved away and lost touch with the only good therapist I ever had, and I went through so many awful ones my entire life before her that I'm terrified to look for a new one. I've believed for a long time that most therapists choose that job because they love the power it gives them to make people feel small and bad about themselves. I need one and there are no good ones.

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm on a trial period on a new job. Which is already a major stressor (I've been working from home and had a really bad paid but with really good hours job after big burn out for years now). But also they are hectic and the first week I was sort of alone in all this and it was stressful af and I've made some mistakes of course.
I can't really drop my freelance clients because this job is not a sure thing and I took some pretty big projects. And of course for some reason every fucking client I ever had and never actually had decided to contact me now.
So probably because of this and because of meeting a lot of new people my body decided to fuck it and run a fever. My boss was understanding and I am working from home right now but that is nerve wrecking. Also I know myself and there is a chance that my symptoms would got worse instead of healing.
I am tired I am stressed and I want to sleep but

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

Super trite vent, but...

Being ghosted sucks. Granted, it was a one night stand sort of thing, but numbers and (future) schedules were exchanged. And the person was so good looking. So no contact, not even an acknowledgement of my text asking if it was a one off or if they were down to clown again...just stings/bruises my ego.

Obviously, I want to enjoy myself with someone who reciprocates my desires (me for them, them for me), so it's not like I want to convince this person to return or anything (I don't want to convince anyone for that), it's just damn. You've hit my pride, I thought you were feeling me. Maybe even my feelings. You've shattered my delusions and aspirations of being your #1 in this city (because they're a rolling stone, so to speak). I wanna show you off, which makes me feel incredibly juvenile (look! look! look at I caught), and as if I'm seeking validation (this person found me attractive enough to fool around with).

Thanks for the memories, I guess. In B4 this is a person, a another human with feelings, and so on.

BUT DAMN! I've never felt the song " Come Through and Chill" so strongly before....pick up the phone, show me it was real.

lmao because I'll get over this, and I knew very well what the deal was before getting involved. IT'S JUST...WILL I EVER FIND SOMEONE JUST AS, IF NOT MORE, ATTRACTIVE (AND MORE CHEMISTRY) THAN THIS PERSON?! T.T

Re: Vent thread

[(Anonymous)]

I fucking hate work. And it's for such petty reasons, involving coworkers.

Tired of being stuck between people who don't do their fucking work and people who stick their fucking nose in EVERYONE'S BUSINESS WHEN IT IS NOT THEIR JOB. Thanks Susan, I think I can figure out the task I've literally been fucking doing every other day for the last 4 years. Hey Kevin, would you mind, idk, monitoring the thing you were assigned to monitor on the day you are supposed to monitor? You know, maybe some time before 3 PM during the work fucking day? Instead of leaving the bulk of problems to the person who has to monitor the day after you? Ella, have you tried reading the e-mail to interpret any part of the problem before you bombard me with 50 questions? Also, surely you've figured out it's your duty to give folks access to that system? I don't know who gave you the impression that isn't a priority, and I don't know how I can make it clearer that it is. Jason and Jennifer, could you make sure you don't need my help before you send me on a wild goose chase, only midway to go "lol false alarm soz"? It's frustrating because I feel like there are conversations I should be a part of and it's making me nervous that I'm not.

Of course, I don't snap back with nasty responses and I do my best to assist or deal with it, but I guarantee I am throwing fucking tantrums internally and screaming.

Meanwhile I can't get anyone else knowledgeable to answer MY fucking questions (and yes, I do try researching before I ask). Well fine. Enjoy all the butthurt customers I wasn't able to help. But don't you dare even think of pointing the finger at me.

Maybe there's something to be learned from this. I just haven't found it yet, I suppose.