[ SECRET POST #2244 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2244 ⌋

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Comments

Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

yes

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

My boyfriend is a huge childish asshole. He has broken up with me almost a hundred times in the past few years, calls me filthy names afterwards, and constantly acts like I mistreat him, even though I bend over backwards for him and am the only person who has ever had to compromise on anything.

Confession: I always take him back because I know I'm too ugly to find anyone else and I really do not want to die alone.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Fuck that shit.

FUCK THAT SHIT

Re: Confession thread

[insanenoodlyguy]

YOU ARE IDIOT. BE LESS SO. YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD THIS THING BEFORE, YES? NEXT TIME LISTEN!

Re: Confession thread

[badass_tiger]

OP, nobody is ever that ugly. You can and deserve to do better.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Why do I feel like he probably made you feel that ugly (or at least contributed to it, if you already felt ugly)?

Anyway, leave his worthless loser ass. Or just refuse to take him back. And you CAN find someone else, no matter how "ugly" you are/think you are.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

Usually I don't do this but I'm not gonna sugar coat this one: You're still alone, boyfriend or no. Loneliness isn't not having anyone around you, it is being unhappy and unable to commiserate with someone who you can trust and who trusts you back. There are degrees to loneliness and the highest one, the worse one, is not being able to trust yourself and having to defer your self-esteem to an outside source.

Your boyfriend is a scumbag, and as long as you continue to enable him, the longer you'll continue to be alone because he's part of what's keeping you from getting out of this rut you are in. If you feel you're too ugly to find anyone else, then why do you believe that someone who can so easily treat someone else so callously deserve a girlfriend? Even if you don't think of it as you 'giving him something', you actually are giving him validation and, take it from me and every sensible person on earth, he doesn't deserve that.

Re: Confession thread

[lynx]

I'm sorry I don't know how to say this without being read as patronizing. But the further I read into this thread, the more it looks like you're stuck in a cycle of abuse that comes from an already abusive household. Now, your boyfriend is not going to change. Men like him don't, no matter how much they promise it. So it's you who's going to have to change things.

You're unhappy now, but letting things be like this is the easiest, cheapest way out. And you'll be unhappy forever if you don't take another path.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

You're a fucking idiot.

Re: Things You Have Trouble Accepting As Canon

[elialshadowpine]

Sweetie, you deserve better. It is better to be alone than to be with an abusive asshole. Plus, I will tell you this. Attraction and beauty is not objective; if you are attracted to someone for their personality, they become beautiful to you, even if they are what society would think is ugly.

May I also recommend reading the advice letters and comments at CaptainAwkward.com? I know I've read people asking for advice that have dealt with similar to what you are, and I think reading what they have to say may help you.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I feel safe and at ease around asians in a way I don't around any other race.

Live in a multicultural city and I'm not asian myself.

This is all sorts of problematic I know, but I can't help the subconscious way I relax around them.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

My go to insults are all 'misogynistic'.

s!b omg internalised oppression perpetuating the patriarchy blah blah blah

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I can't bear to live in close proximity with Asians.

No, not because I don't like them or I'm not comfortable interacting with them. Only because a) the smell of all asian food turns my stomach, and b) the sound of korean, japanese, vietnamese, and chinese (the languages I've been well-exposed to) being spoken out loud sounds unbearably, teeth-grindingly, revoltingly hideous to my ears. Those languages are the worst-sounding auditory concoction ever created in the history of the universe as far as the nonsensical conclusions of my irrational auditory processing center is concerned.

And it's unfortunately not just a "I'm just not used to it" thing. I've lived with a Korean roommate for a semester and a Vietnamese one for another semester and a half so far, and it's not getting better. If anything, it's taking shorter and shorter for me to get to the point where I need to get the fuck out of the apartment if she's talking on the phone or cooking because I can't stand another two minutes of having my senses exposed to it.

I feel so horrible and guilty for this. It really has nothing to do with being Asian. It has only to do with the way my ears and nose are wired. But I know I can never ever say this. :\

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I always tend to go for below average nerdy guys because I know there's a lesser chance of them to cheat on me.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I'm still not entirely over the fact that my mom callously threw out a ton of my shit. It was four years ago, but I still occasionally remember what I lost and simultaneously want to cry and hunt her down and punch her in the face.

I just want to be over it and her already, but this one thing just keeps bringing me back to how much I fucking hate her for what she did. I'll probably never be able to replace everything.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I told a guy that is interested in me that I wasn't a virgin and now I am freaking out because I really like him and want to have sex with him but then I'd have to tell him the truth. I'm not sure how he'd take it as he's a lot older and more experienced than I am and I don't want him to think I'm too young and immature - which I clearly am considering I felt I had to lie about it!

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I really hate my maid/domestic helper/[insert whatever term you find inoffensive here]. It's bad enough that I get anxious around strangers, and this is one stranger we have to keep in the house, but whenever we ask her to do something, she replies 'Yeah, yeah' in this really condescending tone and it PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF every time she talks to me.

And we can't get rid of her because she's my grandmum's charity project, and we don't want to let her down :| But I hate that she treats all of us (including my mother!) like children whenever we talk to her. If I try to tell her that she's doing something wrong, she'll argue, and I just ... c'mon, she's paid to do the chores. Can't she just do that and shut up?

Still, I sound like a major asshole (yeah, my family is rich enough to afford a maid. In my defense, having a maid is kind of the culture and even families that aren't well-off have maids) so I never say that aloud.

Re: Confession thread

[badass_tiger]

I still can't memorise what to answer to the line of the azan 'Prayer is better than sleep' because I rarely wake up early enough to practice it whenever I do memorise it. /shame

On a somewhat related note, I cried yesterday because of the song 'The Prophet's Hands'.

I THINK THE INTENSE EYE CONTACT COFFEE KIDS ARE BACK

[chardmonster]

SITTING ACROSS FROM EACH OTHER AT THE STARBUCKS

MEANINGFUL CONVERSATION

COFFEE

RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME

SHE SAYS SHE FEELS CHILL WITH "THEM" BUT WHO ARE THEY? WHO ARE THEY?!

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I have spent a truly embarrassing amount of time working on a Pokémon/Homestuck crossover fanadventure that I will probably never end up posting anywhere. :(

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

i can't go to sleep if i don't masturbate.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I don't cuss much because I think I sound rather silly when I do.

[(Anonymous)]

I hate my roommate. Not just oh she annoys me sometimes, I viscerally loathe her to the point I refuse to go to social events where she tags along because I don't want to be in the same room as her. I hate everything about her. I hate her and I can't say anything about it because she's fragile and depressed and my SO is right, if I said anything she might actually do herself harm.

No advice needed, just getting the confession out.

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I just posted a kinkmeme fill for the first time ever and I'm irrationally terrified. (It wasn't even smutty, so I don't know what I'm so worried about. Bah.)

Re: Confession thread

[(Anonymous)]

I think anyone who judges another person of the gender they're not interested in for their looks or how they express their sexuality is deeply insecure and unhappy with themselves. After all, you can't be confident and happy with your life when you're wasting your time judging other people for what they do with their life.