[ SECRET POST #2044 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2044 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Yamato nadeshiko Shichi Henge/Perfect Girl Evolution]


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[Suits]


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[A Song of Ice and Fire]


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[Yamato nadeshiko Shichi Henge]


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[Sherlock BBC]


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[Homestuck]


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[Sherlock]


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[Stargate Atlantis]


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[Cyborg 009]


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[The Amazing Spiderman]


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[Stargate Universe]


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[Avatar: the Last Airbender]


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[Bunheads/Game of Thrones]


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[thesyndicateproject (youtube)]


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[Codex Alera]


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[Wishbone]


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[The Game OverThinker]


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[K-ON!]


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[Magical Diary]


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Comments

Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

I seriously have no idea what I am doing, going to do, or any dreams about my life.

tl;dr:
I know I am depressed, but I've been depressed for so long(basically since I was 10) that I don't even know if I could get out of it, or fix my life from being such a shitbag for so long. I'm 26 and have only had two jobs. I haven't had a job in over 3 years because I never get anything back from applications and don't have the guts to call about it and talk myself up. I tried college and couldn't get through 2 semesters without dropping out.

I mean, maybe I could get through all this, maybe I could get a job and get through college if I had any idea about what I want my life to be, but I don't. Not a damn clue.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

What interests you?

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Reading, and drawing I guess. I don't draw very often and I'm not good enough to make money on it. And I have only mediocre grammatical skills so being an editor or something is also out.

I used to have interests in my teens, like coding and web design and others but my family shot me down on all of it so I never went anywhere with it.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sort of the same way. I'm twenty four now (Almost twenty five) and lost my job due to not being payed enough money to pay rent (I was living in a motel/homeless at the time, and they cut my paycheck down from 500 to barely 300 every two weeks...) I love art, but I know it's sort of a pointles degree to get. (I'm reminded of Bill Mahr's rant on it-that it won' get me a job anywhere, lol)

Best of luck to you though, Op! Hang in there :)

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

That really fucking sucks. I've done the hotel living thing in my childhood, it is not fun so I completely feel you there. Art is probably the only thing I've ever be interested in getting a degree for, but I'm like you, I need to do something to get me money, not something to throw money and and get a huge debt and a part time job.

And thanks, you too.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

I went to college (because that's what was expected of me) but I feel like all I got for my efforts as a huge debt I'll probably never pay off. The job I have I got so that I could move out of my parents' house to save my sanity...

Beyond that though I really have no clue what I'm doing with my life. I work so that I have money to live and that's about it. I'm an introvert by nature so I don't go out much - other than the occasional outing.

I feel like I want to do something "more" but I have no idea what that should be...

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[demishock]

I feel the same way about my college experience. I majored in a language, and after 4 years of undergrad, I'm not fluent, and I'm tens of thousands of dollars in the hole, and have nothing to show for it. I'm not even interested in pursuing anything in that field as a career, either, as it turns out. As soon as it became work, it stopped being fun. :/

I'm 25 and still living with my parents, because I just about break even between my paycheck and my student loan bills, plus I have to pay my own health insurance because I don't have a proper job yet. I've been temping doing administrative assistant/clerical work for three years now, with no luck so far in landing an actual permanent position. And I have no dreams or goals aside from, "Support myself so I can move out and fund my hobbies (internet, gaming, reading, television/movies)." That's... really it. x . x

Unlike you, though, I don't have a feeling of wanting something "more" - that's something everyone else around me in my life wants for me that I DON'T want. I am content and comfortable in mediocrity; I don't have any grand ambitions. I just want to be left alone to do my little office job in peace. Just as an actual employee, and not as a temp.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Can you volunteer? Shadow someone? Think non-traditional. Maybe you'll find something that calls to you. Good luck!

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

I've thought about volunteering. The only problem is I live in basically the middle of nowhere and haven't got a car, family refuses to drive me anywhere, so I just feel stuck? If I was getting paid they might drive me if I repay gas money but not for a volunteer job.(My father says volunteering is a waste of time. Yeah.)

I did end up looking into it anyway, but all the organizations would send me out me to places like 40+ miles away so it's not really a viable option. :/

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[dethtoll]

i can relate. i'm in a rough situation at home and i have zero motivation for anything, especially job searching. i've been escaping into video games and comics. i've been out of work for getting close to a year and that's going to hurt my job-finding in the future, even in this economy, but i just... don't... care. and it bugs me that i don't care, but i have no idea how to make myself care.

it doesn't help that i live in a fucking podunk town with not a lot of opportunity afforded to my career path.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Yes, exactly. I've been in this situation for so long that I've lost my ability to care about it. I mean, I know it does actually bother me that I don't have a job. But I can't seem to care about it enough to change it.

Most of the time I feel like I am just waiting to die. I don't even have enough in me to be suicidal.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Is there any internet-based work you can do? :(

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

This seems just like my older brother. =( I want to ask him why he can't grow up and take some responsibility and help take care of the family but a big part of me is aware that he doesn't have an answer. It'll just be like, "*shrug*" and honestly, I can totally relate. That's how I feel about my own life except I actually have a job, and all I ever do is complain about it.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Do you think you could take an online course? This was recently in the news, Stanford University (and others) offering free online education in assorted topics: http://www.cs101-class.org/hub.php

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[ooh_mrdarcy]

You need a road-trip.

Or try volunteer work abroad?

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

Me.

I'll finish my Masters in Literature in a month's time and...I just don't care. I've no idea what I'm going to do with my life, it's nigh impossible to get a job, and I should be worried. But I'm not. I'm barely making it through this thesis. Why don't I care? I wish I could just sleep for a really long time.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[cashay]

I can't offer any advice that hasn't already been given so I'll just offer hugs all around! <3

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[thene]

I have some similar problems - I only went to college because everyone else wanted me to, picked a major that was fascinating but useless, and have only had low-end work since then. A combination of the recession and the US immigration system bit several years out of my working life, and I often feel like I'm still plagued by the inertia of that time. I love working, but I've no great thirst to go earn a lot of money or anything; I just get satisfied with being good at what I do, however little it pays. I'm 27 and I've only had four jobs, two of which only lasted a few months. And I'm out of work right now and while I am trying to change that fact, I certainly could be trying harder than I am; my household is solvent and I have things to write, etc.

Can I recommend http://coursera.org ? They offer free online university courses in a huge variety of things. You could study coding or art some more, or try something new that interests you. I'm doing the Intro to Finance course and it's interesting, if kinda on the easy side (as intro courses tend to be), and it makes me feel like I'm not wasting my summer, and I hope it will help me in the future.

online/long distance learning options

[(Anonymous)]

I think Open University is paid only, but they have a youtube channel with lots of fascinating videos. http://www.youtube.com/user/OUlearn/videos

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[kallanda_lee]

Me. Seems I can't hold a decent job. the whole job-hopping thing didn't bug me so much at first, but once you get over 30 it really fucking sucks. Especially if you sort of wanted to have a career.

Now I'm just at the point where even looking for jobs just depresses the shit out of me, and I can't even get enthusiastic when applying for them - because then I get my hopes up, and feel turned down every time.Blergh. I'm even applying for things I don't really want to do now, which is even worse.

It's just, not like how I imagined my life.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[fingalsanteater]

The short answer is yes.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[mudousetsuna]

*raises a hand*

After working a job for 10 years because it was handed to me by family, and having too much trouble with school, when that job went under I had absolutely no clue what to do with myself. It's 2 years later, and I still don't. I tell everyone I want to do this or that, but to be honest... I'm just throwing myself in a direction that I hope will give me some clarity down the line.

Whatever happens, happens.

I hope things work out for you, anon, but you're not alone.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

I'm the same age as you, and have never had a job. For years I was too depressed to consider it, and couldn't leave the house without panicking - and by the time that got better, it felt like I'd missed the part of my life that was meant to be spent on education and qualifications. I'm finally in college now, but that means I won't be able to start job-hunting for another two years at least...and even then, I doubt I'll be able to gain employment. Mainly I'm staying in college because it's fun (and because of my mental health issues, I'm on a disability benefit which waives the course fees). It's a shame I can't make a career out of being a good student. I don't know if I'll ever be able to function like a normal adult.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[khronos_keeper]

The thing about this kind of stuff is that people tend to limit themselves in what they can/will think about trying.

For years, I was convinced that I was going to join the military, and it was the only option for me. When my app fell through for officership, I was at loose ends. My sister was going to Korea to teach English. So I thought-- what the hell, why not. The Korean government paid for my airfare there, paid for my apartment, gave me an awesome salary, and paid my way back home. I didn't even have a passport when I applied, and I live in a village with ~100 people in it, but I still managed to get to an airport and get a plane to Korea and back again.

Since then, I've come up with three other job fields I am leaving myself open to try out, and am going to grad school to study some stuff I never would have considered before.

I just turned 25 in May. I was rejected from Marine officership shortly after I turned 23, and turned 24 in Korea. Who the fuck knows what I will be doing when I'm 26.

The point it? The sky is the limit. Don't get discouraged, and don't give into the media fear mongering. Yes, the job situation is tight, but there are always, always ways.

If college or university isn't right for you, check into apprenticeships. Or even courses from community colleges. Maybe academia isn't your thing.

Re: Does anyone else have no direction for their life?

[(Anonymous)]

...yes.

Teal deer of moping ahead:

I've kinda seesawed on having dreams/goals, but now I'm all done with school (graduated May '11), and all I have to show at this point is the degree and a minimum wage part-time job only tangentially related to my field. Can't muster huge enthusiasm for job applications. Living at home, single (because the guy of my dreams I dated through grad school, it turned out, did not consider me the girl of HIS dreams, apparently) and likely to stay that way.

I have some vague and some specific ideas for my life, but none that are useful in any way (e.g., have a nice garden, someday live in a cute old house in the Craftsman or Victorian style, travel). How to get to the point of doing those things? Meh. Actual career goals like an ambitious, independent adult? Meh. (And, since I'm still hung up on someone who's moved on and doesn't even live within 500 miles of here, it also occurs to me frequently that he would never let himself stall out like this and so maybe he was right to dump me and ugh.) I'm of the age where other friends/acquaintances are married or getting married and moving their careers along and have traveled and had adventures and otherwise actually made the most of their youth to live life and ugh.

I relate very much to pre-curse Sophie from Howl's Moving Castle, I suppose, and I kinda hate that life doesn't promise a movie-esque narrative to each person so that when you get in a slump, rest assured!-- This is just the exposition to your grand adventure in which you discover meaning, success, and confidence, along with someone to spend the rest of your life with.