[ SECRET POST #2938 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #2938 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Constantine]


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[Dragon Age]


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[Merlin]


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[Pokemon]


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[The Americans]


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[Doctor Who]


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[Twisted Toyfare]


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[Black Books]


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[World of Warcraft]













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Comments

Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

vent thread

Re: Fuck everything

[philstar22]

Glad someone posted this. I have three rants.

1. My roommate was not working until noon today, and yet she forgot to turn off her alarm. So it went off at 5 as usual, 2 hours before I have to get up. I can never go back to sleep after. Argh.

2. Supposedly you can return books to one of my school libraries that was checked out from one of the others. Only, there seems to be some disconnect because I returned a book and it somehow got lost and now I'm being charged for it.

3. At the place I'm interning, there is not enough room, so they have me using my own laptop. Only for the past few days my laptop won't connect to their internet. It isn't just my computer because I tried my other laptop and had the same problem. Only none of the office desktops are having that problem. Haven't been able to get work done, and it is frustrating me because I don't know how to fix the problem. Airport tells me I'm connected and yet nothing loads.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

the guy i'm kinda seeing had wanted to talk about dating on new year's day. we hadnt seen each other the two weeks prior because of winter break so i think he missed me a lot. he was really affectionate. new years comes and goes and he didnt say anything about dating, and i dont think he forgot, so i figured he changed his mind. which is fine, but i wish he would have re-set boundaries in our relationship and said it directly. not saying anything at all has been hard on me. i keep thinking he's getting bored or sick of me, which hurts.

i told him when we first started fooling around that i wasnt going to catch feelings that i knew wouldnt be reciprocated. but after he expressed interest i thought that opportunity was available to me. overall it seems like a lot of effort to wedge drama in between us unnecessarily.

anyway, on saturday we were hanging out and he slipped away for an hour to hang out with his other friends, which i was 1000% fine with. i always am. he came back with one of his friends and they hung out the whole time. then we bumped into some more of his friends so i told him i'd let him spend time with them without me, that i was gonna roam around, etc. but that i'd be back at our meeting place to hang later. he said ok, he'd be back too. by the time i got back, one of my other friends told me that my guy had left and told my other friend to tell me goodbye. he didnt even text me himself, he just flaked on me and it really upset me. i feel like he doesnt respect me and that he doesnt like me anymore, and hes doing a bad job at letting me know this with the least amount of pain involved as possible. his new years flake has given me a complex and i feel like that is pushing him further away.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

Sounds like you're developing feelings despite trying not to. It might not be a full blown crush yet, but you're in deep enough where this is no longer a casual thing. Do yourself a favor and put some distance between you and this guy and look for other friends/partners.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

Get distance. Now. It's a classic move guys make to get out of anything serious. Act like a dick until you're the one who cuts the ties. So do it, before you get too attached.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

He's not interested. Move on and forget him.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

Found out because my income changed, I owe $400 for Obamacare (I got a raise). Fucking sucks. So, I tried to change my income on healthcare.gov. Went thru all the crap.

Going to raise my monthly insurance from 80 to 120 (that is going to fucking suck). Clicked on a link to figure out what plan I have now so I could get the same one.

Annndddddd now I can't get back to that plan choosing place. Went to my applications. No option there. It says it is complete. Dont know if I should go thru alllll the information again, or just give up and pay whatever I need to again at the end of the year.

I almost want to ask my boss to pay me less so I get more of a premium.

Vent question

[(Anonymous)]

Is it okay to be happy someone "traded down" if they deserve it? The entire concept of "trading up" or "down" in relationships goes against everything I stand for but it gives me a lot of solace. It feels like karma to see it happening. I'd never say this to them of course.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

I'm getting more and more frustrated with dating sites; how exactly do they match you? Because seriously, if I'm matched to one more guy whose favorite book is "text messages" and likes bear hunting and/or smoking pot, I will cry. Seriously, I've tried everything, and that's still what I end up getting.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

I went to the dentist for the first time in 4 years and I have a tooth that needs a root canal and ten cavities.

Cha ching~~~~

Re: Fuck everything

[caerbannog]

Dude is having hr issues and asks me along as moral support.
Ok then
Dude throws a tantrum in the hr dispute. Personally I'm pretty embarrassed.
Dude gets a warning for it, calls me up at work to demand I be the witness that he wasn't aggressive. Dude u were totes aggressive. Also everyone around me can hear the convo which is embarrassing.
Also u made ur manager cry.

Dude is just...over reacting so bad to everything and needs to calm the fuck down before he gets fired.

I felt bad for him but now I'm woah embarrassed to have been there as support and I hope this doesn't ruin my work place cause his manager works with my team a lot.

Seriously over reacting.

Gonna distance self.

Re: Fuck everything

[kallanda_lee]

Been screwed over b another potential employer again, who let me make several news items for him for free as a "test", but now doesn't even have the decency to reply to my mails or answer my calls. Screw people like that.

Re: Fuck everything

[badass_tiger]

I'm so done with people who, when I go 'Okay, I can be around during [this time to this time]', they say 'Great, I can be around from [nowhere near my time of availability! See you then!!' when they're asking me for a favour. Please learn to use your ears/eyes (if it's an online thing). The least you could do is say 'That won't work for me, I'm only around from whenever-whenever' instead of just assuming I want to help your dumb ass out so much that I'd sneak out of work/sleeping/whatever else to do it.

Re: Fuck everything

[iceyred]

Not really a vent buuuuuut...

I have found a potential boyfriend. He's a little older than myself, has a job that he's held for ten years, doesn't seem like an idiot, and has his head screwed on straight.

He has texted me at least once a day since we met, and showed up twenty minutes early for our second date (dangit, I was still flat ironing my hair! Thank God I was dressed and my teeth were clean). Part of me says that is no big deal and I'm over-reacting and letting memories of past relationships blot this one (I've had some stalkers in the past. People I didn't want to be alone with calling me in the middle of the night, that sort of thing). The other part of me is bristling with worry.

Why do I live in a culture that lets me choose my own mate? I have no talent when it comes to choosing romantic partners. When I do settle down it will probably be with a serial killer or something like that.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

I'm so fucking tired of being in physical pain, goddamnit. One day it's my back, the next day it's my hand, then my legs, and now today it's my fucking elbow. I can't go one fucking day without being in pain somehow.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

Not fuck everything, but...

I feel like the jilted almost lover that neverwas. Mostly because I guess I read this guy's signals wrong? (To be fair, I think his personality is just flirtatious by nature) But, I was brave enough to go say hi (which is a total rarity). Partly because I wasn't going to see him after this..but I guess I just get far too excited at the prospect of a relationship or even a date or anything (I've never had a date/boyfriend/potential romantic interests)so when the possibility arises, particularly with someone I find attractive (and who I assume feels the same).

What I'm trying to say is: DAMMIT I THOUGHT YOU WERE IN TO ME! IS NO ONE WHO I AM IN TO,IN TO ME? WHERE IS HE?!

sigh. I suppose time will time tell. Patience is a virtue, is it not?

Re: Fuck everything

[lunabee34]

The baby has pneumonia.

I probably have pneumonia.

Blergh.

tw: suicide

[(Anonymous)]

today my roommates decided to have a "roommate meeting" which was really just about telling me all the things I'm doing wrong. I leave crumbs apparently, spilled something on the couch once and am still getting lectured about it, and, my favorite, apparently I smell?? (I do my laundry and take a lot of baths and so the only thing I can figure is sometimes I forget deodorant in the morning but they are acting like I roll in garbage every day.)

I am very depressed and suicidal so keeping my own room clean is very difficult but I have been trying my best and especially been trying to keep the living area clean which I think I have (mostly because I almost never leave my room but still)? I've been trying so hard to be okay but apparently not well enough apparently I am just gross and I already don't think they like me much so I feel like this confirms it.

I already don't have friends so my roommates not liking me just makes it worse and I told myself I would hold off killing myself until after I graduate university but its getting harder and harder to convince myself to wait.

so yeah fuck everything I guess

Re: Fuck everything

[ginainthekingsroad]

I wish my friends knew how to reply to things promptly, especially invitations or other things that require their input. If you don't know if you can get out of whatever commitment, please just tell me that you don't know, instead of leaving me hanging.

Or assuming that I KNOW you're coming. Seriously. I have had it happen where Friends A and B will be talking to each other about going to my gathering, and then neglect to RSVP to ME, the host. I hate sending that "So are you available or not?!" text. :|

Re: Fuck everything

[lb_lee]

You have great timing anon. LET ME TELL YOU.

Okay, so I live in Ohio. I am disabled, which involves a LOT of paperwork to keep myself in healthcare, food, and housing. And every time I apply or reapply for something, there's a paperwork error on their end, which I have to solve in two weeks or less or my benefits get axed. It happens EVERY TIME. I've counted. Sometimes they give me less than 24 hours warning before shit happens.

So it's happened AGAIN. I reapplied for my health insurance. Absolutely NOTHING has changed in the past year.

Today, I get two letters. One says my app is reapproved, everything's fine. The other says that I'm getting benefits from another household (????) and so my benefits will be axed in less than two weeks.

Did I mention my birthday is on Sunday? HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Like, it'll get taken care of, I've gotten really good at stomping out these fires because they pop up constantly, but seriously? SERIOUSLY? ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME?

I am so sick of doing this every year, with disability, food stamps, AND health insurance. I'm sick of them insisting I need an interview the very next day, then not calling me, then giving me the WRONG NUMBER to call them about, then giving me a phone tree run around to find the RIGHT number, only to find the person who that belongs to is never actually in and never checks her voice mail.

Like seriously. I thought the whole thing about being disabled is you can't do shit like normal people. So why am I having to become a red tape wizard to keep myself FUCKING ALIVE?

I really hope I can move back to MA soon. The social services was far from perfect, but at least I could count on things working out if I DID WHAT THEY TOLD ME. Not like this shit, where I have to fix their errors, always in short time, or lose fucking EVERYTHING.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

Everyone on tumblr is like "ooh, science!" and "science rules!" and "worship Neil DeGrasse Tyson and Bill Nye" and "fuck those evil conservatives who don't acknowledge science!" but the minute that the science disagrees with their ~social agenda~ it's all "fuck science" and "science is wrong/evil" and it's like, just stop, please!

For the fucking record tumblr people, biological sex is not a ~ social construct~, it's based on what gametes something produces: The organism that produces large, immobile gametes is the "female", the one that produces small, mobile gametes is the "male". This is why male seahorses can get "pregnant" and still be male; because they're the ones with small mobile gametes. The female seahorse deposits the eggs (large, immobile gametes) in the male seahorse's pouch, even though he's the one that carries them, he's still male.

Apparently people on tumblr are only pro-science when it fits their agenda, just like everyone else, which wouldn't bother me, except for the part where they act like their ~so much better~

/rant

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

I got my period at bedtime yesterday.
so, I am feverish and my pelvic floor is inflamed.
such a nice day.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

There isn't really a way to tell somebody their divorce is more their fault than they think without being a dick, is there?

I'm living with my older sister and her daughter rn so I can't get away, and oh, boy, she really loves to play the victim in this divorce, like she left him for being horrible, when really, I was there the whole time (literally, I lived with them), and yes, divorce was right for them because they were making each other unhappy, and that's just it. They didn't divorce because he was a monster, they divorced because they weren't right for each other, and she's driving me insane.

I probably sound really shitty right now, don't I? Thank god for anon ranting I guess...

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

A friend of a friend is an addict who's making all the wrong choices. Friend isn't doing anything stupid like giving her money but she's suffering and she will not stop checking in and getting upset at what she finds. There is no good solution here and I wish I could do more.

Re: Fuck everything

[(Anonymous)]

I got laid off from my last job, extra money I'd saved up had to go to a dental thing, my school application was rejected last summer, my casual boyfriend broke up, most likely to be with another girl, and my best friend is getting married next month and moving to another city that's not close by. I'm so happy for her, but my life's going to be so much less amazing without her there. I'm also turning 27 in a few months here, and I hate how my life is still shit even though I'm almost thirty.