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⌈ Secret Post #4483 ⌋

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General comments:

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News

[(Anonymous)]

Link and talk about things that are happening

Re: News

[(Anonymous)]

Notre Dame's on fire, yo.

Notre Dame is burning

[(Anonymous)]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjQz8bBu96g

Paris' burning, what the hell

[(Anonymous)]

more specifically, the Notre-Dame cathedral
(I feel a bit numb over it TBH, my mind is stuck on "ah shit I'll have to wait at least another year before writing that epic Gringoire/Djali lovestory fic I was planning, now would seem a tad disrespectful")

Re: News

[(Anonymous)]

Just FYI, the Notre Dame fire is mostly out. All the art and relics were successfully evacuated. The main part of the church is okay.

Re: News

[(Anonymous)]

Also, Gene Wolfe died. One of the best science fiction and fantasy writers ever, one of my personal favorite writers ever. RIP

Re: News

[(Anonymous)]

measles cases are up 300% this year. :/

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2019/apr/15/measles-cases-up-300-worldwide-2019-says-who-vaccination

Re: News

[chamonix]

Watching Notre-Dame spire collapse made me feel ill. That place made such an impression on me. Tonight is a surreal night of grief. But of course, humans rebuild. That is what we are best at.

Vent thread?

[(Anonymous)]

I don't even know, I just want to complain about my own mental issues lol. See, I've been losing weight for the last year and four months (and fifteen days) and it's great, I'm down about 75 pounds.

What's less great is that I'm five pounds away from the lowest point I've been in more than a decade and I'm fucking terrified of getting below that number. I've been wavering between 65-75 pounds lost for the last six months because every time I start to dip down further I wind up having panic and axiety attacks over not knowing my own body if I go past that point.

I've brought it up with a therapist, I've tried doing the healthy thing without the scale to see if I can lose past that point without 'seeing' the number and I'm just so bloody stuck it's frustrating. I want so badly to get past this number (I still have a shitton to lose) but I keep self-sabotaging and I don't know how to break the cycle of bouncing around these same ten pounds because I can't get past myself mentally to keep losing. :/

Re: Vent thread?

[(Anonymous)]

I’m sorry. You’re really strong to get this far.

Re: Vent thread?

[(Anonymous)]

I don't have any advice for you, but I would like to give you mad respect and props for how much you've accomplished already.

I'm naturally skinny, so I can't directly relate. However, I do struggle with something that a lot of other people find normal and easy, and that's getting up before noon. I try not to think about the fact that I've spent a decade of my life sleeping in until anywhere from 10AM to 4PM most days (I'm on partial disability, but I have a part time job, so there are a couple of days a week where I do have to get up early). It gets in the way of so much living, plus I end up going to work on like 3 hours of sleep which is hell, and it's not even like I'm getting as much rest as I want; I still have to set an alarm every day or I'll sleep until, like, night.

Whenever I see people talking about their weight loss, I think about my own battle with my circadian rhythm. Because it's so hard for me, even though for other people it's not hard at all. And I have mad respect for people who manage to lose a bunch of weight with lifestyle changes, because they've done something I haven't been able to do.

Re: Vent thread?

[11thmirror]

I got nothing - I've been gaining weight pretty steadily for years and can't seem to focus long enough to do anything about it but be sad, so I have zero mental framework for your issue. Good luck though! I'm glad you're making progress towards your goals, even if that progress - and those goals - are also causing you distress because Brains Amirite.

Now *my* vent:
I hate my D&D group and I'm going to quit as soon as this side quest is over. Fuck all these fuckers - I took a couple of sessions to just go "You're on the road, have a random encounter" so I could learn how to DM, and they whined that they weren't getting to do any roleplaying (even though I specifically invited them to roleplay with one another - like, their characters can just, like, talk to each other? It's allowed?). So I cut the travel short and moved them onto the sidequest I wrote, laid out my lovingly handdrawn map, and said, "Come in, it's a few hours until dinner, feel free to have a look around just don't get in the way of the staff!"
And They Did Nothing.
They literally just had their characters sit in one room! For like an hour in-game! And then they got shown their rooms for the night and they sat there! And did nothing! For another hour! And then dinner came and I started describing the courses which I spent maybe a little too much time researching, and I got "Is This Relevant?"
MOTHERFUCKER SHUT YOUR FACE
And they barely spoke to anyone over dinner, and then the character whose entire role was to die died and my players FUCKED SHIT UP AGAIN! They were arseholes to everyone! They didn't keep track of the NPCs, and when I suggested people take notes I got a *very* huffy response about how [player] takes minutes at meetings and her memory is fine and she's taking notes in her head, THANKS (which is honestly going to be hilarious when I point out they missed there was an extra servant who they never got introduced to, and none of them noticed me explicitly pointing her out). They fucking THREATENED the newly widowed lady of the house! In her own house! Surrounded by her friends and family and staff!
They wasted heaps of time trying to get into a room with Zero Secret Tunnels Guys What Are You Doing, and only found the actual entrance to the secret tunnel in the last five minutes of the session.
Next session, they're either gonna go down that tunnel and meet a Succubus and find they're being followed by a Yochlol, or they're NOT gonna go down the tunnel and the butler of the house (who they've been quite rude to) is gonna get tired of their shit and rip them several new orifices because he's a Githzerai.

*deep breath*

So yeah, not having as much fun with D&D as I hoped.

Re: Vent thread?

[dahli]

I've heard the phrase 'The more I learn about people, the more I like my dog.' and thought it was a bit extreme... until I actually started dealing with people at my job and I honestly love my dog more. People are horrible and if there ever comes a super villain to offer me a job to destroy the world my reply would end up being "sure, where do I sign in?"

tl;dr I hate people.

Re: Vent thread?

[(Anonymous)]

I know exactly how you feel. For me I think it's because i'm afraid of losing my main emotional crutch - food. If i'm having a down day then food. If i'm tired then food. Usually chocolate.

The normal ways in which I lose weight are to try really hard but in the back of my mind I know it's not forever. Eventually i'll be able to emotionally eat again. But for some reason losing lots of weight feels like i'm going to have to survive without that crutch forever and it terrifies me.

Breaking that crutch - no idea how at tge moment. But knowing your enemy I guess is the first step.

You're doing incredibly well nonny. Good luck, I hope you figure out your block and break it.

Re: Vent thread?

[(Anonymous)]

I know exactly how you feel. For me I think it's because i'm afraid of losing my main emotional crutch - food. If i'm having a down day then food. If i'm tired then food. Usually chocolate. 

The normal ways in which I lose weight are to try really hard but in the back of my mind I know it's not forever. Eventually i'll be able to emotionally eat again. But for some reason losing lots of weight feels like i'm going to have to survive without that crutch forever and it terrifies me. 

Breaking that crutch - no idea how at tge moment. But knowing your enemy I guess is the first step. 

You're doing incredibly well nonny. Good luck, I hope you figure out your block and break it.

If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

but are interested otherwise, do you boycott it, pirate it, or buy it?

Mostly thinking about game industry abuse, but finding out the creator's a dick also applies here.

Re: If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

It depends so much on the context that it's really impossible to give a general answer. I definitely take it into account, though.

Re: If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

I think it would depend on the circumstances, since to me there's a huge difference between, "The person who designed this is a dick." and "This item was created using the blood of homeless children."

Re: If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

It depends. I’d never buy anything Roman Polanski made, for example, but I don’t even know who all signed various things in support of him. I think Disney’s actions re: copyright suck diseased donkey balls, but I still watch Disney (and Marvel, and Fox, etc) movies.

If Johnny Depp had a bit part in, say, a Guillermo del Toro Frankenstein film (please no) I would still watch it. If I was curious about something with a bunch of douchebags involved, I’d probably wait until my local library got copies in. I save pirating for out of print or otherwise unavailable in the US stuff.

Re: If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

If it's some piece of media I can probably get from the library eventually, or watch on broadcast television if it's a show or movie, I'll go that route since I'm not paying for it directly that way.

For everything else, it depends on what those circumstances were, whether it was something I actually needed vs. merely wanted, and whether there were alternatives available. It can be difficult to completely boycott large food/drug businesses, for example, because their reach is so broad.

Re: If you disapprove of the circumstances something was made under

[(Anonymous)]

Pirate. I mean, just because Polanski's a filthy child rapist doesn't mean his movies aren't fantastic. I'm gonna watch them.

Unpopular opinions

[(Anonymous)]

Game of Thrones!

[(Anonymous)]

Who watched it? What did you think?

Random question

[(Anonymous)]

If I’m aro/ace, can I still have a #mcm? Asking for a friend. The friend is me.