[ SECRET POST #3510 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3510 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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02.
[Stephen King]


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03.
[John Green]


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04.
[American Gods]


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05.
[Charlie Hunnam in King Arthur: Legend of the Sword]


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06.
[Penn & Teller: Fool Us]


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07.
[Steven Universe]


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08.
[Questionable Content]


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09.
[Ghostbusters 2016]











Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 03 pages, 53 secrets from Secret Submission Post #502.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 1 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

Non-fandom secrets

[kallanda_lee]

'Cause I don't have much to say about today's batch!

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I have intrusive thoughts about violence more than I'd like. I don't act on them, obviously, but they're fuckin' annoying. And given how easy it is for me to hurt people, occasionally worrisome.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

Me too, boo.

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[sarillia]

The muffins I made to bring to game night tonight are sub-par but still edible. I feel greedy keeping them for myself when they're just fine but I also feel awkward bringing them when the usual reaction to my baking is for someone to take a bite and go "holy crap!". These are not holy-crap-worthy and it bugs me.

When did I become so vain about my baking, of all things?

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

It's weird, because my one coworker at work is really annoying personally, but I also find myself in a dynamic where I'm, like, representing him and advocating for him and communicating for him with our boss because he's not as good at communicating w our boss. So on the one hand he annoys the piss out of me but on the other hand I'm constantly finding myself having to stick up for him.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[herpymcderp]

It's very weird to be in a new environment. Everyone assumes off the bat that I'm straight and heteronormative, when that couldn't be further from the truth.

Secret: I guess it's also flattering in a way that people don't associate the negative connotations of "queers" with me. Not sure I'd admit this in a public space. Because ~le problematique~.

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[(Anonymous)]

I've spent two weeks trying to think of a way to get out of my cousin's birthday party. A 31 year old should not still be having such elaborate birthday parties.

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[iceyred]

I hate bacon.

Not trolling. I honestly hate it. It's greasy and nasty and artery clogging. I would be fine if it disappeared from the Earth.

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[(Anonymous)]

I wish I lived in a cabin or static caravan in the middle of nowhere, I'm increasingly finding it difficult to interact with people face to face. I want to just fade into the woods.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I hate Simon R Green because one of his novels provided the key to my depression. I'm not a furry, but in one of his books he wrote about a commune of hippies that go so sick of modern life that they turned themselves into mostly anthropomorphic mice so they no longer had to care about the world and moved into an old abandoned house in the countryside.

Those fucking mice, I really envy them.

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[feotakahari]

I always thought I would never be able to get along with racists. Turns out I can work with them as long as they're not being racist against me personally. I am conflicted.

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[morieris]

I think I'm becoming one of those constantly angry SJ people on tumblr :/

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[(Anonymous)]

I think that, at the end of the day, I don't really want to be a functional adult.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

Sort of fandom related. I think I have an addiction to fic and escapism in general. I've just got into a new fandom. I had to force myself not to call in sick to work just to stay home to read more fic. It's so sweet, the rush of new fic in a new fandom.

My job is super important and I really want to succeed in it. Other things I will forgo just to read fic are food, water, exercise and sleep.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I'm worried my mental illness might be more than 'just' depression, but I'm also worried that maybe I'm just borrowing trouble and seeing symptoms where there aren't any, much like Web M.D. might convince someone they have cancer.

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[(Anonymous)]

I hate driving. Even when I'm going some place fun, I hate it. I especially hate driving people around and I want to tell them they should either learn how to drive, take the bus, or at least give me gas money, but I feel awful every time I try to tell them.

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[(Anonymous)]

Last night I fell asleep on the couch and didn't want to move. my partner took the blanket off our bed and slept on the floor next to me, without any mattress or anything, all night.
I've been trying to find it romantic all day but I don't know if I can.

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[(Anonymous)]

I wish I'd registered for the Democratic Party (I'm an Independent) and voted for Bernie, despite not really thinking he'd be the best President, and thinking Hilary would stand a better chance against Trump.

I don't think that would've magically made Bernie win instead, but maybe if fewer people had been hesitant like I was, he'd be running. Because now I actually do think he'd stand a better chance against Trump.

Also, while some of his ideas were way too left for me (I'm closer to being a Hilary Clinton liberal), I like him more than I trust Hilary.

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[(Anonymous)]

I'm embarrassed by how much money my parents have.

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[mrs_don_draper]

I'm worried about this party I'm going to today for a family friend because everyone there will either be 50+ or 18 and under, and I'm in that not-so-magical in between age range. :/

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I have gained 50 pounds in the past 2 years, and I tell everyone it's due to the medication I'm taking. It's true that the meds caused the initial weight gain (around 35 pounds in 6 weeks!), but the rest of it is due to me eating lots of chocolate and literally doing nothing at night but lying on my couch and surfing the net.

For ex: I just ate a king-sized Watchamacalit bar (370 calories).

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I bought a new vibrator last week and it came in the mail box this tuesday! I had no time at all to relax and use it these days, but tomorrow I got all the time I want! I've thought of nothing else all week tbh, even when talking to rude costumers or having shitty moments working, all I could think was "at least sunday I'll finally try my new rabbit vibrator fuck you all". I hope it'll feel amazing.

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[(Anonymous)]

I really hate worrying so much. I feel like it makes me so bad at socializing.

Like, I can go to a social event, sure but - especially if it's public or crowded or includes a lot of people I don't know, which is going to be most public events - I'm not going to be able to relax the entire time. I might enjoy myself but I also know that I'm going to be on edge. Even if it's something where there's people that I know decently well, I'm still going to be worrying about things the entire time, and paying too much attention to how conversation groups are forming, and over-analyzing it all. If it's something with strangers, I'll often be tense and jumpy the entire time. If I talk to people, I know I'm going to be weird and tight and only be devoting half my head to the actual conversation because I'm worrying so much. And, like, I've forced myself to do it - a lot - and no matter how much I do it, it has never really gotten any easier.

The only times I actually feel remotely comfortable and normal is if I'm with people that I know really, really, really well. And that's rare. And it's just so hard to make it out to something and then even if I do force myself out, which I do, I feel so fucking intense the entire time that I can hardly be happy about it. Like, I've had anxiety attacks going to a different neighborhood to go to a book store. And so it's so much easier to just, like, not do things when I know I'm going to be miserable all through things. But, you know, it makes it a lot harder to meet new people - if you're not doing anything, or even if you are going out but are seized with terror when you're talking to them. And it's also a way of being that not a lot of people are actually OK with, and I feel like as a result everyone I know is starting to view me as some weird-ass loner. And how the hell am I supposed to change that, when I feel like the weirdest person in the world at every social function that I go to.

Also, it means that I drink too much, because the only consistent way I can be around people I don't know well & not worry is if I'm drunk.

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[belladonna_took]

I was finally accepted to a community assistance program which is a good thing, but they want me to come in to the facility and attend support groups and organised activities.

I loathed my grief support group in high school, and I don't want to do craft or music or learn how to bake cookies because I'm not 5 years old or mentally handicapped and I can't fucking eat cookies. The only thing on the program that looks remotely interesting is auslan (australian sign language) lessons, and I don't know if I'd be intruding.

I feel like a terrible person for just wanting to avoid the place entirely. It's not like I don't have something really obvious in common with everyone else there. I think spending the last year and a half in almost complete isolation has really diminished my already poor ability to pretend that I enjoy spending time with large groups of strange people.

My reluctance to socialise is "concerning" to my case worker. :/

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[(Anonymous)]

I want to live for a month in a large old boardinghouse by the sea where I wouldn't have to do anything but sleep ten hours a day without shame, take six mile walks without an argument every time I leave the house, eat delicious healthful food prepared by someone else, and read without interruption.