[ SECRET POST #3518 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #3518 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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[Star Trek: Voyager]


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[Voltron]


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[Up the Women]


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[Digimon Adventure 02]


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[Assassin's Creed: Syndicate]


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[The Sims]


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[The X-Files]


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[Letterkenny, Stewart/Katy]












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Comments

Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

C'mon.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

My new fandom has no slash. I am unreasonably upset by this but can't tell anyone because none of my friends know I still read fanfic.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Friends with kids,

Your kids are adorable. I like when you tell funny stories about them. Or how they're doing in school.

But I don't need to know every mundane detail about their lives. I want to hear about *you* for a change.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

To my parents: "You blew your chance for me to forgive you."

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

My friends and family have been very supportive about the damage done to the skin on my face and I know it shouldn't matter but... I'm really upset.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[herpymcderp]

Your "jokes" about gender are reductionist, insulting, and not funny, even if you aren't being malicious about it. If you were employed at a more prestigious institution you would have been dressed down for this long ago, but you're not so everyone lets it slide.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

I don't really talk about it, but I envy non-asexual people sometimes. The feeling of having sex with someone who is attractive to you sounds like an incredible feeling I'll never get to experience. Been there, tried it, in a romantic relationship at everything, it doesn't work. I'm just not turned on by anyone.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Dear co-worker/friend:

I hesitate to use this exact term, but I think you're being a bad parent.

Your child is afraid of everything, thinks everything is going to lead to death (with extenuating reasons, his father is missing, presumed shot himself for just over a year now) and yet you won't insist he talks to his therapist. You take him once a month and let him sit there in silence.

Our other co-worker who had to take her child to a therapist (a neighbourhood child/friend of his drowned in their pool in the middle of the night) offered you the name of her therapist because her child has made extreme progress with this woman and you keep brushing it off saying it's fine.

It's not fine. He's scared of going to the movies because of shootings, he's scared of you being at work because you're out of his sight, he's scared when he hears wind at home because he thinks it's someone breaking in.

YOU ARE DOING YOUR CHILD A DISSERVICE. He has been like this for a YEAR NOW and he's not getting better. He cannot live in a constant state of fear and it's not okay. Please, help your child.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

No-one will care if you use less foundation and contouring. You're barely 20. Let your skin breathe. Everyone has pores.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

You are immature. You are a hyporcrite. You have terrible taste. You are a dick.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[feotakahari]

When I was a kid, I didn't know greasy hair was supposed to be a bad thing. I was proud of how shiny my hair was, until my mother made a bigger and bigger deal over me "looking like a wop." It re-greases very quickly after I wash it, and part of me feels like I should ignore my mother and just let it shine.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

People talk and talk and talk, and I listen and listen and only listen because I know they won't listen to me with nearly as much interest to me as I do to them. So many people in my life can't let me get more than two sentences out of my mouth in a row without interrupting me to talk about themselves. Even my therapist does this.

I wish someone would say to me, with real genuine intent, "What do you think about? What wonderful or terrible thing has happened to you lately? What is your passion right now?" And then listen to me with their full attention, calmly and patiently, so that I could take enough time to think, to formulate my words, to speak them without feeling rushed or pressured to edit my response down to what I can say as quickly as possible before they cut me off.

Many years ago, I had a dream about a man who listened to me like this. In the dream, I took a lunch break from work and drove to a cabin far out in the countryside along a gravel road. When I got out of my car, I saw a man sitting in a chair in the grass by the road, and I recognized him as a distant acquaintance but felt shy as I approached him to say hello. He asked me how I was doing, and I registered that he radiated an aura or energy of such profound interior stillness that I felt I could tell him anything, anything, and he would listen to me. I told him about my job and my life, and we talked for a good while as we walked around his property (about things that now don't make sense in real life), until I realized that I was late in returning to work. I had enjoyed his company immensely, and I felt so deflated and sad as we walked back to my car, until he told me to wait there and then went back into his house. Somehow I knew, I just knew, that he was getting the keys to his truck and he was going to ask me to go with him, and we wouldn't be returning to our lives here but would just keep driving.

I can't tell you how disappointed I was to wake up.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

When we were teenagers, you were a horrible friend. You ditched me at the drop of a hat. You made bad choices. You prank called a girl from my house and told her she was ugly. Probably because it was from my house. Convenient in case the "number that hides numbers" didn't work, I guess.

And yet from the time I met you 'til now, you were the one friend I felt closest to. So while I don't miss you as a person, I miss you as a friend.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Please stop trying to guilt trip your friends into commenting on your posts. It makes you look really pathetic.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

(tw for emotional abuse mention)

Mom, I don't want dad at my wedding. I know, you're still totally in love and it will put you in a really hard place even though I have insisted that I won't be upset if you don't come either.

But dad is homophobic as hell and has never attempted to get to know my partner. In addition, he's emotionally abusive to me, which I think you would know if you opened your eyes and really thought about how he treats me.

I don't want him at the wedding. I don't want him in my life. I don't want to deal with him ever again. I will for you, mom, but you need to stop guilt-tripping me about how much he's done for me, and let me make my own damn decision about who is coming to my wedding.

(That felt good. And in case anyone's wondering, no, my parents aren't contributing to the cost of my wedding, so it's not like I'm taking his money and then saying "btw ur not invited lol")

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

To this girl I've been writing loooong mail since... this tuesday: I hope to meet you in a few months and that we'll like each other and maybe date and marry idek because I LOVE YOUR MIND. She's the most liberal person I've ever spoken to and I'm so amazed and confused because it's almost too good to be real (and she's lesbian!!! FINALLY).
I have the hugest crush after less than a week, a new record.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Brush your teeth. Brush your stinking green-ass teeth, scrape the gunk off your tongue, and rinse your mouth with mouthwash! And maybe see a dentist, because holy living fuck your breath smells like you've been dead for a week!

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

To my best friend: I love you, but I am so exhausted at hearing about all your constant drama every time we talk on the phone or meet up.

Also, a lot of the people you hang out with are obnoxious or troublemakers, and that's one of the big reasons I haven't hung out with you as much lately. That and the fact that it seems like we do pretty much the exact same things every time we do hang out, but that's more to do with the fact that there's very little else to do here in town, so...

I'm not going to end our friendship, no, but I just...feel like it needs a change somehow.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[belladonna_took]

My friend bought into one of those "become a salesperson for X makeup brand and earn money from home" things and now it's the only thing she talks about.

Now she'll only talk to one of us if we want to purchase makeup from her.
I guess that means we're not friends anymore. It's a stupid way to lose a friend.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Dear family:
Go. Fuck. Yourselves.
We all know you'll always treat him like a saint even though he's a drug-head who sells everything you guys give him for his precious drugs. And you'll always give him better shit than you give me.

And then you wonder why I harbor so much resentment. Can't be that my brother can ask for things and gets them at the drop of a hat, but I can work my ass off around this shithole and ask for something and I'm given the cold shoulder.

And I don't even want fancy shit. You all don't even care enough to get bagel bites when I ask for them.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

JUST FUCKING TALK TO ME, YOU COWARD. You can't break MY heart and then say youuuu need space because it hurts too much to talk to ME. Like, I even gave you the space you needed and it's been fucking complete silence for over a week. I need some fucking closure but I don't want to chase after you, can you just be a grown-up and talk to me, please? You completely agreed we needed to talk soon. Just fucking pick a time.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

I'm tired of feeling like a servant and not getting to be on my own.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

You know you're lying about me abusing you. It's a convenient cover for your own abusive behavior, and ensures everyone will just automatically trust you when you lie to them and steal from them like you lied to and stole from me.

I should just put you in my rearview mirror, I know, but it's been almost three years and I'm still scared that your self-serving lies will turn into widespread gossip, and you'll fuck up my life one more damn time.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

I still feel incredibly paranoid because of something that happened to me in my life. But I still keep my guard off and play it off like it's nothing and I'm just fine. Because I know showing weakness will make me a target again. I wish I could confess how scared I get sometimes and how incredibly paranoid I am that it will happen again once the culprit gets wind that I'm even a little bit afraid. They made me feel unsafe, and on guard about everything. I changed a lot of my behavior to avoid it and avoid conflicts with people. This shouldn't bother me as much as it does. Yet it sometimes does.

I can't let them win.

Re: Things you want to tell people but can't

[(Anonymous)]

Either go see a therapist or a psychiatrist or stop whining all the time. Look, I don't even mind the whining but you keep snapping at everyone who tries to offer help, then promptly continue complaining that nobody reacts to your whines. I'm also glad I don't count myself as one of your friends, only as one of your acquaintances because damn, you keep telling the world that all your friends have deserted you and nobody cares about you anymore the day after getting several friends to visit you for the weekend. I'd feel pretty insulted by that if I were your friend.
Also: STFU about people stopping to communicate with you if you are the one who keeps dropping the conversation all the time.

You know, the worst thing is that you are partially aware what about the things you do drives people away yet you absolutely refuse to change anything about that behaviour.
You obviously have problems yet you won't even try seeking professional help because "wah, it will only do more bad than good". I'm not a fan of therapists myself but I'm also not bombarding my friends with a constant stream of whining and self-pity.

Quite frankly: The way you behave, it seems like you either are afraid to get called out on your shit by a professional and be expected to change things about yourself or you're just doing it for attention and don't actually have any problems (which in itself would be another mental problem entirely).


(Additionally: I am sick and tired of your constant delusion of being such an open-minded, tolerant individual yet won't stop complaining about people doing fandom wrong. And for all the hate you spewed about shippers- including the bullshit about you being somehow morally superior because you don't ship anything- drowning your timeline in shipping posts seems pretty damn hypocritical. But nooo, it's different when you do it! It's totally not shipping! Except that it is. Also: Vagueblogging is only okay when you do it, gotcha.)