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Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

My dad has this friend that I've known all my life. Every single time he saw me throughout my childhood, he would tease me. Now I'm in my mid-twenties and he doesn't understand why I'm so cold to him. I guess it's a good example of why you shouldn't assume a child won't remember what you do or say to them.

Another one is that when I was younger I had this makeshift dollhouse that I meticulously set up and cared for inside of a cabinet. One day when I went out with my friend, my Mom had her friend over with the friend's toddler. I explicitly asked my Mom not to let the toddler touch my dollhouse. Guess what happened? A day or two later I opened the cabinet doors and found a complete ruin. All my hard work was a pile of junk. When I asked my Mom what happened, she said, "oh well, she looked like she was being really careful". Which is why I have resolved to never act like my children's possessions don't matter or don't belong to them. (And I will never ever force a child to share if they don't want to. Screw Barney, that was a stupid lesson.)

(And as a side note, a few years later said toddler -- about age 6 -- was in my house and stole the shoes off every Barbie I had in that cabinet. I found them at her house on her dolls several weeks later when we were visiting.)

Anything you're still mad (not that I mean you're still actively dwelling on them, but if you still recall them) about from your childhood years that you'd like to get off your chest?

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

In 2nd grade some girl pushed me up against the wall in the bathroom and I got in trouble for horseplay even though I was just standing there in passive shock.

In 5th grade some girl pretended to be my friend because I was good at science. She was the most popular girl in school and suddenly I was super popular and crap. When she found out my mom wasn't religious (we didn't go to church on Easter and she wondered why) she made up a bunch of crap about me and everyone ignored me for like a year.

Fuck those girls.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[unicornherds]

I have a lot of anger from childhood. I try to let it go but it's still there. Mostly for the people who bullied me or were jerks.

A lot of people I've sort of forgiven and moved on, but this one teacher I will probably hate for the rest of my life. He was my 4th grade teacher and he made that year pretty miserable. 4th grade was the grade that I was still trying out different meds to deal with my seizures, so I still had sort of frequent seizures and varying side effects. It was also the year my parents were trying to impress upon me that if I had a question I should raise my hand and ask, and that it's always okay to ask for clarification.

It was this guys first year as a teacher and for some stupid reason someone along the line had told him that little girls often get crushes on their male teachers and will act out for their attention. This meant that all the time I was raising my hand and walking up to his desk and generally asking a lot of questions he thought I was just looking for attention, so he would kind of shut me down and be rude about. There were also times where I'd have a seizure (petite mal*, not the grand mal type people assume) where the side effect would be me not knowing what was going on, being confused, and one time drooling on my assignment.

Now, every single fucking year my mom had to go in and have a meeting with all of my teachers explaining about the seizures and what to expect. So he was fully informed. Yet every time I had a seizure in his class he was a total asshole. I was super shy and really embarrassed about the seizures, and every time he'd make a public spectacle about it. The one time I drooled on the paper I quietly walked up to his desk to ask for a new one and he very loudly grilled me on why I needed a new assignment in front of the entire class.

Uh...sorry, this got kind of long. But yeah, I still hold a grudge. He was a fucking asshole.

*names of seizures have changed since I had them, so they're not called that anymore but I don't feel like looking up the new terms.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

Oh my yes.

So I've been writing and making up stories since an early age, and I used to share them with my friends and tbh probably be a bit conceited about it (my mum convinced me I was the most imaginative child IN THE WORLD) but I don't think that justifies this particularly response: one girl decided that I had plagiarised all my stories. Like, all of them. This was based on the fact that two of them had titles that were either the same as or similar to other works. Other works that I had never heard of. I asked how the hell I could have copied a book I'd never read and she was a honestly stumped.

Oh and my fantasy story was copied from Dances with Wolves because... they both had 'Wolves' in the title. What.

Here's a less petty one: one time I had a sleepover with a friend. We were in early puberty at this point and she was a bit more developed than me, so I was still kind of childish while she was starting to explore her sexuality. She brought up the topic of sex and of lesbianism and the subject of whether or not we could have sex with each other was discussed. It was a little weird but ultimately harmless and private.

I found out a few days later that she'd told everyone in her class at school that I had come on to her and tried to have sex with her. And then to this end I had taken off all my clothes and run around the room naked. D< I just. On the plus side that final 'took off all her clothes and ran around shouting "make love to me"!' touch was so far-fetched that no-one believed her. (I mean people still spread rumours that we were in lesbians with each other, but for unrelated reasons!)

Yeah Imma stop or else I'll be here all day.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[demishock]

All my elementary school friends dropped me when we hit middle school (4th-8th grade, for me) because I got glasses.

The popular girls in middle school used to surround me in a circle at recess with their arms locked so I couldn't get out and just call me names until I cried.

A boy in 4th grade used a sharpie to draw a penis on my school desk, which I then got blamed for by the teacher.

Some guys on my bus when I was in 8th grade were talking about me one day (I had my headphones on but the volume turned all the way down, so I heard every word) and were daring each other to ask me to the 8th grade dance and then dump me in front of everyone. One of them finally did ask and I shot him the hell down. They were all shocked I said "no"; they thought I would be desperate to go with any of them. Not so much.

I don't really dwell on any of it, but I can't deny that it's affected how I am/feel about myself as an adult.

wow I didn't realize I had so much stuff

[(Anonymous)]

In elementary school, one of my classmates stole my bff's beloved colored pencils and hid them in my backpack to make my bff think I had done it. She fell for the trick and was angry with me for weeks. Eventually she "forgave me", but I never trusted her again. The friendship didn't last for too long after that. I was a very awkward kid back then, and she was the only person I really hung out with, so this shattered me very bad and I don't think I have quite gotten over the trust issues it gave me. (I have much better friends now, though. c:)

I hate when parents don't teach their children to respect things that don't belong to them. D: My parents drilled that in my head, and while I was clumsy and did damage stuff on accident when I tripped and stuff, I didn't go around touching and grabbing things that weren't mine. That's just disrespectful.

(I was once sweet-talked by a girl that, in retrospect, I totally had a crush on, to steal a bracelet from another girl and I blamed the sort of class bully for it and she got in trouble and I never told anyone and oh shit this shit haunts me okay. It was a very cheap thing that was very easy to replace, like, worth half a buck, which is the only consolation I had.)

I once had the friend of a friend visit me and grab all my things (she didn't steal anything, she just looked at them and put them back where they were), but that bothered me so much and I didn't say anything for fear of offending her.

I used to lend things to my classmates and they thought I was super nice and stuff, but after having one too many markers/colored pencils/erasers etc. not returned (I once caught one of my "friends" with my permanent marker in her stuff and I couldn't call her out on it because it was a common brand and I couldn't prove it was mine), so I stopped lending stuff.

Suddenly I wasn't so beloved and I even had someone write "bitch" with a pen on my pencil case. I erased it very easily, but, damn, what the hell.

I also found out that people gossiped terrible things behind my back, but at least I apparently had people defending me? vOv

I also hated when people didn't respect my personal space, like classmates that were too touch-y feel-y and got angry when I told him to please stop leaning in so close to me. He also one time dug and dug into the small tear of one of my sneakers until it broke completely and I don't have the money to repair them. >:( They're otherwise in an okay condition but now I can't wear them. This classmate also ruined the zipper in the clothes of another friend. HE WAS FUCKING SEVENTEEN NOT A CHILD WTF.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[made_of_tin]

When I was 2nd grade I HATED doing math problems, not because I couldn't, but because it was boring. My mom promised me that for every problem I solved and got correct on the first try, she'd give me a quarter. She didn't pay me, but told me she'd 'do it next time'. She used this excuse every time I did a math sheet, but she never did pay me.

She also CONSTANTLY told my older brother things I had told her that she had promised not to tell. When I was 12 I warned her that this was the last time I would hold her in confidence if she broke her promise again. Not even five minutes later my brother got home from work, and the first thing she did was tell him what she'd promised not to say.

And she wonders why I don't talk to her anymore.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

There was a girl in my classes from the age of 5 to around 18. We have almost identical names, apart from my surname has an extra syllable. She was always so fucking perfect and amazing at everything and everybody loved her and she was spoilt by her parents and had loads of advantages over me (while I was intelligent but poor) and I HATED her because she was the "special" version of '[insert me name here]' and I was like the lame, overlooked version. She has no idea I felt/feel this way AND SHE NEVER WILL.

/still bitter

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[making_excuses]

Burger King gave me food poisoning so I refuse to eat there, also another chain restaurant (Egon)which I also don't eat at... (I also didn't eat chicken for like 5 years because my mom managed to give me food poisoning under cooking one...)

Let's see, I hate Goat babies (whatever you call them), because my dad left me with loads of them when I was a child and they kinda ambushed me. (not hurting me, just scaring the living daylight out of me...)

Lots of other stuff, but most of it is because my parents where young and stupid, and I basically got phobias because of it...

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

Oh yes, lots. LOL.

In middle school I was the odd girl out, so I would sit wherever I could at lunch (Which was this one "popular girl" table. There was space, but they -hated- me sitting there. So one day at reccess they came over and told me not to sit there anymore. Okay, whatever. But then one girl asked "Hehe, do you have a boyfriend?" and one of her friends smacked her arm and laughed, while replying, "HA, of course she doesn't!"

I later saw on the news that one of those girls ran off with some guy she met online, and was missing, assumed dead. I know it's bad, but I really did not care. :/

When I was in seventh grade, there was this sixteen year old guy named 'Georgie' that all the younger girls loved. He came at me one day, while outside, and I flinched/put my hands to my face. So he unbuttoned his coat and punched me in the eye. I was thirteen years old. The next day I saw his fangirls gushing about how 'Bad ass he was, but how he'd ~never~ hit a girl'. Still pisses me off thinking about it, LOL.

While in fifth grade, some girls in my class hid one of their Nsync or BSB tapes in my desk, and tried to get me in trouble with the teacher. Luckily she didn't believe it.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

My aunt (mom's sister) once sat on me as a small child. She was a large lady and I was like 5. It didn't actually injure me but it wasn't fun being squished by some mean lady I didn't like anyway (she was just a bitch in general and still is, I don't talk to her and my mom barely does).

The only other thing I can still remember is I had just gotten a new doll, and my mom was babysitting my little cousin (the daughter of the aunt above) one day. She was a toddler and ruined everything. I begged my mom and made her swear to me she wouldn't let my cousin play with the doll while I was at school. What happened? My mom came to pick me up at school that afternoon, and there was my little cousin in the back seat, my brand new doll in her arms, with her (the doll's) hair all fucked up and food all over her outfit. I was SO pissed at my mom.

Can I Just Say That A Lot of This Thread...

[(Anonymous)]

...makes a really sound argument for homeschooling? I avoided a lot of this stuff by simply not being in school. (Although I didn't leave school early enough to miss a lot of this relentless assholeness that you meet as a child in school.)

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[(Anonymous)]

I'm Asian and as a child I grew up in a mostly white community, like I was the only Asian girl in my class and the only other Asian kids at the school were my siblings. I hated a lot of the really ignorant shit people would ask me ("Do you eat dogs?" "Is it true Chinese people name their kids by banging pots and pans together?" etc.) but something that stuck out in my head was in first grade a girl asked me why my eyes were so small. I didn't know how to reply, and I was also super confused because I didn't think my eyes were that small. I don't have the stereotypical "Asian" eyes, so obviously, that girl asked out of sheer ignorance that Asians have tiny eyes when not all of them do. I KNOW! We were kids, but it still pisses me off when I think about it.

Oh, right, the BOYS in my neighborhood were total assholes to my family. Once, right before we moved away, they took a baseball bat and knocked out our mailbox. Fucking assholes. I'm glad I never saw any of them after I moved away.

In middle school, my family had gone on a camping trip with family friends and family. After a long hike up the mountain we were all getting rides on trucks with a few of the guys who took their trucks up. The first truck had so many people on there that it didn't fit me or my ten year old brother, so we went onto the truck of my best friend's brother, and it was just me and him in the back. As my brother and I drove past the truck full of people, I kind of gloated and said, "Ahh so much space in this truck!" and my mom said, "Look, the truck with the two fat pigs," and everyone laughed. We drove away since my best friend's brother's car was better suited for the uneven dirt road than the other truck. I just remember being really fucking hurt. I mean, nothing new that my mom was calling me a fat pig in front of her friends because I was a size 12 whilst most of their kids were size 2 or smaller (LOL Asians), but it doesn't lessen the embarrassment.

And, not really childhood, but as a teenager, I lived nearby my parents' friends. We all call each other relatives though we're not really related, so yeah...my "aunties" for reasons I still don't know why were hell bent on talking shit about me. They said I was a lesbian because I didn't have a boyfriend (I didn't care, but it sucked that my mom believed them and acted like it would be the most terrible thing if I was one). They made fun of the clothes I wore, and they still held onto the fact that I wasn't stick thin and had big boobs. Yeah, so I still hate those fucking older bitches even though I'm in my twenties now. I think about it...these ladies who were probably twice my age with children of their own around my age, picking on me as if they were in high school with me...geez, man. If I ever have kids, I hope I don't do that.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[thursdaymoose]

I'm sure The Iron Giant is a great movie. I've seen lots of adults mention so.

BUT Cartoon Network used to have these days where they would literally air The Iron Giant for 24 hours. Like show it back to back to back. They would do this like once a year for a few years.

And so I've always resented the movie a little for taking up one of the few channels I was allowed to watch, even if for one day.

Silly, I know.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

When I was roughly 7 or 8, I really, really wanted a hamster.

I did my research. I played with the one in class to prove that I was responsible enough to be handling one. I did everything I could think of to get one but we really didn't have the money for it at the time so the idea was nixed.

Then?

My birthday. We don't really have much in the way of extended family; but, miracle of miracles I somehow managed to receive a big 50 bucks from one of my grandparents. (The first and only time such a thing happened I might add.)

My thoughts? A hamster. My mother's? Add to savings for college.

So, after a long discussion about responsibility the money went into the bank.

Fast forward ten years.

College savings? As it turns out my parents broke into that years ago. Both of them. Which is a fact made all the more ironic as they divorced and split my childhood savings money to each of their separate ways.

...And I've still never fucking gotten my hamster.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

I could go on for pages, but my parents were really inconsistent with their rules and expectations for me, and contradicted themselves all the time if it benefited them in the moment. So I'd do my best to comply with what they'd tell me... only to get punished when they'd change their minds without letting me know.

It gave me a lifelong obsession with logistics. I get really anxious now if I don't know exactly how things are going to go as soon as I find out about them, and change/surprises freak me out.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

In elementary school, this girl in my carpool had a teen mag in the car and was reading some Q&A about sex in it. I was sitting on one side of her and her little brother was on the other side, and I whispered to her asking if she was worried about him seeing the magazine. She said "no it's ok, he can't read yet" and I was shocked because her brother was like 9 and I had known how to read WAY before I was that age. So I blurted out to him, "You can't read?!" Which was rude, I know, I wasn't doing it to be mean, I was honestly just THAT surprised, and it did NOT justify the chewing out that girl gave me for it. She literally started yelling at me there in the car, and my dad was the one driving the carpool that day, so I had to face him afterwards too. The worst part was that I was pretty sure she wasn't doing it because she really cared about her brother's feelings, because she said far meaner things to him on a regular basis. She just didn't like me and wanted an excuse to embarrass me while making herself look like a hero. I still hold a grudge against her, and myself too, because I squeaked out a "sorry" at the end of her rant when I should have told her to shove it.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

This isn't a grudge against any one individual, but as a kid I always hated it when adults would say obviously untrue things like "I need a second helping because I have a hollow leg." I felt they were insulting my intelligence and having a laugh at my expense because I guess it's entertaining to tell little kids stupid lies?

One time I was getting on an amusement park ride that was little cars that go around in a circle and the attendant asked me if I had a driver's license and I got very angry that he would even joke like that. (I got even more angry at the kid who got on next and told the attendant that he totally had a driver's license. Don't feed the trolls,* kid!)

It's possible I had zero sense of humor as a child, but still.

*Not part of the vernacular back then.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[(Anonymous)]

My mother wouldn't let me have the keys to my house until I was like 16. Pretty much everyone I knew had had theirs for a few years already, and every time I brought it up, she'd make some bullshit excuse or straight up tell me it wasn't up for discussion. I know it's stupid but I spent years feeling powerless about it.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[lunabee34]

I had(have) a pretty fraught relationship with my parents because I've pretty much always disagreed with their religious, social and political beliefs since childhood.

As most college kids do, I left a goodly amount of my stuff at home when I moved away. When I moved into my first apartment with my boyfriend (which they hated), went home to get my things. I ended up going through my stuff and getting rid of a lot of it; I loaded it into trash bags and left it at home for the trash.

They went through my trash and took out what they wanted. A lot of what I threw away was old journals and notes and letters and things, and I feel pretty certain they must have read them. I have never felt so violated. It never occurred to me that I would need to take my trash somewhere else to toss. I will never ever invade the privacy of my daughter like that (much like the way you felt after your mom let your cousin destroy your dollhouse).

[(Anonymous)]

I was babysitting my little brother one night during the wintertime. I was... in middle school I think?

Some guy knocked on the door. Wrong house. I closed the door behind him. Then I went to bed.

I woke up to the sound of my parents knocking on the door. Apparently I had locked it. My parents never locked the house, so of course they didn't have keys on them like responsible people.

They grounded me for two weeks for ACCIDENTALLY locking them out in the cold. To add insult to injury, this was during winter break.

I COULD HAVE PLAYED POKEMON STADIUM 2 FOR TWO WEEKS :( Instead I had to watch as my little brother did.

Me, bitter? Naaaaaah.

Re: Petty Grudges You've Held Since Childhood

[maverickz3r0]

I gotta say most of these in this thread don't sound petty, they sound pretty reasonable to me. Amazing the amount of adults who think it's okay to be a shithead to kids. Even ones in charge of looking after them. Depressing.

My parents made me do a lot of things I didn't like when I was younger, including swimming lessons until I was about four or five (to this day I remain pathologically afraid of being in water it's remotely possible to drown in), but probably some of the worst was constantly enrolling me in activities I hated.

I wasn't an antisocial child really, I had karate and guitar lessons and liked those fine. I had to do baseball too though, because I needed a 'team sport' for some reason that actually amounted to my parents just wanting to make sure they had to take care of both me and my sister as little as possible. They always promised they would come to the games and if we won that they'd get me ice cream but of course they never even came. I really started to hate playing baseball.

Of course, that doesn't amount to when we moved cross-country and they enrolled myself and my two siblings in a Christian private school over our vocal protests. (We eventually ended up in public school, but we had to actively skip school for a few days and set it up with the public schools first before they got the message.) I still believe forcing your child to go to church/whatever religious ceremony you go to every week against their will is a great way to make them hate that religion.

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[(Anonymous)]

Urgh, yes.

I was a really shy kid all my life and didn't really have any friends. Also, my parents kept moving me from school to school so I kept having to start over. When I was about ten/eleven I met this girl who also didn't have friends and we started hanging out. I was just so relieved to finally have a friend and I thought she was the best thing thince sliced bread and could do no wrong. Yeah, I was kind of stupid.

It turned out that whilst I didn't have friends because I was shy, she didn't have friends because she was a bitch, a bully, and a compulsive liar. Long story short, she ended up stealing some of my things; punching a third friend and giving her a black eye; and letting everyone in our class know who my crush was. The crush and all his friends then started to bully me because he turned out to be an asshole (yeah, I still have a grudge against him). Then when I tried to tell my 'friend' that she wasn't being very nice she started bullying me and losing any pretence of friendship.

Luckily I moved schools about six months after I started hanging out with her so it didn't last long. Still stings, though.

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[biohazardgirl]

I have. . .quite a bit of pent up anger from my childhood/teen years.

I was bullied pretty relentlessly from the second through the fifth grade. Everyone thought I was weird, and everyone thought I should know about it. One teeny sociopath who I thought was my friend when I was in the fourth grade tried to drown me twice in the pool by latching on to me while I was underwater and not letting me up to breathe. She also once trapped me in a room behind a big barbie doll house and wouldn't let me leave while she called me names. We moved away and I haven't spoken to her in about ten years, but I won't ever forgive her for what she did to me. I forgive most people who have ditched me or bullied me during my life, but I just can't with her.

I also still am angry at my. . .for lack of a better word, 'ex-boyfriend' from my junior year of high school. He was very sexually confused and he got very emotionally close to me and then used me as one of his exploratory people, all while actually telling me that he would never date me and that he didn't actually find me attractive, and also telling me which girls (and boys) he wasn't fooling around with but did like/find attractive. Also, he would emotionally abuse me in other ways (telling me I was awkward, laughing at me when I cried when we were fighting, emotionally withdrawing even though we were usually quite close, lying to me about really important things). This naturally also slotted in nicely with my developing mania, which made everything worse. Our relationship culminated with him breaking up with me and him telling me that we were actually in a relationship the whole time and we haven't spoken since and I am still angry that he fucked with me so bad.

/tl;dr This is basically a sob story and I am so glad that college is much better than my formative school years ever were.

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[anonymouslyyours]

I don't know why it was your subject line that finally made it click but I've suddenly realized that all of the horrible things that my religious leaders did to me "for my own good" they did to a young child and there is no way I could have deserved that and it was absolutely not my fault. I don't think I realized what a big difference between knowing something and feeling something there was. I feel so much lighter and a little shaky.

Not exactly the point of your thread but I want to thank you for that anyway.