[ SECRET POST #4625 ]

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⌈ Secret Post #4625 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

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Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
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Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

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Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I love my dog and he's a very sweet dog but he's young (1 1/2 years) and excitable and has been difficult to train. Before I got him I thought that walks and trips to the park would be... fun? They're not. He gets too excited and I have to fight to keep him from trying to pulling on the leash, growling at strangers or other dogs and a nice day out turns into this exhausting ordeal. He's had some work with a professional trainer and that went well but each session is expensive and I didn't anticipate that level of expense. He's a great dog, if we're at home and never have to go out or see other people. TBH that'd be my preference too, but that's not practical because he needs his exercise and socialization.

But sometimes I think about the life I had before I got him where I could sleep in and stay up late and not be tired all the time and I could go out whenever I wanted or stay in when it was raining and I WISH I'D NEVER GOTTEN A FUCKING DOG.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

On the one hand, I wish I had the money to be as ethically conscious in my purchases as I'd like to be. Having to use companies I don't like because I can't afford something better gets frustrating. On the other hand, when it comes to, say, Amazon, I admit that I like the convenience. I can't say that to my friends who really do try to be ethically conscious in their spending. But I like Amazon. I know they are a terrible company. But I like books. And dvds. And they are the best and easiest way to get them.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I'm a bisexual woman, and probably more attracted to women than men. I'm really tired of all the Tumblr memes mocking straight women for their sexuality. And I'm tired of the way people there seem to expect that I will love doing that and am probably actually straight if I don't.

I KNOW straight people aren't oppressed for being straight, but it just seems like another way to sneer at women/teenage girls for liking literally anything.

And the memes aren't even consistent. They used to assume straight women all like macho jocks (with a nasty MRA-ish undertone implying that straight women who have been abused basically just got what they asked for dating masculine guys). But now the latest thing seems to be patronizing confusion toward straight women who like androgynous/less masculine guys? What's up with that?

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

In some ways I miss my depression not being under control. I miss spending all day online, in fandom, or in fantasy. Real life often sucks. And it hasn't been long enough yet that the withdrawal has gone away. I miss it.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I spend a lot of time on work reading analysis about Brexit.

It's not related to what I do, and I'm not British.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I moved to a new town recently. After several months, I still haven't made a friend. Part of it is because I'm asocial af and am picky about the places I go and the interests I pursue. The other part is me fighting a mystery illness for half a year (one doc said it could be stress, but I think it's something I did to myself... sitting too damn much and not moving around). I've been better at fighting the illness in recent weeks but it's not completely gone and I don't trust it not to strike the moment I'm not on my guard. I just kind of hate how things have been going, plenty of false starts, screw-ups and misunderstandings. I came here hoping it would be a new beginning, but I feel like I can't get anything started. I'm sure this is part growing pains but it still sucks ass.

And now this fucking hurricane, of course...

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

If I got to life my live over again, I wouldn't get married. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband very much. I think divorcing would make me very unhappy, not to mention put us both in a precarious financial situation. But while he's my best friend in the whole world and I feel like I can talk to him about almost anything, he's still plagued by these shitty manchild issues. It's not malicious or spiteful, he's just oblivious to how much work I do around the house and how little work he does in comparison.

It's not just about dividing up chores, it's... really hard to explain. I'm female, I was raised and socialized to be helpful and considerate like it's second nature. I don't make a mess for other people or cause them inconvenience if I can help it, and if I do, I apologize and try to make amends. He doesn't. He's not even aware of the billion little things he does that makes my life just a fraction harder when it doesn't need to be. To him it's just that he forgot to put his dirty plate in the kitchen sink. To me, it's infuriating because *I* do all the cooking and 80% of the dish washing. He'll do it if he's got the day off or if he's not too busy playing computer games. I do it regardless of whether or not I'm tired, feeling sick, or if there's something else I'd rather be doing because that's how adulthood works, right?

He'll literally sit there and watch me work (because I'm so CUTE he HAS to watch me!) and not lift a goddamn finger to help because it doesn't occur to him to pitch in. He'll do it if I ask, but incompetently. Before you ask, no, I don't think it's on purpose. He just literally cannot look at a situation and figure out the most efficient way to do something, so he'll just half-ass it and be okay with that even if it means taking forever to do it or making a bigger mess. He'll make himself toast and leave crumbs all over the counter, even when we have an ant problem. I'll remind him to take a damp sponge and clean up after himself and he's like, "Oh yeah of course" but he'll forget. He always forgets. He's oh so agreeable when I remind him about stuff but it's in one ear and out the other. He loves me, so so much. But often, it feels like he doesn't really see me as a person. He's hurt and flabbergasted when I said I felt like his unpaid housekeeper. He cries. Then he does the dishes conscientiously and is suuuuuuuper considerate for 2-3 days and goes right back to his old ways. Did I mention that it took years to train him to shower regularly and brush his teeth? He always "didn't really need to" (bullshiiiiiiiit he stank) or "was too tired" (but not too tired to game for 2 hours before bedtime) and felt like personal hygiene was optional.

I shouldn't have gotten married right out of college. I should've developed my own career and independence first, THEN decided if I wanted to put up with that shit for the rest of my life. I admit, I'm a little bit of a control freak about some things. If a task is a chore, I want it done quickly and efficiently and I hate it when other people dawdle and make a mess out of things. I should live alone, in a small apartment, with a cat.

And frankly, age and experience and the world we live in has taught me to kinda hate men. Even the best of them are sort of... crappy? Emotionally stunted and raised by shitty mothers who never taught them to pull their own weight around the house, I guess? That's just bullshit. My advice to younger, single women - stay single unless you're really fucking sure. Not just in love, I mean absolutely sure you're marrying a mature adult who can take care of himself and doesn't need Mommy 2.0 to marry. And even then, work so you're financially independent and make yourself an escape plan, just in case.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

My sister lost her kids because she tested positive for pot. She has to take 5 weeks of parenting classes to get them back. At least that is what she said. Through a series of other fucked up, one of my nieces is in a group home and the other (who has some mental disability) is staying at a family friend's.

That niece caseworker wants to send her to be fostered by us. But my sister is across the country so it would be at least a thousand dollars to get her to us. And will it only be for a week? I honestly don't want to deal with that. I feel terrible about that but I don't think I can handle taking care of her. I have no kids of my own and never want any.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I think the heat is driving people crazy. The hotter it is, the ruder people are when they're driving. It should be cooler by now, but it's still super hot and humid.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

Disclaimer: Obviously everyone has the right to identify and express themselves however they want.

However...I don't really "get" the whole non-binary gender thing. I know three people who identify this way. One of them is what I would've considered a butch lesbian (dresses sort of masculine), so I sort of get it in that case, but what's the difference between being non-binary and being butch?

One of the others is a girl who's super feminine, all about fashion/makeup, yet insists on being called "they" and claims to be non-binary, which confuses me. Like...how is being super ultra girly NOT part of the binary?

The other is a guy who wears eyeliner and nail polish, which guys typically don't, obviously. But he's into the whole goth/punk thing, and I feel like that's just part of that culture and not necesssarily "feminine". I grew up with a ton of other guys who have the exact same style but none of them consider themselves anything other than guys who are into the goth/punk scene.

So I'm kind of confused. I thought it was someone who wasn't particularly masculine or feminine, but somewhere in between, but two of the three people i know who identify that way don't really fit that definition.

I feel like I can't say this to anyone without getting yelled at for transphobic, and I'm genuinely not. Like I said, I fully support everyone's right to identify however they want, but...I don't really get it.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I really need to get out and meet people but I always have some excuse why I can't go to various events. Sometimes the excuse is real but often it's just that I'm scared. I can't handle another event where I'm the only person standing there by themselves because they don't know how to join a conversation. I'm afraid to go to queer events because I'm not "queer enough" and I end up feeling uncomfortable. I'm afraid to go just about anywhere because I'm not "normal" enough. I really need to get over this because being alone is also making me miserable but sometimes I feel like there isn't any point in trying.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

I have no interest in dating anyone. I can't even imagine myself in a romantic relationship with someone without feeling strange.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

Anilingus squicks me out hardcore even when dental dams or other barriers are used. I don't have a problem with other forms of buttsex, but I just haven't ever been able to get past my initial "ew why would you put your mouth there" reaction. For me, rimming is right up there with scat and watersports in terms of things that make me nope right the fuck out of a smutfic. A lot of my online friends find ass-eating to be really hot though, and while I fully support their right to do so, I do feel kind of alone in not liking it at all.

Re: Non-fandom secrets

[(Anonymous)]

Pretty sure I'm a lesbian, and I want to move away and travel but I'm super financially dependent on my boyfriend so... here I am, sticking it out until I have enough funds, I guess.

He's a nice guy and I feel like an asshole.

How is everyone's day going?

[philstar22]

What did everyone do today? Having a good day?

I had two court hearings, one at 8:30 and one at 1:30. I also had a list of errands that were supposed to get done, but none of them got done because I woke up this morning with a cold. I'm now in bed with a heating pad on my head, waiting for the mucinex and benadryl to kick in so I can sleep.

Re: How is everyone's day going?

[(Anonymous)]

Man, I wish life would give you a break! Hoping you feel better soon!

But I also SUPER feel you because my day was all I went to work, got bloodwork done, and then halfway through supper my body was like 'lol nope you're going to be sick as hell, bb' and I spent half an hour in the bathroom.

My cat, fiend that she is, decided to hide under the table rather than come see why mommy was making those ghastly noises at the toilet. She's lucky she's cute.

Now I'm moping around the internet, contemplating trying to eat again, since I'm hungry, but my stomach is also feeling like 'don't you fucking dare, babe' at me. Ugh.

Re: How is everyone's day going?

[kaijinscendre]

Meh. Okay. I need to work on my crocheting more but not feeling motivated.

Re: How is everyone's day going?

[(Anonymous)]

It was okay, I guess. I went to work (and had to stay late while my boss finished some stuff up but I didn't have anything left to do so I watched some of Kamala Harris's climate change town hall thing on my phone...wasn't particularly impressed) and then came home and I've just been screwing around online for the past couple hours. I'm in a weird mental space right now (probably because I haven't gotten a decent amount of sleep in several days and being sleep deprived always messes with my head) so I'm trying to distract myself and not think about anything negative. Oddly, I don't really feel like sleeping, but I think I might go lay down in a bit and listen to a podcast.

I'm off tomorrow so I'm really looking forward to sleeping in, and I think I'm going to bake brownies. :D

Re: How is everyone's day going?

[(Anonymous)]

Going stir crazy waiting out this storm. Sheltering in place.

Re: How is everyone's day going?

[(Anonymous)]

I posted the #1 secret and I've spent half the day refreshing the page and reading people's comments and surfing the waves of endorphins that gives me. People talking about something I said! :D Polite disagreement! :D :D People complimenting my secret-design skills! :D :D :D

Help Me Pick!

[(Anonymous)]

People of F!S, if you were a non-gamer and you were going to buy one of these laptops, which would it be?

https://www.bestbuy.ca/en-ca/product/hp-15-6-touchscreen-laptop-silver-amd-ryzen-5-3500u-1tb-hdd-12gb-ram-windows-10/13499523

https://www.bestbuy.ca/en-ca/product/asus-vivobook-15-6-laptop-grey-intel-core-i5-8265u-512gb-ssd-8gb-ram-windows-10/13620847?icmp=Recos_3across_tp_sllng_prdcts&referrer=PLP_Reco

Or, if the answer is neither, then why not?

Re: Help Me Pick!

[philstar22]

First one, mostly because I trust the brand more. But also the bigger storage space because that's important to me personally since I have a lot of digital files.

Re: Help Me Pick!

[(Anonymous)]

The first one. After readings tons of "HPs are crap/totally overrated and ASUS(es?) are totally awesome!" comments online, we got an ASUS at work (after we had a Lenovo turn out to be a piece of crap). It had a bunch of weird issues but my boss didn't feel like doing anything about it until it totally died and by then the warranty had already expired and it was too late. We thought it was just a fluke and bought another one (of a different model) because it was cheaper and everybody seemed to think ASUS was great. That one started having problems, too, but at least my boss decided to do something about it while it was still under warranty. Got it fixed (it needed a new battery), then a couple months later it started having issues again. That time when we dropped it off, three of the four other laptops waiting for repairs were also ASUS which I feel like says a lot. That time it turned out to need a new motherboard. Then a few months after that, when it was out of warranty, it totally died. After that we bought an HP. It's been a little over a year and we've had zero issues with it.

Also, at home I prefer desktops and only ever buy HPs. For whatever reason people seem to bitch about them (at least I seem to see it a lot) but in my experience they're the best.