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⌈ Secret Post #3083 ⌋

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[fscom]

Official advertise your fandom-related event thread.

RULES FOR THIS:
1. NO images bigger than 600x600 in either direction (banners, et cetera).
2. ONE POST PER USER under this thread.
3. What IS allowed: roleplay advertisements, fandom comms, fandom events, things like that.
4. What is NOT allowed: anything for profit, any kind of fic/art commissions, seeking 1-on-1 RP, that kind of thing.

[insanenoodlyguy]

I keep saying I'll play it, maybe it will actually happen this time! NIGHT OF THE DEMONS! High school seniors have a Halloween party in mortuary and hold a seance! ONLY GOOD THINGS CAN HAPPEN NOW.



Then... You know that guy in kill Bill who made Beatrix into a badass and collected eyes? Did you know he (like Hatori Hanzo in the first movie) is a old school stable of his genre? Just like it's reference Pai Mei kills the fuck out of Shaolin people just cause he's a giant hardcore asshole in
EXECUTIONERS FROM SHAOLIN!

And then, ANIMAL ZOMBIES! One in particular! With a entendre worthy name! ZOMBEAVER!

All this, and the An American Werewolf in London XXX Porn Parody! I mostly am doing this because they actually do a transformation sequence! Sadly, unlike Wolf Cop, it doesn't involve a exploding blood-cock.

6pm est, usual place!

http://www.livestream.com/kagato23

Off again the week after this, but next time: PAUL REUBIN STREAM

[fscom]

Official clickables thread.

RULES FOR THIS:
1. NO huge images or columns of images that require scrolling, please.
2. ONE POST PER USER under in this thread.
3. If you're going to post, try to at least help the others.

[manzana]

[fscom]

General comments:

(If the thread contains spoilery/triggery content please post as 2nd comment so it collapses!)

Have you ever gone on a spiritual quest?

[(Anonymous)]

Rec Thread

[comradesmiler]

Fanart, fanfic, other stuff, ask or recommend it here.
Got something for Classic-who fans in the next comment.

Sexiest aliens thread?

[(Anonymous)]

Sexiest aliens thread.

Steam Sale

[(Anonymous)]

So what've you picked up so far?

Strong opinions

[(Anonymous)]

Do you have any super strong opinions that you're sure nothing and no one will ever be able to sway you out of... that aren't political, religious, or otherwise ideological in nature?

What are they?

Burnt

[(Anonymous)]

I got a mild sunburn on my arms today from walking downtown (pride festival: huge crowd and I can walk through crowds, but dislike crowds so didn't really pay attention to the people and the outfits they wore). Though I think it got worse on my left drive due to driving home and the sun being on the left side of the car.

But I've always wondered how is it that my upper arms can get burnt but my bare legs don't? I wore capris and birkenstocks yet the legs and feet are fine (and I had to walk back to the car because waiting for the shuttle in the hot sun wasn't going to work). So why is it? Has anyone managed to get their legs burnt while walking around?

Yayy!

[(Anonymous)]

I'm drunk in Brussels!! What a fucking great night!

confession time: i'm an awful hypocrite

[(Anonymous)]

Ok. I like mpreg. At least, a certain brand of mpreg. I loathe the magical truluve assbabies as much as the common mpreg hater, but I love it when a mad scientist, knowing very well how and why mpreg is impossible, tackles the problem and tries to get it done anyway--bonus points for non-con on the receiving parent's part and things going horribly wrong during the experiment. Dark, twisted, mad sciency mpreg only. Please no flooffy bundle of joy for me. But I have to confess that yes, when you look at it this way, I kind of like mpreg.
And I had no problem with that until today.

Today my inbox pinged with a bunch of review notifications from a... "Miss Pregnant Man" and I went EW, EW, EWWWW.
I just can't bring myself to even read the reviews and acknowledge what they're saying. Even worse, they're on fics of mine that I am quite proud of, so I loathe the idea of having a person with such a distasteful username attached to them.

I sort of hope they're flames and not praise...

Underwear thread

[(Anonymous)]

Let's talk about underwear. Favorites? Least favorites?

Here's my issue/rant. So many women's underwear doesn't actually... cover the butt these days. I mean, my butt's a little on the bigger end (US size 8) but even if I buy a size up, underwear seems to want to let half your moons be bare. Like, is that the style? I hate it because it always, without fail, leads to a massive wedgie within five minutes. How could underwear like that be comfortable for anyone?

I don't want to wear baggy granny-panties, but I want more cute bikini style underwear that actually covers my butt and doesn't get eaten, so to speak.

Jurrasic World

[philstar22]

Because I just saw it and loved it and want to get all excited about it with people.

What kinks did you pick up from the fanfics you read?

[(Anonymous)]

I have a handful of all-time favorite fanfics. I've picked up kinks from the ones that included sex. One of them is missionary position in slashfic, which is actually weirdly rare...

"special snowflake" identities

[(Anonymous)]

if you for some reason were to identify as something not a human, what would it be?

this is a for-fun thread, no wank pls

Hannibal fluff recs?

[(Anonymous)]

I really like the artsy dark/Mads Mik. microexpression-ness of the Hannibal tv show, but prefer reading fluffy, non-terrifying fics. While the real show is great, I read fic for light/fluffy fun etc. Does anyone know of any?

[(Anonymous)]

I think it's good for me sometimes to be reminded that no one could ever love me

[fscom]

Games thread!

tw:suicide tl;dr

[(Anonymous)]

So um, I completely fucked up my last year at Uni.

I studied biology and I had to work in a lab for nine months. I'm very clumsy and would always second-guess everything I did, so things that would take half a hour to do would take one hour. Didn't mean I managed not to fuck it up anyway, and I'd do some things over and over again. That is, until it reached the point that something needed to be done to move forward so one of the technicians would do it for me. I started feeling really bad about myself. Thinking that I'd fuck up every single thing and having everyone to do things for me.

Then they gave me something else to do, but I had no experience in doing it, didn't know what to look for, never understood quite well what I was supposed to do. But I shut up because I didn't want to be an idiot. I realize now that was a pretty bad mistake.

So I felt pretty shitty about myself, and started really fucking things up. I could barely get out of bed in the morning and if I showed up at 9:30 it was a good day. I didn't warn anyone that I would be late because it felt like admitting I had a problem. I stopped eating in the kitchen where everybody else was eating because I didn't want to meet the technician who was doing all that I was supposed to do. Had a bit of a crush on him at the beginning but realized he was pretty pissed off by my behavior and I couldn't face it.

I never apologized because I felt that apologies where pointless if you can't change and I didn't believe that I could.

On the few times we crossed paths if I asked him something I needed he'd pretty much tell him that "it's written in the protocol" or that I would know it if I had followed such and such experiment (I'd hide all day in the student's office in the basement). It reminded me of how much of a fuck up I was and I'd cry, often. So at some point I tried to avoid talking to him as much as I could.

Fast forward to now. I had to write a 30 page report and I procrastinated hardcore on it. If I weren't at the lab I'd avoid everything lab related. I wasted my weekends playing videogames. At the lab I'd always find something else to do.

The deadline was last Friday. I didn't make it. I can still finish it for Monday but will eat a penalty.

I had a meltdown when it became obvious I couldn't finish it on Friday. I hated myself and I hated my report for being a testimony of how much of a terrible person I was.

Then I read the stuff about the Nobel prize winner saying women scientists cry too often at work (http://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2015/jun/10/nobel-scientist-tim-hunt-female-scientists-cause-trouble-for-men-in-labs) and it made me want to die. Because I was the fucking stereotype of the weak crybaby that can't get anything done without someone to hold her hand. While there were awesome women getting shit done and getting shat on because of people like me.


So, right now I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't work in biology because I'd fuck up again. And I'd fuck up if it were any other jobs. I can't even marry a nice guy and be a housewife since I'm a fucking idiot with no self confidence. Right now suicide seems like the most rational choice. I'm telling myself I can't do it because my mom would be devastated but I'm afraid I'll snap and do it anyway. I see a therapist but it's just the beginning and I didn't tell her that I thought about killing myself everyday.

So thanks for reading my sob story of the day I guess.

Re: tw:suicide tl;dr

[(Anonymous)]

>I see a therapist but it's just the beginning and I didn't tell her that I thought about killing myself everyday.

Tell her. That's your first step.

Re: tw:suicide tl;dr

[(Anonymous)]

YOU LISTEN HERE -- You should not shoulder the blame for this alone.

I'm a graduate student in biology at a fairly prestigious university.

Let me tell you how we train our undergrads:

-The PI meets with them to discuss contributions to a project
-We assign them to a postdoc or graduate student.
-We give them the protocols
-That mentor (postdoc or graduate student) GOES THROUGH the protocol with the undergrad, step-by-step until they understand it
-When you feel confident in one technique, ONLY THEN can you do it on your own
-Any new techniques are ALWAYS learned with a mentor

But it sounds like your lab basically threw you in the water with no lesson on how to swim and no life preserver.

Should you have asked for help earlier? Yes. But if they expected you to just read the protocol and do it yourself, then they were DEFINITELY neglecting your training.

See if you can talk to the PI or the dean maybe?

Re: tw:suicide tl;dr

[caerbannog]

Anon, you're not fucking up.
You're new and inexperienced to the role, your team mates and managers should have been checking in with you to make sure you understood things, or had really thorough guides or just tried to be helpful - especially when you did ask for something because if they had shown you the protocol directly or something you'd "fuck up" less. You might have a crush on him, he might be a good technician but he's a shitty team player.

Also you are allowed to cry, everyone cries. You are not a weak cry baby, you're under pressure and have some depression/stress issues and it's perfect allowed to cry. Tim Hunt is a fucking idiot if he thinks only women cry over a bad day at work.

I want you to go have a nice cup of tea, park your ass in front of the computer and finish your report. Then hand it in, accept your penalties, apologise for the lateness and if you can: say you're having some personal issues but you've started seeing a therapist about it.

Also do you have a manger? Or a manger's-manager or head of lab or something? Talk to them, it can be the most general statement that you've been having some personal issues, you appreciate them letting you to continue to be there and you'll try to work at it better. Because chances are they know something is wrong, but a short conversation that you're trying will put them at ease.

Also, tell your therapist. Tell her everything, print your post out from here and hand it to her.

*hug hug*

Re: tw:suicide tl;dr

[dahli]

You're being WAY to harsh on yourself. You just started at a place with (I'm assuming) no previous experience on it, and you barely had any guidance once you were in. Second-guessing stuff you had no previous experience on is pretty normal. While I do think you shouldn't have holed-up yourself in the student's office and gone around and asked (show interest and whatnot), I'm gonna be honest with you here: what happened can't be changed, but you can learn and do better next time, when you get an actual job. Going around and asking once, twice, ten times until you are completely sure on what you're doing, and you become so good at it that people will start going to you to ask for help. Also, you started there as an intern (is that what you people call it? /esl), so there were obviously stuff you didn't know and THAT'S OKAY. We aren't born knowing everything.

I think you should still do your report on what you did anyway, because it's better to hand something and have a passing grade than nothing in the end. Yes, it's gonna be stressful and it's gonna suck, but you gotta do it. Another option is asking for an extension if possible, though I think you should get it done as soon as you can so you can rest. Also, after that take some time for yourself to rest and sleep, because you sound like you need it.

Also re: that article, Nobel Prize Scientist Tim Hunt can bite my shiny metal ass. "Oh wimmin craycray at work bcuz I'm bein a dick them boohoohoo :''( "

And tell your therapist about this. She's there to help you with you issues, man. Let her know about how you feel and that way you both can work out on how to improve on them.