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⌈ Secret Post #2084 ⌋

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Secrets Left to Post: 04 pages, 094 secrets from Secret Submission Post #298.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Comments

[fscom]

Official advertise your fandom-related comms/events thread.

RULES FOR THIS:
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2. Try not to link images at all, for easier loading. Text links are cool.
3. ONE POST PER USER under this thread.
4. DON'T start new threads. Replying to others' threads with questions and stuff is fine, though.
5. What IS allowed: roleplay advertisements, fandom comms, fandom events, things like that.
6. What is NOT allowed: anything for profit, any kind of fic/art commissions, seeking 1-on-1 RP, that kind of thing.

[fscom]

Official clickables thread.

RULES FOR THIS:
1. NO images bigger than 100x100 in either direction, unless they require views (a la vdex).
2. Try not to link images at all, for easier loading. Text links are cool.
3. ONE POST PER USER under in this thread (pick one of the secondary threads to post in. This is so the whole thread doesn't end up collapsing at the end). If you have to edit things in, delete and repost if you can't edit.
4. DON'T reply to anyone else's comments.
5. DON'T start new threads.
6. If you're going to post, try to at least help the others.

[kurara]

[blue_rampion]

[ex_paola492]

[merboo]

[honguito_nii]

[imbrifer]

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General comments:

[mekkio]

Better to fight for something than live for nothing. - George S. Patton

very random music thingie...

[(Anonymous)]

I love it when old cartoon songs make it to Bide&Musique's Top 50!

Hell Yes, we're treated to Cat's Eye and He-Man this week!

embarrassing clit/clock block thread

[anonymouslyyours]

I got asked out by a cute, funny guy at a coffee shop today! That has never happened to me! Probably because I am socially awkward when it comes to strangers and shut down but we were both wearing Transformer t-shirts (Me Grimlock, him Motormaster) and hoodies so I knew I was among my own kind. After a display of the world's nerdiest, most awkward flirting HE ASKED ME OUT! LIKE ON A REAL DATE BUT NOT STUPID BECAUSE IT WAS TO AN ARCADE! THERE WAS BLUSHING AND IT WAS NOT ALL MINE!

And then my mother's friend started shouting at the guy. Stuff like "She's a good girl!" which what even? It was a super big deal because I told my mother's friend to back off and then my mom got mad that *I* was being rude and we started fighting and my Mom's friend basically physically chased this guy off.

I went out into the parking lot to try and give him my number but like a reasonable person he had fled the scene as fast as possible.

Anyway I employed a super mature coping technique and went home and watched a bunch of really filthy porn.

Now I am totally sad. Commiserate with me F!S. What was your most embarrassing cock/clit block?

In the air tonight~

[(Anonymous)]

Fandomsecrets, I'm in LOVE again and it feels so good I just want to scream about it. Now I just need to hook the boy.

the music thread

[dethtoll]

Ulver - Lost in Moments

Rosetta - Lift (all 3 parts)

Volbeat - I Only Wanna Be With You

Poets of the Fall - Late Goodbye

[joltymcjolterson]

Hello! Sorry about yesterday's post being a little late, I'm afraid I napped right through the normal time and didn't realize until way after. Today, though, I have lambs! I'm actually kind of surprised I haven't really done them before- considering that we've had horses and snakes and ducks and scorpions and all sorts of things, but not these.

Anyway, let's get to them!

NSFW GIFS 5/? Choking & Hairpulling

[anonymouslyyours]

Link to part 1:
Warning: heavy with SFW embedded kissing GIFs
http://fandomsecrets.dreamwidth.org/661693.html?thread=576299453#cmt576299453

Link to part 2:
http://fandomsecrets.dreamwidth.org/662053.html?thread=576669733#cmt576669733

Link to part 3:
http://fandomsecrets.dreamwidth.org/662769.html?thread=577093617#cmt577093617

Link to part 4:
Warning: heavy with embedded GIFs (some contain nudity)
http://fandomsecrets.dreamwidth.org/674675.html?thread=583359603#cmt583359603

I'm getting an extra kick out of this post today. :D

Looking for a recipe

[(Anonymous)]

I would like to make Chicken Tikka Masala for myself however I'm not sure which recipes are truly similar to what I would get at the Indian restaurant near me. Nor am I sure how spicy I would like it to be. I've tried it a couple places but both times I've ended up with a mild version but that was definitely not spicy enough. I should probably just go back to the Indian restaurant I had it at before and try the next level up (their menu says they can make their food from extra mild to extra hot). Maybe I need to find a way to test different spice levels without wasting food, if that's possible... I also need to know if it's possible to freeze leftovers of this too as I live alone...

New Laptop!

[30_rock_office]

You guys, I was without a laptop for a week because my old one finally crapped out on me. And now I've got this beauty in my lap, and I'm so excited, I just had to share with people how would understand. :)

The heartbroken anon from a few days ago

[(Anonymous)]

I'm terribly sorry, guys, that I didn't answer any of the comments, I simply got too stressed out to read them while the discussion was still alive. Looks like it was a silly idea to share anyway: what's the use of sharing if I don't have the guts to respond, huh?

Truth be told, it was my first post in the GC section ever, and I submitted it out of sheer desperation in a particularly lonely moment when I didn't have anyone else to turn to. It was pretty short-sighted of me to do this knowing I'd be unlikely to beat my anxiety and read the comments. :(

Anyway, thank you, everyone who stopped to support me and give an advice, I really appreciate that. If there's still anyone kind enough to revive the discussion, I, uh... I guess I'll elaborate a little, and this time will try to reply to the comments.

Uhm... I don't really know what to write, it'll take me too long. To put it brief, I'm in a very, very bad place right now. Last time I wrote this relationship brought the best in me and made me a new, more healthy and happy person, but I'm afraid I lied here a little. I did change for the better, but I also discovered some nasty shit inside me. I've been speculating on this whole story during the last three days and I finally found out what's wrong. This love (my own love and his love for me) became my reason to exist and to respect myself. I didn't tell you that, but naturally I hate myself, I have horrid self-esteem issues - and this romantic feeling turned to be the only ground on which I managed to base my self-confidence at last. "I'm capable of love, therefore I worth something" - was my subconscious belief. Now that I don't have it (because the unrequited love I'm holding on to seems pathetic to me and I'm blaming myself for it mercilessly) I'm sort of out of 'good qualities'.

This is ridiculous for I'm an ace student (okay, would be if not for the procrastination caused by the same issues), I know a lot, am said to have mad writing skills (in my mother tongue, I mean), draw pretty well and an all around decent person, apparently. Except I don't believe all this. Ever since my teenage years my self-respect has been going down deeper and deeper, until I got convinced I'm nothing but worthless scum. My utter social awkwardness and subsequent lack of friends didn't help. Needless to say, I hadn't been involved in anything remotely romantic until that unfortunate crush. When I confessed to him and he confessed to me I felt like my entire world turned upside down, in a good way, that from that point on everything would be different... That I'm a human being now. But without the guy, the right to love him (for it's not only someone else's love but mostly my own from which I draw encouragement; maybe this is somehow neurotic, too) I can't sustain a normal life anymore, not after I've experienced this euphoria of *sensefullness*, if you know what I mean.

I'm aware it's all bad and sick, but... I don't even know. I'm stuck, but, as I said before, I consciously refuse to move on if moving on means I'll have to abandon this residual tenderness abruptly and for good. Right now it'd be like throwing out that me which was happy, able of wonderful things, creative, strong etc. etc., the person I became almost exclusively thanks to love (or not? Maybe I should work on separating those too notions... I have no idea, I'm lost).

So... here's that.

PS To the anon who advised to stop seeing the ex: I try to keep the amount of communication in reasonable bounders, in order to keep myself from being 'triggered' (if the word applies here) but, as peculiar as it might seem, we've reached a rather pleasant and comfortable level of post-break-up closeness, built a surprisingly safe friendzone, so I would personally prefer to keep it as it is.

The Middle East and Western Asia riots- Your thoughts?

[(Anonymous)]

The "protests," which are nothing more than riots, that started last week have spread through Pakistan now. People are still claiming that the anti-Islam movie is the reason for this.

Personally, I, originally, bought that some people were rioting over the movie. But now, it's being used an excuse to pillage, raze and kill. British, German and Dutch embassies and owned buildings have been raided and destroyed. They had nothing to do with the American made movie. So, why attack them?

All the "protesters" except for one woman, I saw standing in the background in Lebanon, have been men around the ages of 18 to 45. To me, this is more of a cultural thing that has almost little, if nothing to do with Islam. Like if this was the land of atheists, they would have found another reason to riot.

What do you think? What do you think should be done?

[(Anonymous)]

does anyone ever fill requests on kinkmemes for fics that they would probably not read? I always seem to write certain types of fics which aren't things I'd go looking for to read. It seems weird.

drama llama duck

[(Anonymous)]

I feel so guilty not telling my friend I like her boyfriend. Even though that would be the stupidest thing to do, like, ever. Of course I'm not going to tell her, but I feel guilty and fake not doing so. Gah.

Story ideas that just won't work.

[al28894]

(Female child prodigy meets assassin's family) + (Genius boy and his girlfiend meets royal family) + (Supernatural being meets alien) + (Same alien and assassin from above meets living God) = WTF BRAIN!?


I'm sure I'm not the only one with this.

Am I right or wrong? (TW: Abuse)

[30_rock_office]

Sorry in advance for the heavy stuff in here, but I could use some reassurance/guidance...

Ok, without getting too much into the story, my father was abusive to my, my Mom, and my sister. My Mom asked to leave. A bunch of shit went down, but two years later, my sister and I are finally in a good place. My Mom has always been supportive of my sister and me, but there are just some things she just doesn't understand. I don't know if it's because she's still suffering from the abuse or not (she probably is), but my Mom keeps harping on me about trying to "get along" or "keep the peace" and how, "One day, you'll be able to see your father, and you can forgive him, and you won't feel as bad anymore." I tried to explain to that (a) I feel fine, I just have desire to ever see him again, (b) wouldn't care if he died tomorrow, (c) that that is not going to happen because simply seeing him is triggering. She countered with, "That's what I'm saying. More time and coping will make the trigger feeling go away." She has this idea that one day we'll have a relationship in some sort of capacity and no matter how many times I say that that is not going to happen, she just says, "You say that now, but years down the road, you might change your mind."

For fuck's sake, since when do I (a victim) have to become buddy-buddy with my father (abuser of my family)? Am I missing something here? Do triggers just "go away"? How can I get my Mom to stop trying to make it seem like all of this will just go away one day? And how do I get her off my back when she says, "Well, you say that now..." or "I'm the one in the middle here, between you and your father. I'm not in a good position"?

I love my Mom, and she has helped me through some very dark days, but it seems like she sometimes doesn't understand just how much she and I (and my sister) were fucked up by my father. Almost as if she had lived with it for so long, she doesn't even realize what she's saying or how she's making me feel when she says these things. And her talking about it is pretty triggering as well. There are so many conversations that somehow just end up being about my father and making me feel like shit all of a sudden. I just want to go back to the peace and quite of not thinking about all the awful things my father did to me and my family. I've been to therapy and have learned to cope and move on, but it's difficult sometimes when things like this with her happen.

Tl;dr: My father was abusive to my sister, my Mom, and me, but my Mom thinks one day we will all get along and the triggers will just "go away." And I don't know how to get her out of that mindset

Re: Am I right or wrong? (TW: Abuse)

[insanenoodlyguy]

To your mom, I think, this is part of the healing. I expect she intends the best, and assumes if you and your father are okay, that means everything is okay!

Of course, it's not how this works. You know that about yourself. She either doesn't believe that it works like that or doesn't understand it. For her, maybe that's what it has to be. Maybe it's a projection onto you, she thinks SHE has to forgive him and thus all do. Maybe it's even something she does need to do to let it go. The fact that it keeps coming up means it's probably something your mom thinks about alot. Only some much you can take from a paragraph. But weather any of those things or none of them are right, that's irrelevant compared to what you need to do.

I'm not sure what conversations you have or haven't had with your mother. Have you recommended she get therapy? But, refocusing back on you, I don't know what conversations you have and haven't had with your mom, but I don't think it's unreasonably to tell her in direct terms that there is a topic you are not going to talk about with her. And back that up. It sounds like you've had the argument enough times to know that you aren't going to win it. Only winning move is not to play. Which might result in a situation that's unideal, because your mother will inevitably feel hurt about it, but I think in situations like this you need to do what's best for you first and foremost. Otherwise it could turn into a real fight that could end worse then the hurt of a few conversations shut down.

I'm sorry that it's come to this. Just try to remember that in all likelihood your mother is hurting too, and even if she wont' let it be over, she likely wants the hurt to be over just as much as you do, no matter how she expresses it.